Lone sheep

sigh.. my heart is dampening.. and it's nto a gd sign, usually means depression is next, but I think I'll let all of whats in my midn out first! Well I feel that relationships between my bretherns and sisters have deteroirate... It's sad.. the fellowship has left us.. and I can't seem to contact them.. prehaps I have done somethign that has torn our relationship further... or prehaps the pruning of the branch to multiple has taken me away... I don't know.. but I miss the days where we could talk.. dunno about anything.. I miss time spent wiht Karen too.. My lil sis.. used to talk about God all the time.. and get excited about it.. but now.. now everythings changed.. I knew they would change before these thigns ever happened.. coz it was in me. even though I really didn't want things to change.. I guess things do eventualy... I think brother William is in need of prayer.. n Father God I knwo your gonna help him through his troubles.. It's times like this, where I am glad God is watching over me.. it's times like this I know I am falling weak.. and my legs are getting weary.. these are the times God always carries me.. I wish I could cheer up... but the weird emptiness in me is growing, but at the same time, I feel it being patched up by My heavenly Father... I am between sad and lonely.. I feel liek a black sheep.. a sheep with a blemish not belonging in the place of where other sheep dwell.. But it's times like this where My Shepherd always says, come here I love you dearly.. don't be sad my little sheep, for being different is a gift... u are perfect the way you are... graze in the lush grass I have provided you with, and enjoy the sounds of the still streams.. for I have not forgotten you, you of a million sheep. I'm so glad My heavenly Father is with me... I'm glad he is, coz I am fotunate, for where a lone sheep wanders, the wolf sharpens it's claws... but with The Shepherd with me, the wolf can do nothing...

RaNdOm thInG

My heart is at it's Lowest,
But Oh Lord you are at the highest,
you lift me up on your shoulders,
and carry me up so high,
YOur still voice comforts all oh Father God.

Whome is like the Lord?
Who can comfort one who is down?
who is able to watch over and stand gaurd everyday?
who is like the Lord,
who watches over me every night and day.

For His grace hath brought me through,
and I'm glad.

Thank you

Eben though this is not the best post I have ever posted, I thank you for takign your time to read :) God bless you!
-Chris

Church, Project

Haha Church has been awesome, you have no idea how hyped up I was on saturday.. the feeling over threw me Haha I WAS WOHOO I CAN FEEL GOD SO STRONGLY!!!! WHAT ABOUT THE REST! Hehe but if the rest can't feel it I would be sad. MORE POEPLE SHOULD GO TO THE FRONT I REACON HAHAHA MAKE IT MORE FUN!!! :D.. But I guess we can't force peopel can we now Hehe... Oh my project.. shyt I need to start the documentation.. no more lzing aroudn after gym ttmr hardcore in pain Hehe.... :D Basically I gotta say ntohgin much has happened, I wanna look for somethign for Florence, been askign every one to help me search for that Item( Can't tell coz Florence might read this blog haha) But to tell you the truth she's been a great shepherd to me, or older sister Hehe ;p And She has kept me going in this church for a while actually almost since the begginign I say almost coz Linus also helped Haha. FLorence helped for approximately 1 year of askign small thigns it's cool :) IT's ncie to knwo your care grp leader actually cares for you haha, well shame she isnt the care leader any mroe but hey I'll never forget it, and Linus kept me in for aorund 3 months, Another 1-2 months Wei lune I think and never forgetting Ken Haha my high school mate!

It's all cool Christmas is coming up, I think I'll be giving Alicia somethign common and prehaps somethign extra she won't expect :D YEA! haha, but depends on my mood and time XP.

Random ThinGs

The world in all it's beauty,
The grace in all it's greenery,
I see the skies above,
I see the sands below.

I ponder,
Everythign is beautiful,
but why am I so empty?
why do I feel thing blankness...

Every one tells me there's some one to fill,
I have found that some one but He has not filled..
I am getting hungry,
starting to starve,
I'm so busy it's unbelievable!

Why is everythign so wonderful?
But why can't I rid of this emptiness?
am I not spiritual enough?
I go to church, I do,
I try to feel it all,
But I can't, but why?

Every night I cry in my room,
in my heart I do,
keeping my face up I say to myself,
Tomorrow will be better.

Tomorrow comes,
but all I see is sorrow,
Why is this like this?
why is everything so green,
and yet I am so bleak.

FaItH

Faith is but a word,
one can say,
but who has faith?

I have faith,
but what is faith,
but somethign we just believe?
even if we do not see?

Faith is a word,
Faith is acquired,
Faith is something you do,
Faith is needed,
but just as a small mustard seed it is,

so shall it bring forth much greatness in life,
without faith you cannot,
but with faith you shall see,
The emptiness disapear,
the feeling of unworthiness vanish.

For Faith comes by hearing,
and you have heard this poem,
Faith is an action,
Faith is not passive,
but infact it is massive!

it may look so small,
but it shall grow tall!
with some watering and nuturing,
so shall it grow!

Hwo?how? Many have asked,
But non have seeked.
How how? Many have asked,
but non have said let's apply.

Pray and pray,
but what do you pray?
do not pray as if it were a ritual,
but pray as if it were spiritual.

Do not pray as if it was religious,
but pray as if you were talking,
to love Himself,
Lean on Him and find his heart.

seek His kingdom,
and His kingdom shall come,
Seek first the Kingdom of God,
And all shall be added,
for as light grows a plant,
so shall relationship grow your heart.

Empty as you are now,
knwo that all you have to do,
is seek Him,
in His kingdom,
and you shall be satisfied.

Thanks

Thanks all! for reading again, I hope you have been blessed!

God bless!
"Salvation is near, all you need to do is seek it and you shall find it"- Tan Kok Jeong

-Chris

Pondering

Well.. I have no idea who reads this blog.. but heck I'll continue with whatever Haha. Well I was pondering just now, it's amazing how love works, yet no one really knows love... Some times I hear people who are blind as a bat falling into the same trap of false love. But they don't believe you coz thier desire burning in thier hearts won't let them believe.. and so they fall, then they finally agree with me..

But that's not the case some times... prehaps the burning desire of love is the desire to search for some one who will fill that void, and no one seems to fit that void of burning desire, until you meet God, yea yea, people say Hey u knwo what I dun believe in God, so they search more n more... getting cheaper stuff, but never satisfying that burning desire.. for acceptance and love.

Sigh, I guess not every one will believe in God, which makes me sad... Not every one believes in Christ the saviour.. which sadness me more, coz I wish to see everyone have that desire burnign void in thier heart settled and put at peace.. well I guess I'll help as many as I can, but for those who don't want to be helped, I cannot force.

Love is but somethign of worth.. and is part of God's nature, His wrath is not His nature, but the response HE has for sin. Thats why Christ had to suffer.. Oh well...

some one close to me shared about some crush they had, it's nto love for sure, at first I mistakened it for a baby :P but then I dunno Haha. My friend likes one of them yet I am nto sure which one. But hey a relationship is something unique and wonderful, I wouldn't trade the experience I have had for anything myself. Coz even tho it hurt so bad in the past, It has definatly moulded me. Take a good look at love, and why I talk about it.

random thing

THe wonders of the world,
The riches and the girls,
everythign is owned,
and anything I have.

But one thing I seek,
one thing I want,
is love.

Everyday I seek,
but no girl nor riches can satisfy,
some one once told me,
u can be a sucess and a utter failure at once.

fail I have not,
but love is empty,
one day I shall find,
one that puts thier bruning desire,
of love and voidness out.

even when I walk down valleys,
all I see is darkness,
btu some say there is a light,
yet I have not found.

I am lost,
confused with no ending,
who can satsify me?
who has the key?
Be with me now.

Love

A wonder of love,
a touch of love,
God is love.
Search and listen,
Many have told.

But few have listened,
open your eyes,
for the light is not far,
come out of your darkness,
and exprience a world of true love,
Understand and prevail.

For there is but one love that can end the endless void,
one love that fits you,
and that love is reachable for now.
Take the hand of Christ,
and be satisfied.

Thanks

God bless you all,
-Chris

Tranfer factor linki

Well you guys ypou probally noticed the transfer factor link and website Well basically thats my web site for the ocmpany I joined, sellign a product called transfer factor... it has alot of benefits, and cures/recovers almost all types of viral infections (Cancer, Arthruitist(however you spell it) Asthma.. ect)

Lemme give you a basic Idea of the product, it it a kind of immune modulator, helps your immune system stay at the optiumum and let your body fight the viruses, your probally saying to me, Well I have a gd body n all, so why do I need this? simple, an heart attack can come at any time, and this can help prevent it. IF you might know of any one who really needs recovery in theier system, this product can help tremendously, there are poeple who actually testify about the product n how it cured them from cancer and all! So if you know any one who is in need of recovery from suffering this is the product, OR You can ask God for instant curing :) coz HE cures wiht faith. Even tho transfer factor can be one of the ways He cures you!

Fopr more info click on my website. If you want to go technical go to the research website first then head on to my website :).

"Saving lives, and changing lifestyles!"
God bless
-Chris

Miss

Yea.. I kinda miss Karen... ;p something I dont usually post :O! This is shocking news *News flash*. Sigh... I have emailed her but no response, coz shes like the busiest Sister I have on this world ;p ... She doesnt update her blogs anymore ;p even tho her blog says shes online but where :O.. HAha oh well.. I miss my younger days... Where I woul just run around n be siully n do whatever.. now I've grown up.. sigh... so many things to think of... Haha childern just think of anything... Adults think of everything.. which really sucks Lol oh well... this is life's journey growing up right? Hehe any howz thats all I have for now!

