update

I didn't manage to do soem updates before i flew to the East side haha! but hey I'm here now.. internet is very slow so don't expect much... let's start from CG night... prolougue (as i didnt take any of the cg gathering night itself haha!)


CG Night Prolouge
So this is a brief intro, basically we made sushi the night before preparing to send it over to Kota Kumning... which in the process we got lost! haha! the Cg gathering was nice, got to meet more people in Zone D get to know our zone that much better! :) here's the pics:


.... Alright seems I can't upload the pics! maybe next time! hmm or you could check it out in my facebook :)!

Next Sulee came back
This was just for a while but it was cool :)

Present time in sarawak-Miri
Got here went to brunei! then... amazingly they have all the imported food you could ever get... imagine I got penguins here! those chocolate biscuits only made in UK! haha and I saw celebrations and all.. it was like UK in Asia haha! pretty nice experience, another thing to note is.. that the air here is WAY fresher.. I was out most of the day.. and minimal dirt was on my face amazing!

Next would be the HUG dragon fruits my Grand ma breeds in her garden! it was so BIG! haha sorry all no pics!

Wohoo this is a great vacation!

won't be posting much.. or maybe I will! any how till next time!
God bless
-Chris
::life's like that... or is it really?::

miss...

Ahhh! I miss my dear so much... :(... sigh.. wish i could talk to her more...miss you soo much! when you coming back.. when will i see u =(

Work holiday work holiday!

Yea this weeks gonna be rocking on by! Monday today is a holiday then Thursday is a holiday then... 17th I'm off!!!!! yeeeehaaaa! i wonder if I can visit the caves in Sarawak! :O hope this will be a great time for me to unwind relax and also get some recreational time :). hoping when I'm back I'll be fully energize to work and read and learn and.... fill int he line! haha just to update hehe ^^ Christmas is coming and you peeps need not get me a present as I am away :P but I'll be *unsure* sure to get u a souvenir (most likely a key chain) from east msia :D!

God bless ya all
-Chris

Shopping spree ~_~

Was working.. and my job for the past 2 days was to shop for a router and adapter.. well.. haha can say it was a sucess/failure :P the adapter was cheap so I took it for my boss since he was looking for whatever.. but orginal was 95 damn cheap! sigh haha shoulda took that.. any how.... new office is in kelana.. pretty far distance! but hey.. it's next to my dear :P... haha!

Counting down... 13 days to go! THEN OFF TO East Msia! wohooo!!! :D

Kinda in a mix

Not sure what to post today =). I'm kinda in a mix, haha... I need to return to God I think =)! well what shall I say? I was so happy that all my friends from uk replied me in facebook ahaha sounds kinda lame right? but hey it's a joyful thing! lol I think many people might feel that, if all thier old mates got back and spoke to them again, even though it's been over 7 years, you're still mates =).

haha any how thts all I'm gonna post fo rnow, prehaps late rI have more inspration to blog :P

TAGGED

oooo.. been tagged by john! Something to post about I guess :P

The tag rules: Each player starts with 8 random fact/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag 8 people and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog.


So, here goes, the 8 things about me:

1. I used to be a bible study teacher :P
2. I used to have fits.. when going to areas with high frequency of flickering lights>eg tv.. or one of those games u play that has the flashing lights.
3. Refering to point 2 I've been healed from the sickness! Praise God for answering my prayer!
4. I sing my own worship songs and record them o.O;
5. I can speak in several accents :P (only english)
6. I was NOT born in UK, but I was there since I was 2. returned to m'sia at age 14.
7. I have a strange sense of loving to make those clip on models.. and paint them
8. I love to make visions of self -made stories (movie like style xD)

this is not a new post... just something for flee to copy n paste :P and alexander perhaps :P coz they cant find my previous post wahahaha

Love love love

As beautiful as the flowers that make the field attractive,
as cool as the wind blowing in the hot sunny day,
so is the time I feel for you.

As wonderful as the perfectly cut diamond,
and as memezrising as the most creatively made crystal,
so are your eyes to me.

Captivated in your love,
captivated by your beauty,
oh how wonderful are you!

I miss you now,
I miss you when we say good bye,
I love you much, my heart and dear.

as we grow, as God takes part in our growth,
I'm so glad I met you girl,
You are that rainbow that shows in the rain,
you are that precious diamond that is amongst al the glass,
You are my love my dear my girl =)

I love you with all of my heart~!

-Chris
::Love is a wonderful thing, we go through it, from hurts, pains, joyful moments, stressful moments, werid moments... any moment, it's still love::

Uncontrollable!

::WARNING THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST AND BY FAR THE MOST RIGHT IN THE FACE POST WRITTEN ON THIS BLOG, VULGAR LANGUAGE HAS BEEN USED BUT CENSORED::

We live in such an impersonal world these days, and even when we do live in a personal area of zone. We will never find satisfaction. In life we will face frustrations, frustrations come from no being able to be God Himself and control the situation, We want everything to go our splendid way, and when it doesn't we go and we just lose it we go berserk! throw a fit like a big baby.

Then when everything is going according to plan, we take every last miniute for granted. ok I can't speak for you but this is how I have felt before.We will never have satifaction on trying and striving to control situations, then when we don't need to have these extra things with us we go ahead an feed on them.. so much so we come fat full of the negative, thinking yes I am strong I won't fall... But when the time comes and you fall BAMM! your on your face again.

But I gotta say your not a loser if you get up again, your a loser if you stay down. Worste of all is, when we can't be God we will blame God for it instead of talking to him about it, We'll start to gnash at our on friends not being able to see who is helping and who is not. Eventually God will send some one to give you a GREAT SLAP! a slap is what you need.. and dang if only you could give yourself a slap to wake up...

But you see after all the fustration... we tend to fall into depression.. and we don't call for help because depression is a comfort zone of itself.. it eats you a live whilst making you feel in complete comfort and SELF PITY. Yeap I said it, I was in self pity before too... making my self sad to be NOTICED by not EVERYONE but that ONE person... yea sad eh? but so true.. then you yourself will start comforting AS WELL AS condemning yourself.. and it gets mroe n mroe comfortable in this pit of death... When really deep down in your heart you want freedom from this pit.. But it feeels so gooooddd you wouldn't want to come out of it.

But I tell you, when I decided to give it to God and when God sent some one to slap me awake, I realised I could live without depression and enjoy life... depression will come back to test ya, to show you that you ARE HUMAN and you HURT, and YOU ARE NOT GOD it also shows you that YOU NEED GOD, YOU NEED FRIENDS, YOU DON'T NEED COMFORT BUT A FRIGGING SLAP. haha... true enough, if friends comfort you it;s not enough, I'm sorry to say IT IS NOT ENOUGH! It'll just make you stay in that PIG sty feeding off PIG food till the day you die or realise hey My Father treats His SLAVES better than this person depression..

When you come to s stage where you say MY LIFE SUCKS, it HAS NO MEANING, it's all in VAIN! Then you want to get rid of it.. fall into an endless pit of sleep and never wake up again! This is where you make your decision... IF YOUR LIFE is not worth what YOU want it to be, GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT TO GOD, LET HIM USE IT. I tell you.. thats what happened to me.. I got to a stage, I'm useless and surrendered my life to God... heck I'm not a good person, but at least I know if my life isn't worth anything it's up to God to deal with it. After all it belongs to him, and not I'd rather not give it to the devil, coz personally i don't want anymore self pityness and bring others down.

I tell you now, WAKE UP, This is how it happened to me, through fustrations of uncontrolable beings, realising fire doesn't take out fire but makes the forest burn faster! when I realised HATE never really get any HATE out of the equation but make more ANGER. When you realise that depression if just a f*cking illusion now F**KING WAKE UP! if your useless if your life is in vain GIVE IT TO GOD SO HE CAN DO SOMETHING WITH IT.. STOP HOLDING IT SO TIGHT... STOP TRYING TO BE GOD...

And I tell you.. you don't need to pick up a shield and run with me, Coz God will be your sheild till the end.

Darkness never drives out darkness, only light does,
Hate never drives out hate, only love does,
Depression never drives out Depression, Revalation does.

