Lone sheep

sigh.. my heart is dampening.. and it's nto a gd sign, usually means depression is next, but I think I'll let all of whats in my midn out first! Well I feel that relationships between my bretherns and sisters have deteroirate... It's sad.. the fellowship has left us.. and I can't seem to contact them.. prehaps I have done somethign that has torn our relationship further... or prehaps the pruning of the branch to multiple has taken me away... I don't know.. but I miss the days where we could talk.. dunno about anything.. I miss time spent wiht Karen too.. My lil sis.. used to talk about God all the time.. and get excited about it.. but now.. now everythings changed.. I knew they would change before these thigns ever happened.. coz it was in me. even though I really didn't want things to change.. I guess things do eventualy... I think brother William is in need of prayer.. n Father God I knwo your gonna help him through his troubles.. It's times like this, where I am glad God is watching over me.. it's times like this I know I am falling weak.. and my legs are getting weary.. these are the times God always carries me.. I wish I could cheer up... but the weird emptiness in me is growing, but at the same time, I feel it being patched up by My heavenly Father... I am between sad and lonely.. I feel liek a black sheep.. a sheep with a blemish not belonging in the place of where other sheep dwell.. But it's times like this where My Shepherd always says, come here I love you dearly.. don't be sad my little sheep, for being different is a gift... u are perfect the way you are... graze in the lush grass I have provided you with, and enjoy the sounds of the still streams.. for I have not forgotten you, you of a million sheep. I'm so glad My heavenly Father is with me... I'm glad he is, coz I am fotunate, for where a lone sheep wanders, the wolf sharpens it's claws... but with The Shepherd with me, the wolf can do nothing...

RaNdOm thInG

My heart is at it's Lowest,
But Oh Lord you are at the highest,
you lift me up on your shoulders,
and carry me up so high,
YOur still voice comforts all oh Father God.

Whome is like the Lord?
Who can comfort one who is down?
who is able to watch over and stand gaurd everyday?
who is like the Lord,
who watches over me every night and day.

For His grace hath brought me through,
and I'm glad.

Thank you

Eben though this is not the best post I have ever posted, I thank you for takign your time to read :) God bless you!
-Chris

Church, Project

Haha Church has been awesome, you have no idea how hyped up I was on saturday.. the feeling over threw me Haha I WAS WOHOO I CAN FEEL GOD SO STRONGLY!!!! WHAT ABOUT THE REST! Hehe but if the rest can't feel it I would be sad. MORE POEPLE SHOULD GO TO THE FRONT I REACON HAHAHA MAKE IT MORE FUN!!! :D.. But I guess we can't force peopel can we now Hehe... Oh my project.. shyt I need to start the documentation.. no more lzing aroudn after gym ttmr hardcore in pain Hehe.... :D Basically I gotta say ntohgin much has happened, I wanna look for somethign for Florence, been askign every one to help me search for that Item( Can't tell coz Florence might read this blog haha) But to tell you the truth she's been a great shepherd to me, or older sister Hehe ;p And She has kept me going in this church for a while actually almost since the begginign I say almost coz Linus also helped Haha. FLorence helped for approximately 1 year of askign small thigns it's cool :) IT's ncie to knwo your care grp leader actually cares for you haha, well shame she isnt the care leader any mroe but hey I'll never forget it, and Linus kept me in for aorund 3 months, Another 1-2 months Wei lune I think and never forgetting Ken Haha my high school mate!

It's all cool Christmas is coming up, I think I'll be giving Alicia somethign common and prehaps somethign extra she won't expect :D YEA! haha, but depends on my mood and time XP.

Random ThinGs

The world in all it's beauty,
The grace in all it's greenery,
I see the skies above,
I see the sands below.

I ponder,
Everythign is beautiful,
but why am I so empty?
why do I feel thing blankness...

Every one tells me there's some one to fill,
I have found that some one but He has not filled..
I am getting hungry,
starting to starve,
I'm so busy it's unbelievable!

Why is everythign so wonderful?
But why can't I rid of this emptiness?
am I not spiritual enough?
I go to church, I do,
I try to feel it all,
But I can't, but why?