Almost

As He walked on by life... He looked into the sky.. then with a sigh he looked back on the floor... life to him was nothing..
[lets change the narrative]
January
Well My life sucks as usual... some times I wish I had the courage to go up some people and say Hey, hwo are you... your looking nice today... but hey that's only once in a blue moon... I walked on by into my own quaters again, into my hiding place, my place of loniliness where I could hide from all people...
Febuary
I don't understand, This worlds getting tougher as it goes on.. I wish I could break down n cry, but... No no don't even think about it... lifes not going to get any better by crying.. this world around me seems to be closing up on me... all the "friends" I have can't seem to get any closer than 500 yards.. to tell you the truth.. how do I open my heart to some one? I wish I had some one which people called "best friends" "close buddies" some one you could talk to and pour out everything... and they would just reply wiht a nod or something.. But I know no ones there.. who is there to listen? a void is in me and I feel nothing.. If only I knew what friends were..
May
The sky is beautiful today, it's a wonder that soem people belive that "God" created it, some itmes I wish I knew God... or this person God.. they say u can talk to him and speak to him and He'd listen... but when I try... I don't feel it why?
June
Today I spoke to a friend.. He told me how the world was formed in God's hand... He told me what are you doing for God? and that hit me.. what am I doing? do I even believe... who is "God" and what does he want for me.. I don't understand... No one cares in this world.. God can you hear me? I feel like crying again... but I have no time for this
July
I saw a girl today.. She told me I will amount to nothing.. I don't even deserve to be alive... well I choose to believe that she said it out of anger coz I tried to ask her out n win her heart.. but I failed.. or prehaps she's right... I do amount to nothing... hmm.. who can hear me? respond...
August 12th
Today is my rest day as I sit in my chair I think about what my Dad told me.. how I couldn't do anything to the best... why can't I make it? WHY IS THERE a barrier... is htis my limit.. am I this low.. this useless... Well God if you can hear me.. hear me please... tommorrow I am goign to "church" dunno what's it about but I think it'll do some good.
August 13th
Well I am back from church... I'm still considering if I should accept God into my heart or not... The message was so touching... "You are everything to Him" some how I feel it was for me.. but I think I'll go a few more times...
August 19th
Today I saw the girl I liked again..she smiled at me... then spat in my face, and said your a loser... get lost you fuckhead... I wish I knew why she was like this... why she kept condemning me..
August 20th
Today this is my plan walk and look into the sky.. for it's beauty amazes me.. and I want to see it just like that and remmeber it just like that before I look down into my death... or is it worth it to die? Maybe I'll wait for one more hcurch service first..

[changing back to the 3rd person narative]
As he looked down the cliff He turned around.. but as He turned He slipped..and fell... and lay at the bottom of the cliff... crushed... in his hand was a peice of paper written on it was "Should I accept God today?"

How he almost accepted Christ.. "Almost" the worste word in the english dictionary Today and now is the best time.. but everything is almost.. the other day I watched the news and some kenya almost made it to the finish line.. He's legs gave way.. and he hit his head on the floor and damaged it severely.. Hwo he almost won the race.. one step.. caught on video.. today and now is so important.. almost and now can make the difference... I wish I could tell you to accept Christ now.. but it's up to you still.. but let it be not almost you were saved like this guy... in this story...

God bless you all..
-Chris

Blog :D

Yay the blog is being kind to me again XD, wasn't working just now.. Haha, Anyhowz, I watched Kent hooven DVD 2 it was awesome tlaking about science, giants, and How God's word is always correct! It's awesome... But I want to talk to you all about something different today.

(oh here He goes again ;P)
Well, first of all I send my greetings to any brothers or sisters reading this :D You are all blessed and Holy by Christ's rightouesness in you... And to all the lost sheep come n listen or read, coz it's better than not reading ;)

God loves you all, trust me, you may hate him not believe in him but He's real, u can say I don't believe in the wind, but the wind still blows in your face, I don't believe in dinosaurs, but they still walked this earth, I don't believe that fire will burn me but it still burns you, in the same way I don't believe in God, but He's still there! you know, you are all so 'lucky' that your in this age, Where by God has given you such an opputunity to escape the firey depths of hell, He sent Jesus down to die for you, on the cross, And sent so many people to speak to you all! Pastors, Friends, strangers, prophets, and even family some times, if only you could see how much God truly loves you, you'd understand... You are now probally saying, yes but why didn't God send His son to die earlier? so others could be saved? why so late? that question can only be answered by God, for it is God's timing, and His timing is always correct never too late never too early... In fact you shouldn't be asking that question you should be saying, why am I losing this opputunity by not believing? If Jesus came down n died for me, n I can go to heaven why shouldn't I believe? I remember saying once to my friend, a concept or theory, but it's not based on why I believe or have faith in beliving in fact it's just a absolutly Good reason to belive in God. IF I were in another religon or whatever you wanna call it (do this DO that to get right) then MAYBE at the END OF THE DAY(when I die)I will go to heaven, I have basically ruled that out.. coz I knwo my bad's weigh out my Good any time.. I have thought of killign som eone many times... coz they just ticked me off, I have lied, I have stolen in ways people might think isn't stealing... So overall I will be ending up in Hell any way, Then There's IF I am an Aethiest I live my life whatever way I want, in whichever sense I want, I die my body will rot in the ground and become dust again, So be it. But What if you believe in Jesus, You will go to heaven He says by bleiveing in him n aceepting him as your Lord and Saviour, whats there to lose? you go to heaven, and you get to enjoy God's blessings.. Absolutly nothing to lose!
But My faith is not based on that but the supassing Grace that God has shown me in my whole life.. Even though that statement is true. I have had many people come to me and tell me God isn't real ..ect, But I cannot accept it, due to the fact, even if it seemed so true, God is too real in my life... He's helped me through too much for me not to believe and For me to say He is not real and renounce my faith would be me lying to myself over n over again. Then you may say, What if what your believing in is all a fake, Then I say, it can't be coz It's been to real in my life... Also the same statement I made back if it isn't I'm either gonna perish to dust or go to hell, no choice. But the fact remains it isn't wrong or fake at all... I have been healed, My granma Has been healed instanouesly, My parents got back together at the point of divorce... This is the power of God my Father in Heaven.. This is who I ahve been with since I was small, and This is the only person who has never forsaken me since.

Why?

Why do I bother even trying to speak these things to you all... It's simple.. I want you all to have salvation.. to experience God's grace n love, to have his supernatural miricales work in your life... htere's no dead end when your with God... I want you all to enjoy paradise n not to rot in hell... You cannot reign in Hell No one can, but you can enjoy paradise in Heaven.. This is why I share to you... This is why I speak so much on Chirst... coz I wish only the best for you all... But God is kind.. and still gives you all a choice to accept Him or not..

How?

How do you accept him? Simple just pray the sinners prayer, Say this:
Jesus, Thank you for dying on the cross for my sins, I know I was a sinner and yet you still died for me, I invite you into my life to be my Lord and saviour, Amen.
Then after that go to a church which speaks on the WORD of God, The Bible. For this is crucial, and continue to read the bible as it is like food to you, you don't read it once n put it away, as you do not eat once then never eat again, no you must continue to read n grow, just as you eat food n grow... =) if you have said the sinners prayer I say Welcome to you brethern or sister, for you now belong to a family of Christ, and Have become a CHILD OF GOD. I pray you will grow strong in your faith and get to experience His supernatural break throughs in you life!

God bless you all! -Chris

The Last Letter(or so we thought)

As I hold up a blade, I see it shine and reflect the very image of myself, Thus I decided to write this last letter to whomever may read, I wish there was some one I could talk to.. I wish there was a person who I could sit down and chat with... Chat about something of relevance.. Something... Or some one who would listen, but the fact is no one is... I don't understand, why I feel so sad within my heart.. I wish there was a way to tell you How I felt... How all these years I have bottled up my depression coz I think I can't go down to depression, How it comes back at the worste moments... and how I wish I could throw it away instead.. I wish I could speak out to some one... face them face to face... and cry... but then I'll lose my pride... I wish there was some one who understood... I wish I could just say a word and u'd understand... but There's nothing.. but this deepness.. of self destruction... It feels like a demonic force within me... the blood that runs through my veins feel enraged... ready to burst ready to kill... but I bottle it up, coz It's not worth throwing out.. I wish I could touch your hands.. and tell you how wonderful you truly are in my life... but who are you? I just wanted a hug... I just wanted a touch of comfort...but I found none... Everything is fake.. So fake.. I can't gather up the fact that I wanna die... so this blade looks very wonderful... This blade calls out my name... Do you know me? can you hear me? I wish I could tell you what I feel, but the truth is I don't know how to express it... It's like an eternal turmoil in my heart... A continuous battle I seem to be losing... I seeked council from a friend, a leader a mentor, But they are busy... they are always busy... there is only one time u can approach them, and you may never interrupt them form there on... Is there some one out there who can hear my cries?... Must I take this blade n kill now? is the blade the only thing that can understand me?... who can understand my bottle of weirdness.. my bottle of resentment.. my bottle of crap... who cares? I wish I could stop... what ever I can.. but in this life the only stop I know is death... The only stop I know that is truly a full stop is death. Who can hear my cries? who... No one... No one can... I have friends all around but none can help.. no one can... As I now lift this blade it is slowly reaching my heart... maybe I can gore out this bottle, then throw it in the bin... to be honest I don't need this crap within me.. can you hear me?... who is reading this.. speak... speak to me now... please... As the blade is now crossing over the position of my heart, I slice a square.. and peel the skin... it's painful but nothing like this bottle of annoyance within me! I need to cut deeper... Oh whats this? some one is saying stop... it's a small still voice behind me...
"He's telling me to laydown my weapon... but Can he really understand my pains? He slowly tells me what I feel... and says He is willing to take the bottle form me, without me ending my life at a full stop. He says... drop the knife and He'll give me his life... I ask who this is, and He replies the person you have been speaking to all this while.. I have been listening to your cries.. I know when you are down.. I feel all your pains... I have felt ur deepest hurt,... your greatest trial.. I even have felt your greatest blow from now to the future... as well as in the past... in fact the very reason I took ur blows was coz I care for you... don't you understand? You are not alone.. I sweated until I bled in a garden for you... I carried my tool of death so you would have life... I kept silence in the midst of false accusations for your sake, I hear your cries too.. and as I was placed and pinned on to the tool of torture and death, the people rose me high above the sky... then at one second I felt the blow of all your hurts flying to me at one shot.. all the hurts of people form every one.. one big blow... and I carried it all, Then I went down to Hell to find ur name on the list, and take the keys of the camber that laid ahead for you so you didn't have to suffer, but there's one thing that you must do so the key is away for good.. so your name is written in the book of life, so that you have the key to paradise.. and a life with some one who understands you... don't you see my friend, I died for you.. and my death was unique for every one, I died personally for each and every one of you... so all you have to do is receive it.. and believe it. I AM, I'm waiting by the door.. knocking, open your heart and let me in, know that I am God, Know that I am your savior, know that I am your Lord, Your shepherd, and your friend.. I am always knocking.. I just need you to open the door of your heart, and let me fix everything for you...
And Just this very moment.. I feel strange.. Peaceful..I want you to come in My Lord and Savior... what is your name? The voice said.. I am the Jesus Christ. At that moment I stopped for a while.. not knowing what to say, but I knew this was my only other alternative.. and it felt good.. so I said, Thank you.. I open the door of my heart and let you in Jesus Christ.. take all the stuff in that bottle away... thanks for dying for me... For my stress, depression... and for my sin.. come in and be My Lord and savior.. my shepherd, my best friend..., then the voice said Amen, and now I say Amen too"