I tell you friends, whatever is happening in on above around this decaying peice of rock. That we are trying to save, or shall i say slow down the process of decay. YOU'VE GOT THE CHOICE, AND YES YOU ARE CHOOSING WHAT YOU ARE CHOOSING NOW AND NOW IS THE TIME.

God bless ya all,
-Chris
::Sound the Jubilee - RLC::

Love story - Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

dunno

Dunno what to post... Blabla lets do soemthing random:

The stars glow and the moon shines,

People kill people love,

SO who shall we trust?

The truth will set you free,

But first it'll make you angry,

As when you cannot accept the truth,

rage will come in hunger~

Random stuff random weeee..

Thank you!

Well was down recently.. probably struggling on my own effort.. As some of you would have noticed my blog posts probably got a lil more aggressive too haha.. But My Public apologies to all I might have offended!

I want to thank God for bringing me out of the valley of shadow of death, truly I have been dwelling in it once more.. thinking everything a waste.. and God has abandoned all of us... Well not all of us mainly me! haha... But I'm glad tonight a special dear friend of mine~ Or shall I say my dear shared some things with me. It brought me up, and probably cleaned my eyes.. from that MASSIVE plank blocking my vision. I don't think many people would have done that with my kinda attitude. But I'm glad God sent her to me never the less~

Which reminded me of a verse immediately, I believe must be God speaking to me.

Ecclesiastes 4: 9-12

9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

10 If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!

11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

:) I'm glad God sends bros and sisters at right times... even when I felt my closest brothers and sisters abandoned me, there was still one standing there smacking me in the face(gently) saying wake up and taking that plank of wood outta my eyes so I can see clearly again. God is still here God is alive! AMEN

God bless ya all!

-Chris

::Woah God never gives up, He'll make sure u are up again, Using absolutly ANYONE!::

Assumptions

Why Do humans love to assume? It's what makes this world of MIS-communications so wonderous.. I've got my own theory on assumptions. Never Assume Always confirm. Assumption just brings you down the road of misery and broken relationships.. Besides that it can make you feel that ur right when your not. Then when you find out you were wrong! POOF you feel not only bad. But end up in deniel .. Haha I've experienced it before... I assumeds something got everything in to a mess.. and learnt my lesson.

Don't you think assumptions are bad? Imagine.. I assume that there are 5 hostages held in that mansion of 50 people.. u go storm in with a gun.. thinking your rescuing some hostages.. then peopel try to stop u.. u kill 25 of them and find out no one was actually in that mansion being held hostage... but preparing for a theatre act? Ouch wouldn't that be wonderful..

only time I accepted assumptions is for using it as an alternative way of saying IF.. like Assuming this and that happened... is just another way of saying IF this n this happened..

Anyhow, Another ASS uming post from me.

-Chris

Pretty much in disgust

Haha, recently read the news... What the heck man.. somethings wrong with this world =/ check it out : http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/11/19/nation/2582545&sec=nation

Can you believe it... leaving your own husband to be with another woman(tom boy), who resembles a singer you like... Crap la..

very scary, I hope this never happens to any of us =/... So screwed up. Worste part was they were like commit adultry.. What's this world come to? @_@ seems like no one knows what moral is these days.. no respect.. makes me sick!

=/ Don't normally post these kinda things haha.

TAGGED

oooo.. been tagged by john! Something to post about I guess :P

The tag rules: Each player starts with 8 random fact/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag 8 people and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog.


So, here goes, the 8 things about me:

1. I used to be a bible study teacher :P
2. I used to have fits.. when going to areas with high frequency of flickering lights>eg tv.. or one of those games u play that has the flashing lights.
3. Refering to point 2 I've been healed from the sickness! Praise God for answering my prayer!
4. I sing my own worship songs and record them o.O;
5. I can speak in several accents :P (only english)
6. I was NOT born in UK, but I was there since I was 2. returned to m'sia at age 14.
7. I have a strange sense of loving to make those clip on models.. and paint them
8. I love to make visions of self -made stories (movie like style xD)

Thank you John Tan for tagging me :)


Alrighty, here are the 8 bloggers who are now being tagged!!!

Kelz Kelz
Benjamin ET
William
Florence Lee
Alicia Chui(no link for personal reasons)
Alexander Tee
Alex Chui (No link for personal reasons o.O;; bro n sis alike haha)
Sze Mun

All sufficiency

Short but I feel liek posting this after reading a blog =). I know these are trying times in the world, and many retrenchments are happening, just I never felt it before. I'm guess that's a blessing in it's own way. but that's not what I Wanted to share.

Just wanted to share, that Strangely enough before realising abotu retrenchment I believe GOd made me listen to this message 2 times. By Pastor prince, He mentioned about retrenchment saying he knew many peopel who were retrenched and how it was more of a blessing than a curse! How the poeple couldn't possibly of taken a break during their working times, managed to take a break, go on holiday come back and there was a new job waiting for them! He said if you are a child of God, God has a better plan for you =).

I also believe that this verse given to me earlier this month was not a coincidence:

2 Coirinthians 9 : 6-8

6Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. 7Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. 8And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

Although it's about giving. I believe if you pray and give time to God give to your brothers and sisters, surely even through retrenchment you will have all things =) and All sufficiency.

God won't let you down ;) stay strong and faithful bros and sis =) I will keep you all in prayer! =)

-Chris

wet toilets

Today thought of posting something else.. but the person who over wrote what I wanted to say is the cleaning lady! wow.. she was speaking in malay.. I didn't understand a word.. Thank goodness, but by facial expression i could tell she was scolding me.

like WTF man... what did I do? she's not exactly considerate to think that someo ne else sprayed water on the floor and Frigging blame it on me? she should be happy.. most of the time I helped clean that damned toilet.. why don't they go install an cctv! I hoep she complains to my management so I can complain back with a letter o unsactifactory state in toilets! also complain how the cleaner didn't use her BRAIN to think. hah.. need to vent out my fustration here... whats the point in cleaners if they don't clean any way?... should be happy got somethign to clean and not aimlessly blame it on the last person u saw! imagine I walk down the street.. I see some litter next to her.. should i go blowing in her face.. HOW CAN U THROW ALL THIS ON THE FLOOR! I tell u she'd be defending her self, and I would just say. Yeap then you should have thought about the case in the toilet. Smart ass cleaners...

Any how.. She's forgiven, God still loves her the same. Hope she doesn't have such short sightedness next time and more wisdom.. if I wasn't a person whow as kind.. well she'd be in the news paper tmr morning. she's lucky it was me she thoguht she 'caught' wetting the toilet. ny How case closed!

-Chris

::Don't ASSUME unless your an ASS who is umming... In any case if you're an ASS God can still change you and use you...::

Twist & turn

to be honest I don't know why i chose
this as the title of my post.. but here
goes~

Through life's turmoil, and through all
the pains,when we walk in valleys when we walk on
mountains,There is no end to the hurt or pains...
so that was what they said to a person
named, blane.Blane was a person who always searched
for love, somewhere in his heart he
knew true love stooped, but everytime
he ever got close enough, he was
rejected... or at least felt rejected.
But one day, he met a girl named,
sophia, she was sweet as can be, and
things were going smoothly; with of
course the occasional bumps in a
relationship. For the first time in his
life Bane felt security. He felt so
complete in his life, that he forgot
about those who truly loved him for all
his life.

However his new found love was not
easy, he would leave the house of his
parents to visit sophia, each and every
day. His relationship with his parents
deterioted, and his relationship with
his friends, would now all have a
barrier.. he sacrficed his life, just
for sophia... but ironicly she didn't
do the same for him. She loved him, but
her love wasn't enough to fill the
hole.. she saw Blane, get more n more
desperate.. only wanting to draw from
her love... she was so burdened... yet
she couldn't leave.. for years she
tendered and loved him, but for years
Blane didn't get enough. He became more
desperate.. craving for her more and
more.. that she literally became his
god.

Then, during a sunny day, when all the
birds were churping, and the trees were
blooming in all thier beauty... Sophia
told Blane, with a tired expression on
her face, and shaking in her voice, she
said,"Blane, I can't take this any
more.. it's been 4 years, but in this 4
years, though i love you , I can't
satisfy you..you've got a void, and you
just want more. during that time we
broke up before, I actually felt
freedom for a while, I enjoyed it.. but
my compassion in seeing you there
tearing into bits.. just won over me,
so I came back.. but this time.. it's
not the same.. we need to separate.."