Every night I cry in my room,
in my heart I do,
keeping my face up I say to myself,
Tomorrow will be better.

Tomorrow comes,
but all I see is sorrow,
Why is this like this?
why is everything so green,
and yet I am so bleak.

FaItH

Faith is but a word,
one can say,
but who has faith?

I have faith,
but what is faith,
but somethign we just believe?
even if we do not see?

Faith is a word,
Faith is acquired,
Faith is something you do,
Faith is needed,
but just as a small mustard seed it is,

so shall it bring forth much greatness in life,
without faith you cannot,
but with faith you shall see,
The emptiness disapear,
the feeling of unworthiness vanish.

For Faith comes by hearing,
and you have heard this poem,
Faith is an action,
Faith is not passive,
but infact it is massive!

it may look so small,
but it shall grow tall!
with some watering and nuturing,
so shall it grow!

Hwo?how? Many have asked,
But non have seeked.
How how? Many have asked,
but non have said let's apply.

Pray and pray,
but what do you pray?
do not pray as if it were a ritual,
but pray as if it were spiritual.

Do not pray as if it was religious,
but pray as if you were talking,
to love Himself,
Lean on Him and find his heart.

seek His kingdom,
and His kingdom shall come,
Seek first the Kingdom of God,
And all shall be added,
for as light grows a plant,
so shall relationship grow your heart.

Empty as you are now,
knwo that all you have to do,
is seek Him,
in His kingdom,
and you shall be satisfied.

Thanks

Thanks all! for reading again, I hope you have been blessed!

God bless!
"Salvation is near, all you need to do is seek it and you shall find it"- Tan Kok Jeong

-Chris

Pondering

Well.. I have no idea who reads this blog.. but heck I'll continue with whatever Haha. Well I was pondering just now, it's amazing how love works, yet no one really knows love... Some times I hear people who are blind as a bat falling into the same trap of false love. But they don't believe you coz thier desire burning in thier hearts won't let them believe.. and so they fall, then they finally agree with me..

But that's not the case some times... prehaps the burning desire of love is the desire to search for some one who will fill that void, and no one seems to fit that void of burning desire, until you meet God, yea yea, people say Hey u knwo what I dun believe in God, so they search more n more... getting cheaper stuff, but never satisfying that burning desire.. for acceptance and love.

Sigh, I guess not every one will believe in God, which makes me sad... Not every one believes in Christ the saviour.. which sadness me more, coz I wish to see everyone have that desire burnign void in thier heart settled and put at peace.. well I guess I'll help as many as I can, but for those who don't want to be helped, I cannot force.

Love is but somethign of worth.. and is part of God's nature, His wrath is not His nature, but the response HE has for sin. Thats why Christ had to suffer.. Oh well...

some one close to me shared about some crush they had, it's nto love for sure, at first I mistakened it for a baby :P but then I dunno Haha. My friend likes one of them yet I am nto sure which one. But hey a relationship is something unique and wonderful, I wouldn't trade the experience I have had for anything myself. Coz even tho it hurt so bad in the past, It has definatly moulded me. Take a good look at love, and why I talk about it.

random thing

THe wonders of the world,
The riches and the girls,
everythign is owned,
and anything I have.

But one thing I seek,
one thing I want,
is love.

Everyday I seek,
but no girl nor riches can satisfy,
some one once told me,
u can be a sucess and a utter failure at once.

fail I have not,
but love is empty,
one day I shall find,
one that puts thier bruning desire,
of love and voidness out.

even when I walk down valleys,
all I see is darkness,
btu some say there is a light,
yet I have not found.

I am lost,
confused with no ending,
who can satsify me?
who has the key?
Be with me now.

Love

A wonder of love,
a touch of love,
God is love.
Search and listen,
Many have told.

But few have listened,
open your eyes,
for the light is not far,
come out of your darkness,
and exprience a world of true love,
Understand and prevail.

For there is but one love that can end the endless void,
one love that fits you,
and that love is reachable for now.
Take the hand of Christ,
and be satisfied.

Thanks

God bless you all,
-Chris