Project

Wow... Project time! pressures building on but that aint gonna hit me down... but it is kinda tough.. I was asked to put class diagrams in som,ethign we don't even have classes in.. this is gonna be really tough.. gonna search up on some books in the libary on thursday...gotta force myself to do it.. even thought I hate reading and really prefered to be trained verbally. But I tshould be able to get there.. Hmm I need to get some interviews done, maybe I'll ask around form the church gang what they think of this idea.. and explain a little on what augmented reality is all about, coz I think half of them are blur on what I am doing for my project...

Life

Well enough about my project and back to my normal life.. well I havn't posted much about my life in a long time. only fragments of werid feelings which I dont experience 24 hrs a day. I am training myself to waking up early... this is my earliest yet.. 5am, Then at 6:45 I think I might wake my dad up.. or maybe at 7 then ask if He wants to jog. If not I have to do another round alone in my neighbourhood.. which is kinda boring, But I need it I'm so bloody low on stamina now it's amazing.. it's like I did one round.. not even one round of non stop jogging and I was out of breath! Pathetic DEFINATLY! SUPER RUBBISH LOL.. Now thier having thier prayers.. I can just hear it but it isn't as loud as other places can be.
Had some interview in class well my friends did and we evaluated, wa skinda cool in a sense! I loved it :P but thats probally coz I was just a judge haha. but the real stuff is next week, we get filmed whilst doing an interview now thats crazy! REALLY CRAZY! haha.
Nothing much happening in my life besides God is always happening of course! then theres... project.. life's struggles.. project.. . games... Hmm which reminds me I have to get 3d studio max GAhhhh!!!!!

Hope it's easy to use,, I mean the tools and stuff.. but first I need to crack down on some UMl books.. gonna really kill myself on thursday haha! Oh well...
now I know how people feel when they want to sucide coz of project :P haha joke! XD

God bless
-Chris

Old Fimilar Feelings

Well I gotta Admit, ever since my Mum went back to UK I never really felt this feeling again... it's something to dow tih people going to UK or me leaving UK.. Everytime It would be the same.. same same thing lol.. Well Now My Krazy Sis left to UK The feeligns come back, I dunno if it's a feeling of missing coz I didnt feel it when my best friend left to Aussie, or when my cuz went back to USA.. just any one who goes to UK freaky huh?...

Kinda sucks... I dont liek this feeling... it makes me sway of my focus in life, in fact it kinda makes me go blank and lost.. as if I went to auto pilot lol... Why am I even sharing this to the world? well basically I want u all to know even though I have been posting stuff about God, I go through troubled times too! Everything isn't always a bunch of roses... But then again even roses have thorns! But the difference is.. even though I have this werid feeling, some how God is pulling me through, and He has always been... I guess I wouldnt know what to do if I was without him :)

Well thanks for all reading this! I think I need to let go of uk a lil or prehaps get in contact with all of them again! one or the other
Adios And God bless!
-Chris

A minister passing through his church
in the middle of the day,
Decided to pause by the altar

and see who had come to pray.
Just then the back door opened,

a man came down the aisle,
The minister frowned as he saw
the man hadn't shaved in a while.
His shirt was kind a shabby
and his coat was worn and frayed,
the man knelt, he bowed his head,
Then rose and walked away.
In the days that followed,
each noontime came this chap,
each time he knelt just for a moment,
A lunch pail in his lap.
Well, the minister's suspicions grew,
with robbery a main fear,
He decided to stop the man and ask him,
"What are you doing here?"
The old man said, he worked down the road.
Lunch was half an hour.
Lunchtime was his prayer time,
For finding strength and power.
"I stay only moments, see,
because the factory is so far away;
as I kneel here talking to the Lord,
This is kind a what I say:

"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS JIM
CHECKING IN TODAY."

The minister feeling foolish,
told Jim, that was fine.
He told the man he was welcome
To come and pray just anytime.
Time to go, Jim smiled, said "Thanks."
He hurried to the door
The minister knelt at the altar,
he'd never done it before.
His cold heart melted, warmed with love,
and met with Jesus there.
As the tears flowed, in his heart,
he repeated old Jim's prayer:

"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
I DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY, BUT
I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS ME CHECKING IN TODAY."

Past noon one day, the minister noticed
that old Jim hadn't come.
As more days passed without Jim,
he began to worry some.
At the factory, he asked about him,
learning he was ill.
The hospital staff was worried,
But he'd given them a thrill.
The week that Jim was with them,
Brought changes in the ward.
His smiles, a joy contagious.
Changed people, were his reward.
The head nurse couldn't understand
why Jim was so glad,
when no flowers, calls or cards came,
Not a visitor he had.
The minister stayed by his bed,
He voiced the nurse's concern:
No friends came to show they cared.
He had nowhere to turn.
Looking surprised, old Jim spoke
up and with a winsome smile;
"the nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,
that in here all the while
everyday at noon He's here,
a dear friend of mine, you see,
He sits right down, takes my hand,
Leans over and says to me:
"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, JIM,
HOW HAPPY I HAVE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND THIS FRIENDSHIP,
AND I TOOK AWAY YOUR SIN.
ALWAYS LOVE TO HEAR YOU PRAY,
I THINK ABOUT YOU EACH DAY,
AND SO JIM, THIS IS JESUS
CHECKING IN TODAY."
If this blesses you, pass it on
Many people will walk in and out of your life,
but only true friends will leave
footprints in your heart.

May God hold you in the palm of His hand
and Angels watch over you.

But for those of us who are already His, He not
only holds us in the palm of His hand, but has
engraved our names there, and we are continually
in His sight (Isaiah 49:16)

Please pass this page on to your friends & loved ones.
If you aren't ashamed.
Jesus said, " If you are ashamed of me," I will be ashamed
of you before my Father."

If you are not ashamed, pass this on. But only if you mean it.

Yes, I do love God. He is my source of existence and Savior.
He keeps me functioning each and everyday. Without Him, I
will be nothing Without him, I am nothing but with Him "I can
do all things through Christ that strengthens me." Phil 4:13
This is too good not to share -

So this is me ... Just Checking In
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People leaving

Ah I remember there was once this person who left my school and I kinda missed him alot, wondering why he had to go, when there was nothign wrong with the place he was already at... But I came to learn that it was for the better... I think thats the only person I can really remember leaving me as a friend, His name was Alex... it wa slike in a short while we became closer friends, then in another while he had to go.... Then after all that I forgot about that time, and was the one leaving everyone behind all the time, going to different schools and places... and never really missed any one when I left it behind, coz thier always in my memories...

Now history is repeating, I have probally known my lil sister for a year? or less than a year.. and shes gonna be heading off to UK. of course I'm gonna miss her, but I can't be sad... coz this has been her dream, her longing for most of her life! I'm happy shes pursuing her dreams, in fact all of us should be... in the church I go to it says " The poorest person is not one with out money but the one without dreams" some times I look at that I say to myself.. what are my dreams... and I don't seem to find any but... gd father, husband.. and See Salvation
Do they even consider as dreams? but any wayz, back on track... I didn't really know how much I would miss my lil krazy sis until the date and time drew closer and closer.. I am kinda excited for her XP which is werid.. but I also have this part of me that ways, sigh.. nothign else but sighs.. lol weridness eh? she isn't the only person I have cared for in my life, and I don't care for her as if she was my girl friend either... I know what it is to care for a girl friend.. thats a 24 hr thing :P but this is a different care... in fact when I see myself talking to her I see myself as a mother HAHA now that freaks me out, well I guess it's coz she's my lil sister...

prehaps this is hwo I would have treated my little brother too... I don't know, maybe... Well I'm glad I met her thats for sure! actually I'm glad I met all my friends, even though some say CHrist doesn't exist Chris why do u believe! and all it's a shame when they say that... coz I can't tell them why I believe He's real He just is... prehaps it's coz through my life I have talked to him the most! not my friends, or Mum or Dad but Him... and He's helped me pull through alot :) I'm glad my lil sis Has Him beside her!