The words were like a waterfall
crashing into his heart.. Blane felt
like he was drowning in the words of
one he thought was his life, and his
all...
sophia turned her back and left...
whilst Blane was still in shock.. it
was as if some one has just given him a
crippling blow to the heart... he felt
his life was melting away... the birds
churping became silent in his ears and
every thing felt black and white... As
he sat on the floor, thoughts started
rushing through his mind.

Memories of
his parents who loved him so tenderly
and how for the past 4 years he has
been so ignorant to them, and even took
them for granted... He sat and though
of these things.. how he left the house
2 years ago out of rage, just because
his parents told him to spend more time
with them, because they missed him. In
all His anguish he did not know what to
do, who to turn to... so slowly, he
returned to his home. His thoughts were
like ants whome home was distrubed, and
scattered. He told himself, I'll
appologise.. no no.. thats not enough
for my parents, I'll beg my way.. I'll
become thier slave.. or butler.. driver
anything.. I'm nothing now... As he was
reaching home.. he saw posters which
were torn, it read: lost, Blane bows ,
if found please inform us. name your
price, he is worth more than the world
to us!
With this.. tears started streaming
down his eyes.. he fell to the floor,
muttering, " How could i be so
selfish.. my parents loved me so much,
and I forsoke them.. how can I return
to them now?.. They'll never accept me"

*screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* the sounds
of tyres scretching on the floor, out
of no where hands embraced him. He was
dirty and smelly from the long journey
home.. He was stunned when arms
suddenly grabbed him from behind.They were soft tender hands, as he turned around he couldn't believe his eyes, the beauty of a young girl, tears started to fall, and he embraced her back, "I'm back lil sis..", his sister was so happy that she couldn't stop cryign and smiling, the parents too were there, welcoming him back.. They embraced him and said welcome home.. before he could say anything they said, we are going to throw a party for your return, invite all your old buddies. and have a great time!..
________

well felt like writing this story, some may see it the same as the prodigal son, well you're correct. it's about the same, just this one falls on more how even though you might turn your back on God, for someone else.. God is always wanting you back home, to the place where you belong!
Hope you have been blessed.

-Chris
::The world might flood you with kisses and destroy you all together after that, but if you run back to God, He'll take all those shots for you and sheild you from the enemy::

A Smile

A smile is what I remember something I dreamt of, to see the world smiling.. and all in joy, I wonder if it's possible? I did once conceive it as impossible because one persons joy might be another's suffering..

But I figured, the only way to make people happy, is to be the one who is happy... Oh how I wish I could spread happiness.. but my heart is full of deceit sometimes.. laziness gets the better of me, or tiredness.. which leads to destruction sometimes.. I'm really sad to see some people sad... and the fact that they can't express it when they want to makes me hurt inside... I know how they feel.. how the world can't be trusted and how it's bad to say bad things about others.. how we love to bottle up our emotions and say everything is alright when we know it isn't!

But this how people put on masks I guess.. this is why some don't believe in God.. they put on a mask so they don't believe, when deep inside they are craving to get to God... perhaps? I didn't say all are like this, just some.. perhaps fear is holding them, or being uncertain? perhaps doubt is wandering about their minds.. What ever the reason.. I wish them peace and may their emotions and bottles be busted... so they can finally sigh not another sigh of stress.. but a sigh of final peace and relief..

Oh how I wish the church was as perfect as it should be, but i know that people are all imperfect.. and we all fear.. how I wish we could just share to our fellow brothers and sisters.. but we can't simply because sometimes what we share might not be the right thing to share... ok, though I understand that our brothers and sisters hurt us for the better good sometimes.. not all of us can see it that way.. and the hurt feels more than capable.. thats where we need to rebuild i guess... instead of fleeing to the enemies kisses...

I'm deeply grieved.. I see many people sad... but why should i be grieved? I know God will pull them out.. if I let him take the stand and control.. I guess.. coz once upon a time, I told myself I will make myself as trust worthy as possible.. make sure people trust me, so they can share, and I'll keep them in my silent prayer.. or keep their secrets at bay so they will feel better that at least some one they trust knows..

I probally failed... thats the reason why less and less people share.. it's not that gossip is what I want to hear. But I'd prefer the burden to be shared I don't mind keeping silent, as long as you think me sharing your burden will ease your pains..

Only God will know what I have come to know.. and forever it shall be like that.. even if death may come. They will only hear the truth of how Christ, has come for them.. and redeemed them too..

oh God this is my prayer tonight.. Every man and woman, in this world.. believer or not.. has a peaceful sleep.. meet up with them.. and let their load be light for just an hour or so.. if not let them come to know you and lighten up the burden forever... may they see you for who you really are.. and not for who they think you are.. I pray you shelter the orphans... heal the sick, continue to be with those who are hurting.. and mend their hearts . I thank you oh God.. I type this prayer on this blog... not for recognition.. but so that some one in this world may be at peace, and know they are prayed for... =) Thanks oh Father,

Amen.

Aftermath

Man.. even though I did succeed in the 6am.. haha my body is aching all de way through! well.. Got through today thankfully dragging the legs around in pain haha! I still don't believe 5 mins can cause so much damage (repairs) on my body! haha...

hmmm I don't have much to post, just posting for the sake of updating for now! anything els eI'll update ya all!

God bless

-Chris

6am!

Yeah I suceeded! I woke up at 6... and napped till 6:25 :P... Then got me trainers on... managed to get out of the house and started jogging!

at first I Felt great thinking hey this isn't as hard as last time! ohh.... how I thought I would suceed... in my 30 min.. Guess what?! i failed... But heck we all gotta start somewhere right?!.. Well I went around jogging and my dog was following me and running after me all the way.. till I got tired after 5 mins! MY GOODNESS 5 MINITUES! haha... well.. I found out the air isn't as fresh as it used to be at 6am~ I was having difficulty breathing for a while.. but alls well ends well.. after 10 mins i managed to reach home.. take a cold/warm shower.... sit and get ready for work... haha!

Well John I dunno how you do it! sure got some spirit to be able to wake so early to jog man...!

Anything else to post? hmm erm... nah save it for next time.

God bless.

Chris

::Waking up early is hard, but once u did it.. you'll feel like you got a lot of time in hand before heading out to work!::

Needs to start drinking

Alright, as bizzare as it may sound! I need to start to drink.. haha.. but obviously in moderation.. so time to rampage around n see which drink suits me best. *smiles widely*. One things for sure tho, I still don't like beer haha! tho apple shandy tastes quite nice :D.

So why start drinking?! you might ask me, isn't it a sin to drink...? my answer to that is, no.. it's not a sin to drink, and no I'm not encouraging you to drink either... lol. But I have discovered... drinking is good for you! haha.. so as long as you don't endulge in it, drink in small and moderate portions.. not in large lumpsomes. Other wise it will have the opposite effect.

Here's my discovery, drinking in moderation helps improve, cognitive memory... you can check it out here (http://health.howstuffworks.com/10-ways-to-improve-memory1.htm) also there must be something gd in it esp when paul encourages timothy to drink a lil in EVERYTHING.. gee imagine juice with wine.. no wonder cocktails appeared! hehe

1 Timothy 5:23 "Stop drinking only water, and use a little wine because of your stomach and your frequent illnesses. " - this might just help me with my frequency too? hehe...

but as i said in moderation ~ proverbs 23:31 " 31 Do not gaze at wine when it is red, when it sparkles in the cup, when it goes down smoothly!"

God bless! :)

-Chris
::Mystries of life are uncovered day by day, life gets better as the day goes by, life gets richer as God comes in::

Thank you

Thank you for being by my side,
Thank you for the joy you brought,
Thank you for the burdens we share,
Thank you that you're there,
Thank you that I have you,

You're the one that I have fallen for,
The one person that captured my heart so long,
As precious as this heart is,
You're holding it carefully,
full of love and care.