God bless ya all,
Chris

Pain

Walking down the streets lookign on the walls, printed are all the stories of everyones life... which do you look at which do you search.. the first thign that would come to this particular persons mind is, OH lemme see where's mine... His name is Steven... And He is young.. he reads his story.. And then grabs it close... He bursts into tears.. and can't hold it back.. as He reads on He becomes fearful.. my goodness all is revealed He says to himself... He tries to hide his story but the more he tries, the more appear... He cries to God, and say WHY WHY! I thought everythign was P&C... And tries even harder to take down all hsi stories.. but the more he tries the more copies appear... He becomes so scared... and is all out of breath.. He realises nothing can hide his darkness... SO he sits under a pile of his life... hiding.. As He looks aorund people start reading.. HE shrivels up into a ball.. and lays on the floor... in silence He prays, " God... Father above.. I know I havn't been a very Good boy... I know I havn't been the best.. but I heard you sent your son to die for me.. and take all these pains for me... Why are they here.. i don't understand.. please help me Lord.. please.. I am tired and weak... nothing is here for me... I am ashamed and sick... I don't wanna live this way... Help me..."
Then He takes out a mini book where he wrote about all God's blessings and started from the front.... "John 15:3 You are already made clean because of the Word which I have spoken to you"... Steven pauses a moement and reads on...Romans 8:35-39... Nothing can ever seperate God's love for us through Jesus Christ... He takes a moement to relect on his note and reads on...Romans 7:24-25.. Even though I am wretched or 'sinful' Christ has set me free!... He looks on and reads on as his spirit seems to be uplifted...Romans 5:20 Even if I find myself 'sinning' GRACE will always abound more... He smiles and looks at all the papeers on the wall and it doesn't seem to bother him any more he sits himself up and continues reading...Acts 13:52, Even through times of protest against us, we should still be filled with Joy... He lifts up his head and looks at all the people reading his life.. and realises there's no need to be so down and crappy about it...Exodus 23:29-30, Slowly but surely I will be better... Then Steven stands up closes the book and smiles... He says God thanks.. now I look back I really realise u have been in my life my whole life... he looks at his story on the walls all around him and all he can see is.. The Father Loves you abundantly! Whatever you've done doesn't count =).

Steven walks off and realises... life sucks, only when u don't have God... but it rocks when u do..

Pondering

Ever Looked into the sky? Ever just lay on the green grass and stare right into the heavens? wondering why the clouds are the way they are... or even having fun looking at them and seeing what they may resemble! I'm glad God made the skies.. something to look up to, the seas are nice, and the beaches are great, but the skies are something I've always apprecieted...

The clouds are like a movie to me... how they move rapidly at some times, abit like a race if you know what I mean, and at tiems they are still as the waters... The sun is like, a beautiful giant bright ball in the sky, I always like to see it at sun rise and sun set, but I've seen it more on set than rise, haha, probally because I wake up late... prehaps one day I will wake up early, to see the sun rise...
I don't care what people think of me really... I don't see the point in caring about other peoples thoughts against you, if they think your a sissy, coz u like classical music, of appriciate the skies, the seas the wind that blows on your face, so let them think it... They don't see the beauty in it all thats all:)...

I like the sky at night... how the stars all some together.. reminds me of some kind of get together... hier like objects... that are nice to look at.. ever just stare into the starry night one a clear sky? it's quite wonderful... And the moon, is liek a huge ball, that seems liek it's lonely but infact, it's not... it's so fair.... come to think about it, the moon could be the earths husband/wife Haha whatever u call the earth :P

You all see me talking about God all the time, and you probally think, man this guys a bible basher.. or this guy must be a pastor or a super holy dude.. but the facts are.. I'm human, no different from any other human, and I hope you all understand what I mean... To be honest, liek any other human, I like to share good news, Don't you think there's enough bad news in this world already? Good news is like that tiny light u see when u are lost in a cave, coz it means thats an way out...

like everyone in this world, we are all unique, and we all appreciate many different things, people may see u as werid for liking to look at stones or looking at metal, hey I dunno... but it's because u see the beauty in it... and if they really went and looked into it, they too would see the beauty... it's abit like knowing God, and knowing about God... Heck theres a lot of difference, if you know God.. wow you would feel the peace that is different and unlike any other peace... if you know about God, then I guess thats it, it's like to some one who see the beauty of metal, they know metal in a sense.. and they can see the beauty, but we all know about metal, how it's hard.. can be used as a weapon.. ect but we don't see the beauty of it.. But I'm glad... no matter what.. God loves us, and he will continue loving us, even if u curse him or say how much u hate him.. he loves you.. and will always love you..

I love the light.. natural light from the sun.. it's quite amazing... ah wellz, I think I've done enough pondering aye?

Now I'll let u all ponder HAHHA =p joke
God bless you all
-Chris

A pain, a fear, a love, a tear..

take my hand!!
Noo... I can't
TAKE IT!!! quickly!!
but...
please take it before it's too late!
I...it.. I want to.. but I can't
Tears flew around that day... nothing but tears... why

couldn't she just hold my hand.. she would have escaped..
No one knows... not even me... like a pillar of fire hit

from the sky... it was hot burning fuel.. everythings

strange.. some times I dont understand! Take the fire and

burn me out! cool it and make me freeze...
The past is like a scar.... the pains u shall never

forget... u wanna reach out so much... u want to have it

all again.. u want it all to subside.. but u can't... you

don't understand.. don't cry.... stay firm... thats what

we all say to ourselves... tears are for whimps, we try to

convince ourselves... tears... just keep pouring out no

matter what you say... in your mind u say this is not

logical... TEARS arn't coming out.. but inside of you... u

feel the streaming....u cry to God... he answers... he

knows the pains u are going through.. and comforts you...

he wants u to know that he's working... in you... he's

changing you... slowly, he wants you to know him more...

yes.. even though u can't bear to do a thing... he's there

with his hands.. touching you... the only hand that will

never leave you... fear he knows... the fear you have...

and is fighting fear itself...he wants you to know.. he

loves you more than you can ever imagine.. he loves you

more than your words can say... he wants you to feel

comforted... he wants to touch your heart... he wants to

set u free... for it is not fear that should be with you

but love... his compassion spreads out more than this

universe could ever contain... can you hear him? he's

talking to you my dear... he's wanting to speak to you...

can you hear?

Oh, how the beauty of the sun arrays....
How the light breaks through all the darkness...
How wondrous it is rising in the morning...
How romantic it is as it sets...
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As a bright ball up high in the sky. It has much responsibility. Like the glue that keeps things together, it never gives up. Though the planets are slipping further, it tries it's best to hold on...Never is there a dull moment that the sun has, though having so much responsibility the sun continues to shine...
IT shines in persistency... It knows without it there would be nothing but darkness and coldness... Yet no Darkness has beheld it, for darkness and light cannot be as one.
The sun is kind and not greedy.... it takes the moon into consideration and through the reflection of the sun, the moon becomes a powerful ruler at night. But without the sun. it would be nothing.. it would be powerless....
Though the cold may surround and when one draws close in space, they cannot feel the heat, knowing the sun is enough... As if one knows the sun, they know the warmth and touch it truly provides...
One can curse the sun, but the sun will never turn it's back and leave you in total darkness. But one can hide in darkness away from the light, even as the light shines forth so freely for you!
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The sun is a bit like Christ, no matter what we do it will not turn it's back on you, he waits and gives you and opportunity to step in a relationship with him. The moon is like us... powerless and useless without the "Sun". The planets are like time; The Sun's still around but the planets are getting further.... We should get to the light, whiles the sun is still near....
God will always shine. Even if the sun might diminish God will shine forever!

John 3:19
This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil.

1 Peter 1:25
but the word of the Lord stands forever." And this is the word that was preached to you.

Hebrews 13:5
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

Isaiah 55:6
Seek the LORD while he may be found; call on him while he is near.

John 6:35
Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.

John 11:25
Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies;

John 12:46
I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.

-- I hope you all have been blessed.. found sheep and lost sheep alike! God loves all humans... God loves you.. God bless ya :)
-Chris

hmm Dunno what to write as a story, but the title came as eyes! lets see what I can stir up for today,

You may be the poorest and most ill person in the world, the most despised and hurt person in the world, you may feel that people seem so strange and awkward around you.. but in the eye's of the father, You are the most beautiful thing created.

Mother Terresa once said, "I see Jesus in the eyes of the poor of the poorest." You may not see him, and your eyes may be blind unto him, but he's there and he's watching you...
He takes care of all the sparrows, the flowers adn his eyes are still set upon you!

There was once a blind man that could not see, but he could still call out to Jesus.. his eyes were set upon him, yet he could not see...

There was once a huge crowd of high priests and Phariessies, who had eyes liek and hawk, able to see what is wrong wiht you and what is right, but could not see much things in themselevs, and most of all the Salvation.

There was once a TV show, that had a pastor, who was going blind, he told the whole congregation to pray for him, that his operations would go forth sucessfully and he would be healed! but instead it failed, and though the congregation was disapointed as well as himself, He told them, "I have lost my vision physically, But I can see much more now"

There was once a blind man which was seen by many people, and they ask Jesus, Whose sin was it that made this person born blind, his own sin or his parents, And Jesus replied, Niether, it was done so that the glory of God may work through him.

There was once a man who said, he who has eyes see, he who has ears hear me... and that man was Jesus!

To you he knows how many hairs are on your head, he sees you, and he died for you.. he coulda just voiced out when he was in court! but he saw the future.. and the end result!, his eyes were open and he kept silent.. like a lamb to the slaughter he suffered EXTERME pain and whips so much so he became what people say as, unreconizable.. ever heard of the saying "I will punch u till your own mama won't recognize you?" Well Jesus went through more than just a punching...
In his eyes.. he saw that all this pain and suffering.. that going through hell for 3 days, Will give you a chance of salvation.. he took it all for you... and all you have to do is believe... He was silent.. for your sake, and he suffered for you...

Through the eyes of man, I can say much destruction and decay is happening, through the eyes of God I can say much love is for you, through my own eyes.. I see how Christ suffered.. not only for me.. But for each and every one of you!

Eyes.. vision, blidness.. nothigns an boundary!

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Well that was more like qoutes and comments than a storry but I think I'll keep it around!

May you all be blessed greatly!
-Chris

Mirror

Feldor looked himself in the mirror and spoke to himself saying,
The worlds too real.. and it still hurts around...
No ones gonnna come and comfort you, you gotta stay around..
I don't why or what makes me wanna go on, but I guess you just have to..
Life's getting tougher.. and there's no short cut.. What is it to be like in the mirror?
Is everything easier.. everythign backward? does choas mean comfort? are the rich the poor? and being poor good?.. I don't get it... When I look you.. my reflection, all I see is me.. and when I comb my hair to the left, I look exactly like you.. more and more... each day..
It's funny, why isit just a relection of you.. wonder why... wonder how..
Every ones just saying go on with life, don't trust no one...
do what you want and live life ot the fullest..
I wonder you my relflection.. how you feel? do you live life to the fullesT?
I dunno, when I do I feel a empty void within me.. all the girls all the drugs, they don't help all...
I got all the money in the world, yet, nothing's filling in this void.. I want more and more.. but the more I get the bigger this void feels.. Don't you wish?
hmm.. I mean I wish I had some one to hold on to.. some one I could trust..

*bang door slams*
Feldor shocked turned around and saw Selina,
Selina: You are talking to yourself again?
Feldor: yeap.. life's not going the way I want it now a days
Selina: No point starting in the mirror, your not gonna change it like that!
Feldor: at least I can talk to some one that understands..
Selina: There is some one that understands.. I'm sure of it the worlds huge..
Feldor: Well you never suffered as bad as me.. my past is as dark as the bottomless pit.. Full of deciet lies, and abuse.. and the World says thats the way it should be.
Selina: Well yes I havn't had a bad past like you, and no my past is not full of lies and deciet, but doesn't mean it's been all dandy.
Feldor: if you knew how I felt you would be doing the same.
Selina: If I was as rich as you, I wouldn't be spending it on sex, or drugs, I'll be enjoying my spar treatments and massages..mmmmm*dreamy look*
Feldor: blah Even if I did spend it on such thigns it's not gonna satisfy me for long.. in fact all these bloody thigns on the planet only gives temporal satisfaction
Selina: True.. *smiles* lifes not too bad come on cheer up
Feldor: heh.. I may look liek the happiest person in the world but I ain't..
Selina: hmm I've known you for ages.. and you have never opened up like this to me before... some things really up.. care to share?
Feldor: I... I can't.. I was taught not to trust any one...not even you..
Selina: It's ok.. I won't tell any one I promise, it's between you me and God
Feldor: God? bah! if he was real he wouldn't let me feel this void in me
Selina: you don't believe in God?
Feldor: Nope! He reminds me of some one gay.. in white clouds doing boring stuff ZZzz
Selina: oh HAHAHA how you have been mistaken all your life! it's nothing like that my dear friend
Feldor: huh what do you mean? look at those pictures of Jesus and stuff.. all white harp playing.. super plain skies.. if thats heaven I'd rather Go to hell!
Selina: oh my.. Hell is worste, heavens' not like that... It's paradise.
Feldor: it's still plain,,
Selina: no infact it's quite colourful.. you see the skies.. the sun sets? the moon at night? the stars that twinkle.. the wonderful beach.. the weet sound of the sea brushing on the sand..
Feldor: never really noticed... *stares out the window into the starry night.*
Feldor: heh.. I guess your right.. it does look kinda nice..
Selina: yeap! *huge smile appears on her face* and God made all that.. If he made that what more of heaven! it's gonna be even more Exciting than your discos.. night clubs! more attractive than the girls you sleep with, and heck more fun than sex or chocolate..mmm chocolate*thinks to herself, Closest thing to heaven*
Feldor: I never thought of that... then why do artists draw heaven as white cloudy and boring angles on a harp... Jesus like a woman...?
Selina: you know what! I have no idea haha*sticks tongue out* maybe they were boring eh?
Feldor: haha prehaps, artists.. they can make beautiful pictures and yet they can't make heaven the way you describe it, btu instead makes it the opposite!
Selina: haha yeap! *winks* I think it's good you don't know what heaven looks like, then you can stretch you imagination! but the bible says it's super colourful!
Feldor: hmm.. so if God loves the world so much why did he let people be poor? Why the povety? he can get rid of all that make our lives easier.
Selina: You ever seen the poorest person in the world? who has found God in thier lives? you ask them, are you suffering alot? does this poverty give you much pain? I know one person that had cancer.. worried coz he only had 3 months to live, then prayed God healed him, he might not be the richest person in the world, but he said when I asked him arn';t you scared oyu gonna die, he said, well I'm nto dead yet after 1 year, I wanna be a exsample of God's glory and if I died I 'll go to heaven any way..
Feldor:.. and what's this gotta do with all the poverty? people still hurt!
Selina: can't you see.. thier not poor, they have God and they rejoice, They love it! they celebrate in church, and they have peace and dreams... they have hope Coz of God...
Feldor: and those who don't knwo God? he lets them suffer!
Selina: yea.. you would think so, but look at a great exsample you and me know, Mother terresa, she was sent by God to help the poorest of poorest! and think of this, God sent her.. if God didn't care he would have just let them all die without sending people to them..
Feldor: and the rest of the world? the ones that don't know, like the tribes?
Selina: oh but they will know God... he has his ways just you don't know, he could have already spoken to them just thier ignorant, liek most people are
Feldor: hmm... you mean like me
Selina: haha you said it not me.
Feldor: I wanna ask you, when you look into the mirror, who do you see?
Selina: I see me, and Christ
Feldor: you see Christ, Your joking when I see you looking at the mirror I only see you
Selina: but thats what you see! Christ is what makes me go on, he's what makes me live and walk, the one person that I can trust with no fear, the one person I can speak to and he won't backstab me.
Feldor: hmm.. really? hwo can you be so sure?
Selina: simple, he died suffered for me
Feldor: not much.. look at the paintings, even the passion of Christ doesn't look as much suffering as some movies..
Selina: that's coz they couldn't make it as bad as it really was.. you knwo in the bible it says, he was scorned, and when he hung on the cross he wasn't reconizable anymore, he was liek a peice of meat... bones exposed.. worste than any movies you seen and he was still living just for you and me!
Feldor: oouch... that much huh?.. hwo can you even trust the bible? it's written by men not God!
Selina: yes it is written by witness of God and besides who says God can't use normal people! in fact all the poeple you read about in the bible arn't super human, they all have faults, drunkens, adulterers, but God can still sue them
Feldor: then God isn't just!
Selina: haha if there was a perfect human, he would have to be God to restrain form all the human faults of this world! and that is exactly why Jesus was here!
Feldor: hmm... good point... why poeple! why not animals?
Selina: simple! God made you in hsi image, and God breathed in you not animals you have a spirit animals don't!
Feldor: hmm... ok.. gee God's like too good to be true.. gave us such an easy path.
Selina, easy as it sounds, Jesus had to suffer more than any one in this world, betrayed, slaughtered, spat on, clothes gambled for, and worste of all he had to be seprated from God on the cross, just coz he took all our sins for us on the cross, pineed down. Too good to be true? indeed, no problems in life? wrong, we will have troubles, alot of them, just liek you do now, but the difference is, I have God to talk to to pour my feelings to and he is the one that keeps me going.
Feldor: hmm.. God.. is he the one thing missing in my life?
Selina: prehaps *smiles* I hold another mirror that you can to if you just believe
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well this was a long story dialog... I don't mind if you don't like it, but just read it prehaps it will answer some questions, well I just wanna add a few things, we don't have to be perfect to know God, we don't have to be Holy to know God well... we just need to affirm that Jesus Christ is our saviour and Lord, and thats it we will be based on what Jesus can do not ourselves. If we become perfect before knwoing God then we don't need Jesus.
Noah(built the arc) was an drunkyard, Moses, was an bad tempered man, Abraham was a liar(said his wife was his sister just to save hsi own neck), David(yeap the one that killed Goliath-the giant) was an adulterer. No one is perfect, But Christ...
2 Corinthians 3:18
But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory just as by the Spirit of the Lord

The Cry

Tears flow from the eye...
as if hits the cheek it takes a path down to the chin
as it drops form the chin it hits the hands of Your father..
Your father who loves you so much he put them all in a bowl..

I know you want to hear him...
I know you want to know him...
He is not like the father you know on earth...
He's watching you from heaven.. crying out your name..
He sent his son down to this earth to die for you..
so that you may have a relationship with him...
So if you belive in his Son Jesus Christ, you may be able to talk to him...
To experience all the blessings he has stored up..

He hears your cries...
all your screaming...
all the time we want some one to understand..
He understands..
He opens his arms to welcome you...
are you willing?

He see's your hurts...
Your past...
He knows you are not perfect..
but that's why his son came...
So he may take your imperfection for you..
pay the penalty..
his son Jesus went to hell for you...
3 days in hell...
just so if you belive you may have the key to know God for life...

Eternally in heaven..
Eternally know him..
Not only on earth, but in heaven too..
Come he cries out.. Come to me..
He loves you alot..
Coem and see how much..