Thank you for letting God step in,
Thank you for letting God be the center,
Thank you for listening,
Thank you for talking,

Though some times I feel you've changed,
I still love the way you say I love you,
I miss the times you say it spontaneously,
and how you showed your love towards me.

Thank you for holding my hand,
Thank you for being mine,
Thank you for new friends you shown,
Thank you for showing me things I knew not.

I miss your kisses,
I miss your hugs,
I miss much about you,
BUT MOST OF ALL,
I MISS YOU.

Thank you for everything,
I want to tell you here what I told you before,
I love you, because of you...
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Thanks Lord.. for Friends, Thanks Lord for family, Thanks Lord for holding me, Thanks for salvation. and thanks for my dear =)

God bless ya all,

-Chris

::Funny thing life is, we can sometimes lose insight of others, coz we keep looking at ourselves, building a wall with own effort, when all we need to do is let God in and protect us! For He who is in us is greater than those in the world::

As usual

Well as usual.. i blog a lil while later from my previous blog.. and feeling like blogging after reading john's blog coz of his constant updates.

So what can I say? well.. haha actually nothing much has been happening these days, been looking for a lenova eebook.. do u believe it i went to low yat... megamall and digital mall. and all the same price! ALL DO NOT HAVE GOTHIC BLACK! AND ALL DO NOT ALLOW BArgining.. (darn thier real good with thier marketting lenova that is..) there is no variation of even one sen! do u believe it..? low yat No stock at all, megamall no black(refil next month) Didgital mall no black(refill today hopefully)....

so why am I looking for this book? and why is it on such high demand!? well I am looking for it for my mother... for her birthday present! as for why is it on high demand 1. coz it's damn cheap compared to other eebooks... 2nd I have no idea :P.

haha interessting.. so whats this eebook? it's a lappy.. which has been strunk to a size of a small book.. so u can carry it in a handbag or what not without any one noticing that you have it.. it's mainly used for the net! haha... ah well thats all I'll update this round i think.. more interessting things next time around

God bless,

Chris

p.s I updated by uploading a vid clip by casting crowns:P

Not here to judge

These were the words by Ps.Kevin today (chc). I dunno why but these words gave me so much comfort... not that it was said directly by God or he said Thus saith the Lord... BUT that the way he said it reminded me of how our Heavenly Father is really like.. and what Jesus did and came for.

Ps Kevin said something like this: I am not here to judge you, I am not here to give you new sets of law, I am not here to say, you are in CHC here's the 10 commandments and 1000 pharsical laws.. (and other laws) But I am here to bring the glory of God down into your lives, so that the Glory of the Lord may be amongst you while you work, while you are studying, that the Glory of the Lord, helps you in pursuing your dream. My Job is not to tell you what you can do, and what you can't do. Don't let any one ever tell you, that your dream is not worth it. No Pursue it! I am here to teach God's glory to you, to teach you what God wants you to have in your life... I am not here to judge. No one can judge you.

I dunno these words reminded me... of what a pastor really is, their not law givers.. in fact, they are shepherds, they are the image of Christ... and what He said really made sense... coz Jesus said before, I have not come into this world to judge.

Yes as Christians, we should know what's right from wrong in God's eyes... And yes coz of love we obey! =) but thats the thing that made everything about this service today great.. wasn't only about the music, but the offering challenge speech was amazing.. no one can force you, to give... don't give coz YOU HAVE TO, but give COZ YOU WANT TO!

So many will ask me, does that mean I can do wrong as a Christian? Then I should ask back, Do you want to do something that will hurt some one precious to you?

It's like this friends. you have a girl friend/ boy friend, what you going to do? if you know this bad habbit of yours if hurting them deep inside, will you strive to do it more? if you knew let's say they won't leave you... would you persist in doing it? to hurt some one you love? then you know what I mean by you want to do what's right in God's eyes. Instead of YOU HAVE TO!

=)

That's all! God bless ya all~

-Chris

Missing ...

I said no more sad posts.. but you know I really feel like posting this one...

This post is dedicated to my only grand pap that was alive when i was born... He was a very tall man.. 6 foot tall.. but I only saw him a few times in my entire life... He passed away last year...

To think he didn't even get to see how I've grown.. wonder what was in his heart? to not be able to see his grand children much.. wonder if he expected it? though he smoked, which I didn't really like.. but some how I miss him..

It brings tears to my eyes... I feel like.. I didn't really get to know him... why is life so fragile God? it's like time flies by so fast... and we take every moment for granted... when each second is actually a veyr precious second... Where instead of sitting in front of computer games we could be sitting with our parents watching tv.. talking about whats happening..

Some how computer has drawn over it all.. hidden in this chamber of the house... making me lose every opportunity of getting to spend precious time with family... I'm kinda sad I don't get to see my grand paps.. next time i go miri... I'm sad.. I want my grand ma to see me at least once within these 12 months... so I can just hug her once,... My grand ma on my mum's side.. so she can see her grand child... how he has grown...

God please keep her within you... continue to encourage her, let her not feel she is a burden, but instead let her feel she is needed... make her feel that she is full of life, to enjoy every moment of it, even tho... her husband has gone to pass... let her smile again... send an angel to guide and comfort her oh Lord.. I am just human oh God...

These tears.. I can feel... very strongly oh Lord.. I havn't had these tears.. since.. the last I thought of such things... don't answer my prayers coz of my tears God... answer them coz you love her God... Father.. Take care of her...

Thanks Oh Father... Thanks...

With love,
-Chris

A Question?

The other week Kherlit's friend sheirly stunned me for a while.. in the middle of an interessting sermon. I kinda fell back and wondered what triggered such a question! haha.. should i post the Question here? hmm.. seems like kherlit has asked me about this before, same goes with her bible teacher.

BUT what is the verdict?... I have no clue! haha.. I'm not ready to do what they have asked. I'm certaintly not comfortable with the decision I am posed with.
It's a bit of a twist and turn if you ask me.. it goes on along these lines.. your in this house.. overseeing some childern.. the question would be would you want to switch houses and be with people ur age... But to me, I can't just yet, I don't feel the calling from God nor do I feel the peace of heart. In fact I don't even feel it's the right time.
But making the decision will come one day I believe.. just not now =)

God bless,
Chris.
::Reaching a cross road is one thing, making the right choice is another, time, thought, and peace is needed in these times. Ask God seek him::

God's word for you

As Tears drop from an eye of pain,as clouds clear and the sun continues shinning,God reminds me, of the time, when i was hurt.He told me son, I am holding on to you and not you to me,He said, if you cry, come to me, I will hold you not matter what,if you're angry and you blame me, I'll take the blame that's what i did,wit the nails in the hands and the thorns in my head, I'll take the blame as i did before,Look at me child, and tell me you're ok?see these wounds I have for you.. I didn't do it to get recognition,I didn't do it to make myself great,I didn't do it to make you cry,I didn't do it so emotions over whelm you...No I did it for you and for who you are, I took your pains your hurts..Come out of the darkness you dwell, and step into the light and be renewed.
Remember that poem I asked you to write?how tears fall and a comfort stroke from me?remmeber how they fall to the ground, but as they fall I remmeber each drop?remember I told you I catch them in a cup? and I cherish them all coz I love you?My Dear child, lissten to my words. I am Love.. and that's my name.I am your Father, your shepherd.I won't leave you nor forsake you when your in the darkest part of the valley,always remember it's just shadow, it can't harm you..so you ask me? WHY is it that I did that.. why did i let you go in the darkness?then I asked you why don't you come in to the brightness?and as you sit there with streams of water, I look at you and feel your pain.I knew this day would come, and how i wish i never had to.look at me again. My little child, I love you much,and I havn't stopped loving you since the day you found me,look back into the foot prints of the sand. I love you, I most definatly want you, You are my prized possession.I've waited for over 1900 yrs to find you.. to this day.

What hurts now is just for a little while, For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you,plans for a great future. For even though you walk through the valley of shadow of death my rod and staff, they shall protect you,Most of all.. seek my kingdom, and dwell in my presence, and my peace shall be upon you,don't be anxious.. but come to me, with your prayers.
I love you my child, so I aks you the same as I do to peter, do you love me?
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I felt like writing this.. and whoever reads this you know it is for you =)
God bless,

-Chris

::life roads full of light, but some times there are mountains in the way casting a shadow, don't fret =) if in a shadow God's with ya all da way. even with a shadow, he'll shine and lead your path::

New things!