Alot of people have changed his image..
SO many false people..
He see's how you have doubt..
and still calls you..

he see's your disbelif.. and still calls you..
He loves you no matter what..
he doesn't want to see you suffer...
He loves you..
He hates sin, the thing that is stopping you form comign to him..
The very reason his Son died for you..

Liek a tear.. which your father catches..
Like a rose which your father clothes..
Like a catepillar you father transforms..

He loves you...
won't you belive in his son?
Just so he can talk to you..
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Well that's the end... I wish for you all to knwo My heavenly father who adopted me.. he has changed my life... yea even though life's still tough... he loves me alot... and he loves you too... he just wants to have a relationship with you.. liek he does with me...
He is way different form the movies... way different from the boring pictures... he is super fun!

God bless ya all
Chris

Well, Today I feel kinda shitty...

Start of the day amazingly with my Father God, and cooked brekky for my Dad... Then went to church and had an amazing time... then ate lunch... then came home.. slept for 10 mins, then went out for dinner, came home and found out I lost my MP3... yes another item lost... I feel so crap and useless... But never the less I still want you all to have this story that was wandering through my head while I wasn't so crappy..

Roses

planted as a seed inside a deep and dark ground.. alone with no family, brothers or sister....but as the seed germinates the rose starts to speak in the silence of it's germination..

Lord it is so dark.. I cannot see, but I know one thing, you are making my roots go deep so that when I grow up I will be strong, for you are the one who roots me down, no other root will do but yours.

as the shoot comes out of the soil, the Rose says,
Lord Lord! I see light, but nothign as bright as the light when I was in the darkness before. I thank you that you have gave me the strength to push through the soil, even though it may be hard, but your joy keeps me carrying on..

as the bud forms. Lord I am growing and maturing... still young as I am, but I thank you for your blanket that covers my nakeness, the bud you provide is as warm as the wings you hide me under.

As it blossoms, oh Lord, I feel so free, you have beautified me more than I could ever imagine, you have clothed me in red, and gave me a family. because of you I am united with them all.

As the trees grow around it and the family roses die. oh Lord, I thank you so much for the family I had... many have died, but because of you I am still alive... even though the trees are tall big and strong.. and I small tender and weak, I thank you that you have given me a protection from the wind.

The trees laugh at me oh Lord, they think I am crazy and say I am wrong... I belive in you but they say it's not true... oh why oh Lord why? but I will keep on carrying on with you.

As the winds blow, Lord I thank you for you were with me ever since I was born, I was no mistake, and you have made me strong.. my roots are held by your love, your love that keeps me standing strong. Even as the trees fall I know you are the one that keeps me carrying on.

As the Rose gets picked out of the floor, and into a humans hand, who passes it to a girl.. the Rose dying and clinging on to life for just a second longer says, Even though now I am about to die, you have shown me to you with my long life you have satisfied me, and today I am happy.. you have used me for this day. for I am now in the hands of your most tresured creation... and you have used me as a tool to bong a love between two.

As it withers in a plant pot. Today I die, I may look like I am sad, but Lord I am crying... and these tears of mine are nto tears of sorrow and hurt. but tears of joy and happiness.. you have been there since I was born, and you have clothed me with your beauty.. your love, and your grace... you have let me see your most treasured creations, and even sheltered me in thier home... now I die in the house of your temples.. I know this one thing is true... that you are always true...

Well I hope you all enjoyed the story!.. I don't really know how it sounds ^_^ but I really hope it will touch your hearts.. all of your hearts..

God bless,
-Chris

An eagle

As the wings spread,
and the wind blows,
so shall your grace uphold me,
as I jump, I thank you.

That no matter how high I am,
Your grace is suffcient.
The breeze hit's under my wings and I can fly.
I really praise you Lord, that I do not need to flap them.
Coz I thank you that your grace is suffceint.

As I fall when I was an baby,
you gave me a parent to fly and catch me.
a watchful eye, and I praise you.
that you too provided them with grace.

When I was a todler,
Just big enough to fly.
I fell off the cliff,
into the sky, and I praise you.
For it's you love that carries me.

As I grow old,
I shread my feathers,
and I praise you that through the pains I go through,
You renew my youth.

As I grow up and have Childern,
I thank you Lord, you give me a watchful eye.
And that it's not my effort that makes them fly,
but your amazing grace.

The winds blow strong,
and I soar high,
coz of the strong winds I am able to fly,
and because of you I am able to live.

And as I die,
I thank you Lord,
For you have given me a long life,
and shown yourself to me.

^_^ Hope you all enjoy the story... we are all eagles, just we don't know it some times I guess.

Isaih 40:31 "But those who hope in the Lord will renew thier strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
-Chris~God bless you allllllllll and for every one who enters here may you know God more and more, and come to to know how much he loves you :)~

The past... Present.. and future

Some times It feels liek life is draining away... some times you don't know what you are waiting for... some times you wonder why relationships break, why humans like to hurt... Why we know it's wrong, yet still go and do the wrong, ultimaly us humans have the choice to change this world.. prehaps it all started from one person doing bacd, and the trend hit on... so why can't one person start a trend on doing good things.. and the world follows...

Things from the past floods your mind... the time when you were small and little, young and stupid.... so stupid, your faith was the highest then, anything said, you woul have beileved, without a doubt in mind... How you had that puppy love not really knowing why you like this person, why you hold hands... prehaps it's because you like them, or maybe coz the adults did it...

You grow up... and life gets more exciting... you find more things to do... more things to experiment, you take an ant and tear off it's legs... you take a berry from a tree and crush it to see what it's like... you try to bake a cake.... Nothing seems to be more perfect in life but through the stage you are growing...

you reach a certain age, a sudden urge and rush goes through you, you are attracted to the opposite sex, btu don't know why.. you can't keep your eyes off them, as they taunt you... provoke you... you go on further to experiment...

hearts break, tears flow... everything in life seems to be getting duller.... you don't know why... You wish you could disapear from this world, but you don't really know how specail you really are..

Now your staring at this screen... wondering what has happened... let me tell you, your more specail than the pearls and diamonds in this world... you are more specail than this earth it self.... You may not know it but you are... you may nto believe in God, you may deny him or say he's not real, but he believes in you... he loved you before you were born, paved your paths and wants you to enjoy life at it's fullest.. you may not love God or even think of him, but let me tell you he loves you... that he died for you... You might think it's all something that is used to comfort death which approaches all but let me tell you God doesn't want you to die, but have eternal life in heaven... you may nto believe in heaven, but let me tell you this, God wants you there... and he sent Jesus Christ to die for you... so that if you might just believe.... you can enjoy the ever lasting blessings that God is holding for you... Life might get down... bring us to the lowest point... but God looks, and sees... cries out to you.. with love... No matter what you do, the moement you believe in Christ... the Lord who has saved you.. .there's nothing that can make you unrightoues again.. nothing that can make you look bad.. coz whatever you have done, or will do he still loves you... and forgives you


-Chris

Mannn.... I JUST HAVE TO SHARE THIS!!! =DDD, today, I saw the most beautiful girl ever!!! O.O, she was so perfect, great body, hourglassed, Nice height! VEry nice face! big eyes... wow.. she was SOO BEAUTIFUL I was actually staring I think haha, but then again I only glanced at the body... which actually caught my eye, then kept lookign into her eyes =P to make myself feel better she DID actually look back... into my eyes... and kept it on hawk mode Lol!< so my conclusion is , she either thought, this pervert, can't keep his eyes off me OR Haha YAY some ones looking, or hey he doesn't look too bad :P. But Obviously all of you people will never choose the 3rd one with me right? HAHAHA =p.
But it got me thinking u know.... I actually said, God what a wonderful creation... I love the beauty of the skies you have, they intrigue me, but nothing compares to this girl that you have made... even the stars and the sky can';t match her... Then it hit me, this girl is so beautiful to me, and Jesus is even more beautiful than that girl, made me think of what beauty has he got?.. haha nto in that sense.. I mean.. I wanna seee!!!!! Mannnnnn..... :O:O:O... haha then I thought, God if I ever get a girl like that, if you could keep her youth... :P obviously he can... but then it's not about the exterior in a real relationship... the real beauty is within... =) any girl that a guy falls for, will say shes pretty no matter how much you can't see the good looks in her, but he will always say shes, sexy pretty ect.. Lol ^_^.
Anyhowz, God bless ya all! (*Wonders hmm imagine this is what Sarah looked like when she was 90+ Hahhaha.. wonder if theres any mroe around xD*)

Article

haha Everbody.. God rocks! but hey.. I want you to out this article not sure where it came from but it's so cool... =)

The Cry of a FatherMy child.....
You may not know me, but I know you… Psalm 139:1I know when you sit down and when you rise up… Psalm 139:2I am familiar with all your ways… Psalm 139:3Even the very hairs on your head are numbered… Matthew 10:29-31For you are My offspring… Acts 17:28I knew you even before you were conceived… Jeremiah 1:4-5I chose you when I planned creation… Ephesians 1:11-12You were not a mistake… Psalm 139:15-16For all your days are written in My book… Psalm 139:15-16I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live…Acts 17:28You are fearfully and wonderfully made… Psalm 139:14I knit you together in your mother’s womb… Psalm 139:13And brought you forth on the day you were born… Psalm 71:6I have been misrepresented by those who don’t know Me… John 8:41-44I am not distant and angry, but I am the complete expression of love…1 John 4:16And it is My desire to lavish My love on you… 1 John 3:1Simply because you are My child and I am your Father… 1 John 3:1I offer you more than your earthly father ever could… Matthew 7:11For I am the perfect Father… Matthew 5:48Every good gift that you receive comes from My hand… James 1:17For I am your provider and I meet all your needs… Matthew 6:31-33My plan for your future has always been filled with hope…Jeremiah 29:11Because I love you with an everlasting love… Jeremiah 31:3My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore…Psalm 139:17-18And I rejoice over you with singing… Zephaniah 3:17I will never stop doing good to you… Jeremiah 32:40For you are my treasured possession… Exodus 19:5I desire to establish you with all My heart and all My soul…Jeremiah 32:41And I want to show you great and marvelous things… Jeremiah 33:3If you seek Me with all your heart… Psalm 37:4For it is I who gave you those desires… Philippians 2:13I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine…Ephesians 3:20For I am your greatest encourager… 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles…2 Corinthians 1:3-4When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you… Psalm 34:18As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to My heart…Isaiah 40:11One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes… Revelation 21:3-4And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth…Revelation 21:4I am your Father and I love you even as I love my Son, Jesus…John 17:23For in Jesus, My love for you is revealed… John 17:26He is the exact representation of My being… Hebrews 1:3And He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you…Romans 8:31And to tell you that I am not counting your sins… 2 Corinthians 5:18-19His death was the ultimate expression of My love for you… 1 John 4:10I gave up everything I loved so that I might gain your love…Romans 8:32If you receive the gift of My Son Jesus, you receive Me… 1 John 2:23And nothing will ever separate you from My love again…Romans 8:38-39Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen…Luke 15:7I have always been Father and will always be Father…Ephesians 3:14-15My question is will you be My child? John 1:12-13I am waiting for you… Luke 15:11-32
.....Love, Your Dad(Almighty God)

What if

What if tommorrow was your last day ever? quite an interessting question. Many will respond differently, some will say, I will go to all my love ones and tell them how much I truly love them, some will say haha I will go to my work place and let out totally, I would go sky diving, and do all the thigns I havn't done in this life time! haha For me I say I would go around trying my last attempt to tell ya all about God.. Just in the chance that prehaps I will see ya all in heaven ;). But how many of us will actually do what we will. After all today might be your last day? For me.. I dunno I havn't been doing much trying to tell ya guys about God much.. actually I probally have :P but then bleh I should just leave it between u and God. Frankly most of us wouldn't do much and continue with their normal lives, well so called normal, some would do nothing. ahh one last day of life, why not just relax it all off eh? haha thats actually a ncie thign to do=p. But if truly thats what we would do then... if we know today might be our last day.. Why don't we do nothing haha, coz we know that tommorrow might come, and that if we don't do the things we do today, tommorrow won't be worth while prehaps? hehe ah wells I was just pondering and it has gotten a few people angry I think.

A lil Msg

To all the people I ever hurt I am sorry, forgive me?
For all the peoples heart I have ever broken I say sorry, Forgive me?
For all the people I have ever gotten angry against or raised my voice, I say I didn't really mean it.. I'm sorry, Forgive me?
Forgiveness... is so easy and free to do.. you can always forgive some one if you really want to, but trust will be the thing u need to gain back. For when one is forgiven the thing they did is forgiven the person is forgiven, but if such consequences or situation should crop up near again, that the forgiven person may not be trusted, it is ok, for forgivness is free but trust... gained. SO you may ask me, Chris since your such a person that talks about God, and how he forgave us, how Jesus died for our sins. Then does God trust you? haha good Question.. Does he? of course he doesn't :P he trusts who is within me, where I gain my rightouesness, not by my works, or by me trying to be good, but by Christ's Righteousness. ;)

A Story

HELP HELP HELP, one cried helplessly... Stuck in darkness he cried. all He ever wanted was a helping hand, but all his friends had left him and did not wsee him fall intot he drain.. o every day he lived on what wa sleft in his bag a few crackers and 2 bottles of water.. Trying by his own effort to climb our he alkways slipped and failed. till one day he gave up and said, I Surrender.. He reached out his hand in hope that prehaps there will be a hand that will come and take him out of this misery.. He could remember all the thigns that he had done wrong in his life, and there were voices in his head saying, this is what you deserve mannn think about all the thigns you done, ur nothign but a brat u might as well be removed form this world, make it a better place wiht out you! but every day he would scream nooo nooo and tears will flow out so freely form his eyes... all of a sudden on that very day he surrendered and lifted his hand, he tried to scream for help one more time.. btu los this voice.. all that was moving was his lips.. never losing hope he streched out his hands even higher... and all of a sudden a bright light came forth form the top.. and a hand came down and lifted him up.

theres a meaning behind this story, but I'll leave it up to you guys to figure it out. If you can't prehaps you gotta ask God how? :P

God bless ya all Adios

Blessings

One day there was a group of 3 Childern, and they all were sitting together, then a person spoke through a speaker, saying " all you childern make a wish and I will grant it. So the Childern gathered together and decided that they all wanted an infinte amount of sweets that could never make them sick or make thier teeh fall out. So the person spoke and said it is granted, TAKE as MUCH as you want but it will only be today I will give you this wish after today when you return everything will be back to normal like nusery! So each child had a little bucket and as many bags as they wanted to take the sweets out of this room. So one child thought to himself, hey if I take too much there wont be enough for the rest I'll come back later for more, so he went to his seat with one bag of sweets watchign as the other 2 and the second one though to himself, hmm the person in the microphone must be cheating me but since he said he will grant this wish I'll just take this one bag here enough for me, so I don't fall sick int he stomache or have my teeth rot, after all sweets rot your teeth right? then he returned to his seat with half a bag of sweets. Then the third Child was still gathering his sweets he kept on taking bag after bag, untill there was so much that he had to drag the bags on the floor, He said to himself, man how blessed we are sweets that don't rot our teeth, mann and whats even more cool is that we could take as much as we want haha I think I'll go back for even more, so the third Child went back and took some more bags.. Then the voice said " ok it's nighty night for today!" Then all the childern went to thier beds and fell deepasleep. they woke up and brushed htier teeth ate breakfast and took thier bags of sweets and started to eat them... Then the first child with one back ate half of his bag and said, I'll save some for later. Then the one wiht half a bag was left with one quater and he said I will save some for later don't want my teeth falling out so sooon. Then the 3rd Child ate bag after bag after bag, it was as if the sweets he was eating was infinite! then the first 2 childern asked the voice in the microphone how come he eats so much and nothing happens to him, how come he looks like he has infinite amount of sweets! then the voice said to them"you asked for infinite and I told you to take as much as possible, but you said to yourselves maybe there's not ENOUGH for the others, when I told you to take AS MUCH as you want, you also thoguht to yourself, my teeth are gonna rot and I will fall sick, when you asked for seets that don't rot your teeth or make you sick, i said it is GRANTED, and the reason the 3rd Child looks like he has so much is coz he has so much, he listened and recieved his blessing abundantly!"
So dear people so it is God who provides, don't think he hasn't got enough blessings for every one in this world, Don't think that his blessings will spoil you, but instead RECIEVE IT MORE AND MORE For God's provision is everlasting and even you can't contain it! be liek the 3rd child and RECIEVE AS MUCH, and REALISE how God's blessing won't rot your teeth =p nor make you sick ;) in other words SPOIL you! =) I hope this story you all have enjoyed for those who read it that is, God bless ya all :)

xP and to those who never ever recieved God or even think he's gay and all coz his servants messages in church are boring ;) this is just a taste of what he actually offers, OUTSIDE of the church AND inside!, and how do u reieve all these infinte blessings?
1st accept him as your personal saviour and LORD as he has given himself as a gift of sacrifice to you, just bow your head and say, I know I am a sinner Lord, and that I want to change I have heard of your Glory Lord, and that You died on that Cross that day, you forgave me of all my sins and set me free! I invite you Holy Spirit into my life, I invite you Jesus into my life! Amen.
2nd know that his blessings are all written in the bible so read it to find the belssings;) make sure it's a blessing not a curse :)
3rdly Realise his grace saved you and not try to do right but look on how much he has done, and that when you accept him it is his righteousness you gain, and be thankful!
4thly
Go to church :). Even though it's boring at least if you have any questions the pastor/Priest will be sure enough willingly to answer them if they reject you harshly and treat you like dirt, know the Lord loves you, if you feel no peace there go to another Church :) pray about it;) prayign is just talkign to God and building a relationship.
5thly
What 5thly lol :P the REST is up to you! pray ! speak to God and he will answer might be slowly but SURELY! :) GOD BLESSS

God & Me

ahh all this time I have been so strict so angery and so ferice, but I realise how I shouldn't be and how different Jesus really is.. here's a few points
Jesus Died for me, and during the orste and most painful part of his death, he forgave me:').
He broke the curses that was between me and God, that now I can be a child, he broke it so he could establish his covernant(show his love and grace, to bless me).
He did it so I could inhert all that abaraham was blessed with.
He did not come to say, Chris you are wrong in these areas, so fix yourself up, no he said, I did not come to judge but to save! he did not say u lie to much, your sexually imorral but instead, said, I love you and I forgive you =).

It's coz he loved me first that I realise how blessed I am, how wrong I am and how I want to change, but he says, I am your shepard, I will lead you to green pastures and Still waters... oh how wonder ful still waters are so peaceful .. and green pastures,,, remind me of prosperity.

now the points about me...
I think I'm so bloody spiritual it's riduculious. I see so many faults in other people, as in Bretherns and sisters.. Then I realise how big a plank is in my eye!

I see how backslidden one is and is sad, but not realise prehaps there is a reson, afterall all things happen for the good of God, and prehaps they will be even more uplifted than I!

Some times I get so annoyed and get thoughts of evil in my mind, but God says, you see your brethern, I love him as much as I do to you... and I have forgiven him as I have done for you... and I realise, wow!

Some times when I correct one I use words of harshness and not love, but Christ says, let all the words form your mouth be filled iwth Love...