As promised here are the pics of my new items~
Air purifier + IONISER! Wohoo:

The Ioniser air purifier~

mmm.. Fresh air just like the mountain breeze


Ionizer or purify air? OR BOTH :D
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And of course~ drum roll! I GOT NEW SPECS! THANK GOD~ :D Porsche Design~

Whole set with the cool glasses cloth :D

*Nice eh?*


Here it is on me~ black n white~


me with glasses on. :D

okie~ thats all friends!

God bless
-Chris

::Always show gratitude; Thank you God! ::

Hmmm

wonder why my blogspot doesn't have title option! any wayz~ let's get on with posting...

Actually I wanted to post on what i got from my mum, but I think I'll have to save it coz I didnt take a pic of it!haha! sooooooooooooooo I'll post whats been happening in my life colourfully.

1.WORK, working has been ok.. been trying to read and read.. but it seems I go through a stage of sleepy reading symptoms! so much so today I needed coffee to stay awake! >.<

2. Excersize, yeap.. been a while but the group got together to play basket ball! quite fun but unfortunately some one got injured n flew intot he air n smacked his head on the floor.. that was not covered smoothly with cement! ouch* hope your oki now~!

3. Church, yea, I went to chc on saturday, talked about Dreams~ goes through a few stages.. birth~delay~death~ressurection~sucession! But ultimately.. the thing I learnt was, to achive a dream is to help other's achieve thier dreams. Very touching message~ As for RLC, talked about Powderful prayers =) shakes heavn and earth... and sneaking into mose's secert chambers and seeing what he praye dto God~ What I learnt from this message is, Dwell in the presence of the Lord all d time~

4. Presents, Yea~ finally Florence's present has been completed thanks to our Dear brother william and the rest who chipped in ideas! a team effort as usual to bring about the most beautiful customized item we can give to our most appreciated, Shepherd *before multiplication* My Next project is... project 1 year~ haha! soon... also customizing.. this one is gonna take a lil more time as it requires a lot more glue =p~!

5. Bible truths, Well I was talking to a brother the other day, and it came about that we started to talk on tithes~ *mainly coz I was interessted in his views* Seems that tithes didn't appear in churches till much later~ actually tithes are not tools to get blessed ;) check it out in luke! in fact 10% if used to get~(favour.. blessings, popularity) it will not be benneficary at all! in fact tithes recorded to be given by moses~ and is also recorded to give the BEST. on top of that NEVER WAS IT MONEY.. haha check it out.. even in the new testiment it was crops =). Don't believe me? check this verse: Matthew 23:23 , Luke 11:42, Nehemiah 13:12 . ;) interessting to note eh? never the less I do not reject giving of tithes =), as it is a gift out of gratitude, tithes are giving in accordance to what God has blessed u (hence the bench mark of 10%) not of what you don't have =) just thought I'd note it down ^^~ P.s I found a verse where it said tenth of EVERYTHING :P sorry about my earlier note:Gen 14:18-20 but then again I remember JEsus saying, giev to cesar what is his and God what is God's... ah well lets just stop here then =)~ *note there was no money in abarhams time:P

Well I think I will stop here~

God bless

-Chris

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/dating-diaries-ten-dating-red-flags-258416/

what do u guys think of these 10 red flags??

Jealousy

I was searching for scriptures about jealousy on http://biblegateway.com/ ... and I have come to realise... there's nothing against jealousy! in fact it isn't even in any of the laws being classified as a sin.. but more of suspicion, interesting to note aye? so that answers my question on why God calls one of His names jealous! so... it;s ok to be jealous in that case? I believe so.. first off let me draw a nice line between the difference of JEALOUS and ENVY..
The bible clearly states you shall not covet(envy) your neighbours wife, household, maidservants and what not(Deutornomy 20:17) This means, when you covet it is the fact you want some ones item...hence u always say I envy him coz he has a good car.. you are coveting over the car that the person owns... Basically, I want it, but they got it.. so I need to some how get it too! many many verses in the bible about this, I'll leave it to you all to search,... just type in covet! haha..

Now Jealousy is qutie the opposite.. to be jealous is to have someone take something that is rightfully yours away from you... so you become jealous.. e.g John was Jealous because Alexander took his promotion. whilst in this case john worked harder.. and deserved the promotion, Alexander who let's assume did nothing took the promotion instead. Another example would be.. You being jealous when your partner dates some one else.. or has an affair. This is NOT a sin... it could lead to a sin..(e.g killing the person.. or what not) but being Jealous is not a sin... Check it out, God's only jealous when you worship other gods or idols.. why? coz he is God and by your worship[ign something else is saying he is not God.. thus taking his status as God and putting it on someone else.. which ends in being jealous... it's interessting to note that one of God's name is Jealous~ check it out:
Exodus 34:14Do not worship any other god, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.

Bet you never seen this verse before... so if jealousy is a sin.. it's punsihable by death(accordance with the law) so wouldn't that mean God should be dead? but you see it isn't in the law.. nor is it classified udner any ACT as a sin.. =)! So you ask(being off tracked) why did God kill so many people.. all I can say is Death penality... coz of all the sins.. you earn your part of the keep... which is death.. so u end up in death penalty basically...
Any howz, that's all i felt like posting for today! go search up on it in biblegateway.com >Jealousy & covet
God bless
-Chris

::So many decessions in life, which are you going to choose? So many doubts, which are you going to believe? the best is still the truth, beyond all facts.. and hypothsies... if you find it prehaps you will enjoy life a lil bit more! ^_^::

Time & place

I guess there's a time and place for everything.... seems that these days, I have been feeling I am in some sort of holiday, no idea why~ lol! but then when i look back i see liek I am distanting away from old friends. haha missed out on a lot of big events... and also loss of contact with fellow brothers and sisters.. .. .. NAH NOT REALLY! haha.. let's just say I don't talk much to any one i was close to any more.. i dunno why! (except maybe Karen :P this excludes my girlfriend too ;)) Prehaps it's just me xD...

I kinda miss Alexander for some reason (no I'm not gay :P) just seems like he was some one who really bothered to ask ppl out to yum cha at the right timing (yup right timing u read it right lol!) bleh... ppl are busy these days~ which is kind of a good thing! Means people are progressing~

Some random thoughts i wanted to post~ wonder what the progress in "The white hand's" present... Should I join MY got talent again? do a puppet show haha! poltics is going shabby~ I didn't really get into it till elections.. There's no more funny news or interessting news on msn~ WHY!? I need a small stone to carve writings on... I need to go shopping for some art stuffs... Wonder when I will be bother to make my comic come alive! I'm getting lazy o.O... I need to get out more! I wish malaysia was not reporting so many bad reports.. so I could go out haha~...

Interessting fact I learnt:

FEAR can cripple and control ones mind... FEAR can create unneccarry boundaries.. Fear projects a greater image of bad than good... if there were one million people in this world and one of them was a con artist (meaning the rest were trust worthy) Fear could make that one con artist the pioneer of distrust and loss of friends and families.. just by amplifying the acts of that one man! most news reported on bad things seems to be doing with less than 10% of this world? yet one black dot makes the whole world focus on it so much~ the stain grows~ haha... 2 ways to be famous/imfamous ... Both are literally the same.. in this mordern world.. Do some thing radical, something people wouldn't have ever thought of doing... and do it as bad as possible... scandals what not... OR if u want to be respectable.. then do something people will see most fit as rightoues and trustworthy.. but to be honest who in this world would trust you? haha! I do =p but I'm sure u dont trust me, which makes a lot of sense to my statement! =).

This is how I feel the worlds like.. beautiful.. but when something happens terror strikes hearts!
for all who cant read the guy says(some one stole my pen) the other guy says(run! this world's not safe anymore! some one is stealing pens!)

God bless
-Chris
::Fear cripples, The more we amplify a problem the smaller the world gets~!::

My Heart

As this world fades, and the world gets darker, tears flood my heart..
As I see the world deteriorating and people slipping away I feel sad...
But when I see how God works I am filled with tears of joy.