I am glad that Christ is nothign like me when it comes to pointing out mega errors in our lives, prehaps the pharsies when they were really wrong and abusing God in the past, but not to me, not to you, or whoever will come to him!

Thank you God, for all the things you have done for me... For I some times think that i have done well in certain things, but when I look back I remmeber prayiong to you, I am like the donkey as you entered and people praised you HOSAANA to the highest, I realise it is you now, not me =) Thank you for all the love you have given me, I thank you that it's coz of your love I am forgiven, I thank you that you too will forgive many mroe who are to come.. I thank you that even though I may be harsh you say to me, look into the pond, you see the sign no fishing? yea I threw all your sins form yesterday today and tommorrow in there, and there is no way to take it out. I thank you that you have told me I have a plank in my eye, and that you have carefully taken it out, and everytime I have another flowen into my eye, you never leave me and say blah you are so careless, but smile down on me and again over and ovaer again taking it out, with gentlness and kindness... I thank you for oyur blessings, oh the wonderful blessings, coz you gave me a roof to stay under, you gave me parents to look after me, you provided food on my table, you gave me legs so I can walk, you let me have arms that I may work, you give me eyes so I may see, you gave me a mouth so I can speak, ears so I may hear, a nose so I may smell.. a life so I can know you... I'm glad I know you and forever greatful =)
Yours Sincerly,
Chris

Crazy

ahh these days.. I only hear people calling me Crazy, Crazy and crazy... Word's are so harsh, they could kill some one... but I'm glad God's my sheild as he stated in exodus... if you think I'm going Crazy so tell the psycicalogical ward.. Get me and take me in.. is being so on fire for God a crazy thing? prehaps... is the truth so crazy? I wish that every one knew what I was feeling.. how I felt, then they would know.. but I don't care, cray as I am I sitll know the Lord see's me and loves me. why do people think you fear so much? I do not fear... I wish they would know that... ok I fear some things at certain times of my life, but it's the Lord which always comforts me and drives it out.. oh how I wish every one was reading my blog, btu the simple fact is every isn't.. and when they do all they see is God this and that.. then they say man this guy is bonkers... so sue me hahaha I have freedom of speech do I not? what you gonna do kill me? cut my body up and feed me to the Dogs? would you do somehting as disguist as that? but I tell you the truth no matter how much you do to my physical body.. my life will not perish, for I will be standing before the Lord, and be in his presence forever more! Perservere.. I cast alll blessings that I can unto you bretherns sisters, Enemies, friends and family... May God touch all your hearts, may he give you the joy I once felt and am still feeling , may he give you the peace that overide the dispute amoungst one another... did you know that even tho we have different callings God still says there should be an agreement? for isit not an inheretence of ours to bve united and give commanded blessings? did you know even if we have disputes we shouldn't let it give us the chance to character assassinate? a chance to go and show how right you are and wrong the other person is? doesn't it all seem to contradict as i speak? well I say to you.. if you see a contradiction reread the whole thing. I see heads you see tails, we flip a coin I say what do you want you say heads, so I look at the coin and it's tails and you look and you see heads, and we both wonder why? but did you know if we see different angles we confirm that God made us all differently?did you know that it's coz of our differences we are brought together! did you know that it's good to absorb the angles form the other bretherns! but if you truly feel a check.. a wrong.. your spirit tells you no this is not the right teaching.. do not assisinate the fella tell him how you feel! then let him be.. do not change him God will do that.. you just do the natural and he will do the supernatural! as much as I want you all to read this post. I wonder how many will... prehaps one day you will stumble upon my blog and say :O man this is interessting heh^.^ a story will come another day.. IW as gonna write one, but I dunno.. I guess there was a check that needed to be done, prehaps I needed to speak out and open my own eyes wiht God's word.. I am not perfect I fall but I am always getting up, and if it's too hard for me I know God will pick me up!

GOD BLESS YA ALL!!!! ADIOS
Chris

Sheltered Beneath your wings

Man Am I glad I have God sheltering me protecting me :D it's so awesome xD... You know I just found out I have exams next week?! hjahahha just one... times flying.. and my money is running short all of a sudden.. hehe Well whats my plans for me exams? Trust in God, thats one thing.. and probally skim through all my notes again... although half of them are drawings xD...So boring now a days.. nothign to do during breaks... and all hahahhahahaAhh welllzzz,,,, Hope you all like the drawings.. I couldn't decide which version to put so I will put all 3 xD.. write a story do you say? haha after the pictures then...

story oh Story..

Ever wondered what purpose is there to life? why we walk around.. having absolutly nothing to do... how we crave for love, power... hwo we crave for money and materials... oh what goood is all this? at the end they will allllll PERISH... Every day we say to ourselfs it's a new day somethign to do somethign to make this world a better place! then we try so hard, but never will it ever be beneficial to you coz u won't be using it... So as you drain your life away pondering about such things, you do not see the value of your life, why your parents said, I want a child... hwo much thier love abounds for you within thier hearts.. as they try to keep it all in and smile as thier child grows up... You blame them for bringing you into a world of suffering... you say this world is rotting there is no purpose in life! but oohhh how blind are you?!.. We live, we do... here's the gd news, God said that he will make some humans, and they will fellowship! with me... then some dude called adam and a chick called eve Defeated the whole purpose of our lives! then some cool dude called Jesus came to die for you so that bond that was once there before would be restored... so much privillage you have to commune with such as one.. angels see you and say wow, you talk to the master as if he was your own... animals see you and say hmm... why are you so blessed? Devils look at you and say DAmn you you look just liek the one in heaven... damn you that you are blessed and have so much power.. I shall steal it from you with decieving lies and try to snatch it, I will act for the pleasures of your sinful nature and then conqouer over all your blessings and life, I will make you ponder and want to die faster, I will make you say I have no meaning in life, I will make sure u get no more blessing form the one above! YES I SHALL STEAL THEM ALL... But they see you and realise.. why doesn't he fall.. then they see you covered, they tremble and realise the LORD is with you.... they run in ear... and hide in the darknesshunting for other people in the darkness... What is the purpose of life? commune with God, is that it? no we must fellowshipw ith one another, we uplift each other... we rmeind each othe how great God is... what if they don't believe in God? shake off the dust form your feet... but you say to yourself it';s UNFAIR hwo about those who never heard of God? then leave it To God to decide, you never knwo what happens when they enter into life after death... I Say you are all blessed, so much so that Jesus actually died for you.. but if you should reject him, I say gd luck, for your life will seem dull.. and your joy seem so temporary... you will have love.. but not the type you want.. you will always be hunting for the empty void in your heart... you will always be in turmoile.. you kill to survive thewn realise killign is wrong but you get lost and confused... you have SEX and enjoy it but you know it only lasts hwoever long you stay in that bed... You run left and right and scream! you say what's happenign, and God looks and searches for you.. but you are covered with the blockage of Sin! but u have never sinned you say? have you never lied? ever thought of having sex with some one? just in your mind? ever wanted to kill some onein your mind all this you have then you have commited sin itself, just as bad as you do it in real life.... then when some one preaches the word to you, trying to give back the iheretance you once owned, try to give you back your life, you reject it.. and God can never see you, Jesus will never know you... it's spoken to you but you never recieved... but I know one thing, I'm glad that I am sheltered beneath his glory and his everlasting love....

^.^ almost a story... but more of an eye opener, but I hope u all enjoyed it, FLAME ME, CURSE ME as you will... BUT I am blessed by the Lord and all curses have been broken by him... ^_^ but over all I hope always hope that you enjoy what I write .. God bless ya alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

For his yoke is easy and his burden light!

Talent

These days are so cool Days of freedom a released from shackles, pasts of pains released and times of torubles gone and knowing that it only lasts for but the while am so over joyed... yet, some one once asked me join a talent show!, and so I asked them what talent have I got? they said erm.. I know singing... they asked em to sing a song, but they closed thier ears and shut it tight... oh my goodness they would reply.. that is so... soo bad. Then they pondered thinking of what to do. They said I know how about dancing... so I danced and they said hmm nooo noo oo... not gd...Then they said I klnow acting... and so I acted and they said ahh too boring.. no spark in it... as they pondered.. I could feel myself tear inside... "why the heck don't I have talents... what ahh.. ohh man" then they said.. many more htings.. such as juggling unicycling.. and they all failed, at the end they gave up and released a big sigh... I was upset coz nothign that I did was ever good enough nothing I did would seem to spark in anyones minds... So I decided hey you know what! even though I don't have any talents I can show the world, at least we are all unque, then all my friends smiled and nodded thier heads saying" Yeeeaaa your right." as time moved on me and my friends watched the talent show clapping to each of the things done dancing singing juggling... it was all so over whelming... IU decided to ask them to come to church with me and they agreeed.. all happily walkign to church we sat down and the pastor started talking "when you sing, you don't sing unto man but unto God, even though u may say ahh my singing sucks and God would rather hear some one else! you have to realise God doesn't care hwo you sing coz each and every one of our voices are unique God has a band of angels up there but still listens to you, see how specail you are!" wow the message touched me and my friends hearts.. we smiled and realised how great God is, how even though we may be the worste singers he still appreciates us for who we are and our differences, even though he already has the best he still looks at us and sees how unique we are... Even though we are so bad at somethigns and good at others, he doesn't condemn us but blesses us, he has the best and still rather listen to us.. wow!The verse hit me.. MAthew 11:28-30..Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly heart, and you will find rest your souls. For my yoke is easy and My burden is light." ahh how true it is, gentle and lowly in heart =)...

=) another sotry for all you wanderers out there Christains or not you are all reading the story, hate it love it? it's up to you :) but I hope u liekd it more than u hated it ^.- God bless ya all!