I was pondering, wondering, thinking,
I saw the world filled with corruption taking innocents away...
Until I realised, God had not given up!

As I saw Celeberities drawing away.. as I see homeless left to starve,
and how useless I am and how I could not save,
I made a prayer when I was young,
And God moved His hand and today it was answered...


So what's all this all about you all wonder?
I am so thankful God helps celebrities and hasn't given up on them!
I wam so glad that there are churches in this world which accepts them regardless of who they are!
I'm so glad God really loves them.. when I heard about Chc setting up a church for celebrities so they can be built up and reached out... I was so happy! I tell you~ God isn't stopped by ANTHING be it you are a celebrity, a politician, or a just a plain old scum bag... God still loves you..

God sent Jesus to die for you...

Thank You God for answering..
Thanks God for helping
Thanks God for you amazing love!
Thanks God that you never give up on anyone
Be it famous or despised...
Thank You God for you love for me,

I am sorry for the stones I unrightfully cast,
I am sorry for the sending you so much pain,
I am sorry that I took the seat of judgement,
I am sorry that I doubt at times,

But I always thank you that you rebuke,
I thank you for your forgiveness,
I thank you for your guidence,
and I thank you for the answering...

Please God keep reaching out to everyone.. in the ENTIRE WORLD! be it UK Turkey Malaysia China~ Never give up on them...! I know you won't :)

Love,
Chris

::You may judge, cast the stone, and pick a bad point of some one just because they are one against the world, but before you take judgement, and cast the first stone, are you worthy for one second to cast it? or are you any better shall I say? ::

Been a long time

It seems that i have abbandoned my blog for a long while.. so what have i been up to? well mostly memory course... and work n sick.. lol! do you believe it.. I literally broke down coz of exhaustion.. lol! I wasn't a very happy boy at all~ I wanted to go emerge n i had to go get sick,... on a sunday too! right after church!!! AHHH hated it...

but good thing I managed to go on the saturday, I thought the message was great! talked about daniel in the bible how he was so concerned about defiling himself. Thus he wouldn't eat the food and all.. ~ BUT if u look what he didn't consider as defiling.:-Changing of his name-wearing the clothes of a babylonian-speaking the way of a babylon-learning the culture and living like a babylonian.- learning the arts of babylon (reading dreams n all)

Any wayz these points were valid~ and indeed daniel did not consider it anything as to be a defile. I believe God didn't either =).So what was it all about~ it just meant, when ur in ur working place.. dress appropriatly to your job (eg if ur in entertainment, please dont dress like a doll.. which has no entertainment in it) u get what i mean~. But what else was considered (in the world) would be.. pride. Greed, sexual immorality, LUST for power, LUST. lying.. stealing.. killing.. You see Daniel didn't do any of these =) I also believed the dream thing was a gift of God n not the dark arts that ps kong said :P sorry if I miss qoute u.. but I was hearing dark arts sitting there n I was baffled.. coz dark arts means u gotta deal with da devil n do some magic! WHICH GOD HATES IT IS A ABOMINATION TO HIM.. ah well~ any howz.. back to the point.
So what's the main point in all this? well it was all to mention upward mobilisation.. meaning u selected few,.. from the bottom move u to the top as quickly as possible as long as u do all those things.. learn language.. ect. But that;s not enoughto last as a righteous person.. Ps Kong mentioned one important key~ SD(SPiritual Dicipline) I loved this point that over saw everything.He said"You can be successful even if your not righteuos" but all this is like nothing.. and vaintiy.. and u will eb come "discontenteD" meanign always crazing for more power.. more greed.. and thats how a lot of those pop artist went.. from church going to crazy.. but there are those who are still spiritually diciplined~ eg marry J blige (she rocks haha) Ps Kong mentioned, To reach the top in upward mobility u must have it equal with spiritual dicipline (go church, pray, fast, read the word, worship, solidutity with God..etc) all necessary~ oh man! that rocked...
alright better end here for ya all basically all of thats summed up.. =)
God bless-Chris
::This life's tough, and we might just get into what I like to call the vicious cycle(nothing is ever enough) which will eventually be our demise~ But with God and our commitment (SD) We will reach a level of satisfaction whilst not being controled by lifeless things(greed money etc)::

No matter what

I have come to realise on thing. No matter how much you feel at times that friends around you will support you. OR you think you can grow total trust with them, in thier hearts.. they will never trust you haha! "never trust any one in this world, not even Christians"(Meng Gek 2004) Guess this is all every ones mentality these days. Kinda Depressing...

But no matter what, no one has ever come near my heart as God... but kherlit has come closer than every other person (esp through much of the pains and growing in a relationship that makes it that much solid-er). Why I say so, I do love my parents and i know they love me.. but sometimes I dunno, guess I can't say 'freedom' but I'd much prefer it if they just had a lil more confidence that nothing bad will happen to me.. at least I will feel a little more assured that they can get some rest without having to worry so much. But God I know perices my heart like no one else... since I was young I knew HE was backing me up... I dunno sometimes listening to Christian music just makes me feel good.. haha guess it reminds me of how much God is for me and not against me, and how big He is, and how capable He is.. and give thanks. How he enables me to do all things...

lol thats all for now!

::Trust in God fully and Nothing can go from right to wrong, only wrong to right or never wrong::

Toilets

How many of you actually like crockroaches? personally I hate them haha.... but what do you do if you enter a toilet full of them! I tell ya, I went to the toilet in and it was filled with croroaches.. first time was ok, they were small little cute babies.. maybe only 1... then the next week they grew bigger! uglier.. and MULTIPLIED! yeap not added and grew.. but multiplied.. 1 became 2.. then later 2-4 then 4-8! it was horrendous! but some how they all eventually died.. thank God... so now when I am doing my big business in the toilet.. if I ever see a small baby crockroach I stamp on it.. lol! sorry to sound cruel to all you who love them.. but toilets ain't a good breeding place for them.. esp when Hygene is concerned...

Second thing about toilets! Girls you probally don't experience this... but GUYS! you might understand my situation... you walk into the toilet.. and expect.. you know a clean seat to sit on and do your business.. to contribute to global warming.. and there it is! the seat is soaked.. it's not so bad.. if it's soaked with water.. but this isn't the case for us guys.. for some reason we think our little brother is bigger than it actually is... please guys.. stand closer.. coz you keep getting it on the seat! Disguisting I know! I don't understand why they don't go to the urinals.. ok if not the urinals.. lift the seat up... thats why it was ivented to be lifted for... ok it's bad enough to have pee all over the seat.. then I wash it out of decency... and then wipe it dry clean.. then just as I want to drop my trousers for a poop.. HEY WHAT HAVE WE HERRE???!?!?! SLIVA ALL OVER THE FLOOOrr.... you know that most guys toilets that hanging thing is broken right? .. so there we struggle to keep our trousers up whilst tryoing to do a dump.. and then som sliva gets on ur trousers... abnd you gotta wipe it off.. it's horrible man...

third thing, for the place I am frequently going to... the cleaners got lazy! they didnt refill that soap thing.. it';s horrid.. you can only use soap during lunch time before u makan haha.... ah wellz...

on the bright side.. it doesn't stink too much.. and the hand dryer is working.. yea urinals are waterless using some cubes.. which I find cool.. besides all that.. ehem.. no more comment! oh btw if u ever wondered why urinals had that hug pointiy thing poking out at the bottom guys.. I figured it out.. it's for those who think thier lil brother is bigger than it actually is.. so the urine doesn't splass on the floor! hilarous.. I once read... in a toilet.. of a CYBER CAFE! "stand closer... it's not as big as you think" pretty cool sign...

any hows thats all about my toilet post!

-Chris

Check this news report out XD

Beijing Olympic 2008 opening ceremony giant firework footprints 'faked'

Parts of the spectacular Beijing Olympics opening ceremony on Friday were faked because of fears over live filming, it has emerged.

By Richard Spencer in Beijing Last Updated: 6:58PM BST 10 Aug 2008

Organisers feared it would be too difficult to capture each footprint live so inserted computer graphics for viewers at home and in the Bird's Nest stadium Photo: KENT NEWS
As the ceremony got under way with a dramatic, drummed countdown, viewers watching at home and on giant screens inside the Bird's Nest National Stadium watched as a series of giant footprints outlined in fireworks processed gloriously above the city from Tiananmen Square.
What they did not realise was that what they were watching was in fact computer graphics, meticulously created over a period of months and inserted into the coverage electronically at exactly the right moment.
The fireworks were there for real, outside the stadium. But those responsible for filming the extravaganza decided in advance it would be impossible to capture all 29 footprints from the air.
As a result, only the last, visible from the camera stands inside the Bird's Nest was captured on film.
The trick was revealed in a local Chinese newspaper, the Beijing Times, at the weekend.
Gao Xiaolong, head of the visual effects team for the ceremony, said it had taken almost a year to create the 55-second sequence. Meticulous efforts were made to ensure the sequence was as unnoticeable as possible: they sought advice from the Beijing meteorological office as to how to recreate the hazy effects of Beijing's smog at night, and inserted a slight camera shake effect to simulate the idea that it was filmed from a helicopter.
"Seeing how it worked out, it was still a bit too bright compared to the actual fireworks," he said. "But most of the audience thought it was filmed live - so that was mission accomplished."
He said the main problem with trying to shoot the real thing was the difficulty of placing the television helicopter at the right angle to see all 28 footsteps in a row.
One advisor to the Beijing Olympic Committee (BOCOG) defended the decision to use make-believe to impress the viewer. "It would have been prohibitive to have tried to film it live," he said. "We could not put the helicopter pilot at risk by making him try to follow the firework route."
A spokeswoman for BOCOG said the final decision had been made by Beijing Olympic Broadcasting, the joint venture between the International Olympic Committee and local organisers that is responsible for providing the main "feeds" of all Olympic events to viewers around the world.
"As far as we are concerned, we let off the fireworks - that's what's important to us," she said.
Mr Gao said he was worried that technologically literate viewers who spotted the join might be critical, but comments online suggested more admiration of the result.
Although the event as a whole received rapturous reviews abroad, that has not been entirely the case at home. Some internet comments were hostile, saying that while it looked stunning the contents were vacuous.
Others focused on the sheer numbers of people involved - more than 16,000 performers, mostly from People's Liberation Army song and dance troops.
"That certainly showed China's unique character," said one comment. "Namely, that we have 1.3 billion people."
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I got it from yahoo hehe... erm forgot the page link so~ sorry t whoever wrote it =)

Crushed rose

In All the world around me,

I see a life before me,

The roads are paved with roses,

as I walka long this road of roses,

the throns peirce deep in my feet,

but as I see the rose crushed,

I see the one who was crush for me,

the thorns remind me of a crown,

worn by a king of kings,

and the pericings remind me of a hand,

that took on the burden of the world,

and all this blood and wounds may stain,

but the beauty of it all remains,

roses are red,

viloets are blue,

my saviour reigns,

before all rules.

like a rose trampled and distorted,

so as he the pains he bore,

all for me and all for you,

so you might be free in the road before thee.

What to say?

Well I dunno what to say but I am kinda tired:P been reading documents non stop trying to extend my knowledge way beyond any point! hehe... so this is what happened.. I have signed up for a memory retention course which will certify me and mak eme arecognized international memory trainer teacher, but main thing I want to learn this is so I can remmeber all those docs I read up! :)

I want to be the best I can be as an SAP BASIS... but still lots to learn.. I mean I need to rememvber my basics the modules:

MM,SD,WH,FI,CO,BASIS,ABAP,HR,PP,PS argh and 3 more..

then need to know what goes around in each module.. like mm handles invoices n all.. fi all the cheques and stuff... Sd- all the invoicing , PP dunno lol... u know these things are necessary ontop of whatever I already know! haha techno functional I guess this is what they call us..

hope this memory rentention course works out well! :P might even use it to memorize bible verse xD

what's in these peoples minds?!

I cannot start to understand whats int he minds of rapists... I mean, look at this, now even when the boyfriend is there with 3 other friends, they still plan it out so strategically, to steal from the boyfriend and friends, take the car(which the girlfriend was inside) speed off... then RAPE her.. steal her items.. and drive off with the car! WTF man.. why dont they just leave her n steal the items? you know what.. I dun get whats in thier minds.. and it's getting annoying! I believe girls should be able to carry weapons (after being tested for psycologicaly) for self defence.. haha.. prehaps the handy pepper spray will do? u knwo that one that makes everyone in the room suffer? .. one spray and the person is down ont he floor not onlyw ith eyes burning,.... but finding it SUPER HARD to breathe... I believe this pepper spray costs like 150 ringgit? but shouldn't be used to play with... used only for emergency... the other one.. is the gaurd safe... it's a small black device.. you pull and it makes a very high pitched alarm.. almost deafening the criminal.. I was confiscated from using that haha! the airpot police in uk said I couldn't take it on board.. coz it was too powerful :P... see the power of noise?

Another thing for rape defence would be... this item, used to slot into the and when the rape victum comes, his will be serverly injured.. rednering him useless... of course this item can also be dangerous for husbands, if the wife had mistakenly forgot she was wearing such protection... yea... as I know only surgery can remove this item from the males private part... which would mean rapist is caught almsot instaniously... the only problem with this is... if there is more than one person, no good...

I just can't start to understand whats in the rapist minds... even tho it's wrong but dare I'd say it, I'd rather a guy cheat a girl to sleep with him willingly, than to rape a girl who is unwilling and unaware of anything at all!

Anyway, just wanted to vent out my fustrations~ May God forgive them... and may they one day see God's love... and kindness towards them, and may thier hearts be changed... or else.. well, what can I say? good luck to them, coz there's no reigning in hell..

-Chris

Things I love about her

These are things I love about my dear Kher Lit!

-She makes me feel at ease when I am around her

-She supports me when I need help

-She is really good at doing her make up ;)

-Even when the most beautiful girl walks pass, she still looks more beautiful to me!

-She knows how to carry herself, with a good fashion sense

-She has a great sense of art and colour combinations~ that I think most will agree with me ;)

-Her smile is unique

-Her eyes are dark and mysterious, but filled with light and beauty

-She has a good sense of humour

-She's blur at times :P (yeap this is a good point~!)

-She is alert (esp on the road

-She can sing~ very beautifully esp dispney songs =)

-She is in Christ

-She is exciting to be with

-She is unexplainablly wonderful

-Others (which I cannot explain =D)

This is a dedication to my beloved Lim Kher Lit, who is my most amazing and most beautiful sscrumptiooousssss girl friend =)

-Chris

My Got Talent

Well, we practiced for 3 weeks every wednesday to get to the point where we would be able to sing the song nicely... Listed a whole load of random names for our group name ranging from:

-Random Cranberries

-Super crocodiles

-Christos Selrias

and many more that I cant remember :P. and finally we came up with the name~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ SOLID DEFINITION =) I like this name, coz it reminded me that the song we sung that day, had a real meaning to it, a solid one.. and that's Christ!

Well... I went on to doing a flash.. whew it was tough, esp when I didn't know a thing! haha but it went about quite well~ glad I learned lots of new things from that experience! hehe alpha colour... fading.. masking... motion tween haha!

Then came the Logo.. which was a disaster.. I couldn't really think of a good one that day.. ended up doing an S and a D, but thanks to my lovely dear! she helped out and came out with the one displaying on the right side.

hmm as for movie clip n all not gonna be posted~ well thats all for now betet rget going and finish up my other flash...

One step up

You know the other day I went to the curve with the gang, second time I think haha(first time with William and er Alex/jerm can't remember:P shopping for kherlits bday pressie) any way, We went to watch the dark knight, it wasn't too bad if u like heavy story action movies... but I think it wasn't as good as I thought it would be (being a dark knight fan and all) But it was cool.

So what happened?

Well before the movie we split into 2 groups one to go shopping one to go ATM? and yum cha? hahaha.. I joined shopping.. actually I never really knew shopping was enjoyable =p. I was thinking of buying some clothes and look for a new pair of sneakers... but who knew? ended up dressing joel up haha! He looked awesome in an tight fit Tee, and a straight cut jeans, as for the trainers.. can't say much about it =p need him to wear those clothes first! asked him to try a shirt too.. it was ok, not too bad, just the length was way too long.. making him look like a kid in daddy's outfit (not good!) haha but the shop assistants were kind and said they could cut it for him within half an hour =). But we didn't go, well coz we didnt have cash on us *Laughs*. Then we went into an aussie type shop... the jeans there were baggy, like his current style, it was a big no to the jeans, but the red T-shirt picked up by ET & Poh ly looked good on him.. But still failed to find a shirt, hoping he will come to one u and look at the FCUK shop near MPH there, thinking of the Black shirt with purple stripes =D.

Any way after all that... we went to the apartment to eat(EXPENSIVE!) the food was ok, but not filling enough. Not worth the price tho haha! then off to black knight,... sittign at the first row... lol, the story is nice.. the fight scenes are cool to me.. and at the end of the movie.. people clapped at the credits lol... so I assume it was a totals thumbs up! joker was cool.. shame the actor died... Any howz! that was me sunday summed up

Remeber in my previous post I mentioned love myself? it really is a good thing haha believe it or not.. I don't feel so down these days, knowing God loves me, and I appreciate the body and what not he gave me.. life's getting better! I wanna get a new hair cut :P

well thats all for now~

-Chris

::What people want isn't always what people require. What people require isn't always what people want. But all in all, we need God::

Increase

Today I have learnt something on increase. I woke up went to go to see my boss and other collegues.. he made me realise, everything in life, of working we need to ask ourselves, why this screen.. why do we type this in this area, what else does all the other things in this one screen mean, Then I realised.. I haven't paid attention to the small things in work! and it really got me thinking about life the same way.

Haha We tend to take the smallest things in life for granted, in fact I think that the small things matter in life, hehe... we also need to react pro actively to the things in life especailly little things, that really doesn't need to be seen as such a big problem we make it as!

I talked to a dear bro today and he also taught me some stuff =) thanks bro ;) you know who u are. I think in life we have many decisions and we need to choose the best of it all, stop dwelling on the negative, that just makes us depressed and what not, but to choose the positive! you know, these previous blog posts I have been down, and I have many choices I can choose from. Bad ones good ones, each one changes a life, but hwo you react to each on is the key right?

I believe this is why God gave us some free will.. too choose... I guess thats the greatest power of a human being! to choose!

Whilst talking to my bro in church, I realised negativity impacted me when I started letting negative things in my life, like the news papers and what not! haha I need to intake some positive words in my life I think ruters and erm... forbes eh? I shall consider it! maybe I will look into new guys fashion? tho I dunno how too haha I tried once ... hehe failed attempt to search online... oh well...

Another thing that hit me, is I need to love myself more.. maybe touch me self up and pamper meself more hahaha! I believe this is the key... It hit me when the bible said, love your wife as you love yourself... I will never be able to love any one properly, if I do not first love myself.. now I'm not saying I should be selfish, but I should have a degree to love myself enough..

reliance on God is another thing I learnt.., very important God's int he equation if not can't get anywhere! =) Jesus I love you! and yea I'm so glad you love me too~ can you teach me to love me too? hehe... at least, prehaps there will be a chance I will be more of a good husband that way :) my dream... hehe...

-Chris
::Sometimes we are so BLIND in this world, but you know what! we can still choose to see, everything is a choice in this world::

The heart

I knew your heart was heavy,

I knew your face was sad,

each sigh brought a tear,

to an eye of one who loves you,

I knew you wanted something,

I knew you wanted some happiness.

I wish my love was enough,

but nothing is ever enough,

humans crave for more and more,

But God loves all the same,

I knew you cried deep inside,

I knew you put a mask on your face,

I knew you gave up hope a while,

I knew the sadness in your heart.

To try and stay and talk a while,

to try and make a smile,

to try to make a life more easy,

to try to help you through your trouble,

but what are all these in a heart,

what are all these in your eyes,

I wish I could make the smile,

truly come out like the brightness,

I feel for you and I truly want,

to share your burderns in your heart,

but when I see that mask again,

I can't seem to break through the pain,

take your mask off,

so I may see the beauty,

there is no joy in putting a mask,

only hurt and burden to be given.

If you realise,

just realise....

-Christopher Tan Kok Jeong

:: Each day gets heavier, but know that when you have 2 is better than one, for if one falls, the other can help them up. But if your alone, then who will help?::

Still tired?

Man... I'm still tired haha! yesterday was the most tired I've been since a heavy workout haha... well pretty mundane day yesterday.. with hardly any cases, and an extremely heavy eye.. I felt like smashing onto the ground and never waking up hahaha!

But when I got to church, I met up with sam and we composed a nice song! woah it was really good.. I was suprized we could finish it within our limited time : under 2hrs haha! but it was real good.. it's for this saturdays performance, The song is God's reflection.. but that's all I am telling you hahaha! I hope no one gets bored of me :P coz I am worship leading too this sat...

Then... later went to klang GH @@.. was really empty suprizingly.. visited our dear beloved sister poh ly, she looks like she is in good condition, but still advise her to rest. good news is, her platlets are on the rise constantly from monring till night which is a real good sign! and more oever the fees amount to RM0 according to ET denggi cases are FOC, Thank God =) seems like God is truly in control of this situation ;) let ET share to u all when the time is ripe to share.

after all that got home... went online to see if me dear was on.. true enough she was, but got hardly any response from her.. and I was about to faint! haha.. so I decided to hit the sacks.. woke up n msged her... aihs.. and this morning when i got on yahoo mail i just realised she msged me an offline msg! eeps!

To my dear

To my sweet dear,

I'm sorry about yesterday, heading off so early, I was really tired and missed the your offline message.. I ask God that He will always provide you with happiness, I didn't realise you were sad and down, I hope to talk to you tonight, I hope to make it right, I hope to see you smile and giggle and laugh =) your burdens lifted and your sigh be one of relief~ I believe God is there for you always, waiting and listening to all the things you need to tell Him, Jesus loves you and so do I =).

-Chris

Tired but alive

Well Here I am again to update me bloggy! phew I am tired... should really been sleeping.. could say I was worried abt a friend, to a certain extent... but I have been naughty xD watching movies at night.. when I should be sleeping hahah...

things are getting better on my side.. since last sundays message, seek first the kingdom of God..

but too tired to blog at the mo so this shall be my short update

Hurting inside..


I'm so sad... and hurt in my heart... I feel like I have grown bitter.. I feel like this world is so forsaken.. and dead.. I know God's around.. I dunno why I feel this way..

I just wish to see my dear happy again oh God.. can you make her smile? can you take this pain from her...? Is there any way? can you please annoint her hands and mind that she is able to doall this.. surround her with loving people.. I feel so sad deep down..

oh God.. I feel so useless... why can't I say the right things? why can't I take her mind off the assignments... or why can't I encourage her? why do I go so crazy for her God?...

My mind wonders and I worry God.. I worry like crazy... I knwo it's bad.. I wish I didn't... I feel the tears gathering in my heart.. like a well filling up with water... I just wish.. I am stressed God... work is ok.. but I want to learn more... Praise team wasn't as vibrant why do I still wanna complain?... God oh God...

I wanna cry so badly... I want to be loved.. oh God.. I need to know that she loves me... not just by words oh God...

I am going crazy... I wanna just lay here, I feel like escaping the world... but why? I feel this world is drowning in the darkness.. Oh God shine your light...

I am so mixed! what is it in my heart!!! Does she hate me God? is that why she has been ignoring my smses? is that why she has ignored my calls? never returning even one... is that why she doesn't bother to call me once anymore just to talk?

I can't bear the hurt oh God... this burden I lift to you... I can't stand it to the point I cant sleep now... I wish she'd pick up the phone.. but I know she won't.. shes too tired.. then tmr she has this survival thing with her cg.. I know it's a good thing.. but no hp nothing.. sigh.. another suspense for me..

I am going CRAZY God... please... please.. help :(
I need rest..

I need love...

I need assurance...

God bring me back to you... again.. I am so sad... so sad... I can't bottle it up anymore... so I pour to you here.. God.. help me.. God help me...

=(
-Chris