Roller coaster

recently if u read my blog is like a roller coaster ride, up n down :) but I'm Glad God's not like a roller coaster hehe :) constant! anywayz, what has been happening eh? ok I crashed into ET's house on Monday wakakka... pretty fun, actually the plan was just to buy some stuff for Kaylee then we ended up shopping a bit more... after that we went to eat, and Alicia invited ET along :D... from there we had Malta n all :D haha awesome! after that went to ET's hous en took loads of photos, His camera is awesome haha let's see if I can post some here...
(all photos under ET copyright? haha)

Group photos awesome xD

me.. sad coz I dunno how to play the guitar xD

Alicia and Kaylee.. what are they doing:P

Alright.. so that was monday.. then later on the week thursday we went to SEE eye on Malaysia! YEAP IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo... Plain Hahaha... I was expecting something bigger but nothing that specail.. bleh at least I was on it while it's still around.. here's more pics on that night also ET copywrited I think :P

Grouppie.. WI as kinda unprepared btu still looks gd!

Group photo xD

There's more.. but lostsouls kinda cacat at the moment xD .. so yea will upload in this mpost :)

God bless
-Chris

=)

eh... feeling better now haha =)... it seems selfishness took over me yesterday Wakakkaa... which is bad =/... is actually lots of ppl who have come to get to know me personally have drifted a far.. apart from a few, I guess those few are what makes things special eh :)... ah well, God's love is truly amazing.. and not understable... is this what we call grace? undeserved favor :)

well thats all for today

God bless
-Chris

=_(

I'm feeling so sad... each and everyday.. I know it's passing.. and SAP is drawing nearer... I'm gonna miss all my friends... I wish u all the best if I do not see u in the future... I really appreciate each and everyone of you... The battle is coming down on me.,. and I can't seem to fight..

I wanna cry so bad... until there's nothing left in my body to cry out... I feel.. so lonesome... abandoned... I feel all that is left is me n God..

When I was younger.. many people told me there was no such things as friends... they will all turn against u some how... so far nothing like that has happened... yet.. I feel I am losing them all at once.. Jerm.. my relationship with him has deteriorated .... Sulee... gone to penang,... and not much chatting on msn... Alicia... just.. feel like she doesn't want to talk to me.. or I am too boring for her... Alex... Alex chui still ok... Alex Tee... dunno.... Karen.. oh Karen... what happened... why isn't she around any more.... William.. pretty busy most of the time... bbc... never was really close to him... Florence... I can't say much.. coz she's there when I am in trouble.. but not when I am lonely.. or dunno.. whatever I am feeling now.. self pity is a dangerous tool... but what happens when u feel like everyone you ever got close to is drawing far away... THIS always happens... u get close.. and u will always fall away... oh brothers and sisters... are u still around... oh God... am I meant to be just one man in this world?... I cannot do it alone.. I need companions.. Lord... you never once called any man to be alone... I'm sure of it...

ET...I dun really know him that well, but I'm glad I can chat to him at times.. :) I really thank God I met him... I am just a boring guy... u can ask people who know me... I feel I have ran form colour to black n white... I am nothing but a burden.. or nothing but a tool of entertainment... who can really say that I have colour in me? who can truly hang out with me one on one and not be bored?... ok ASHLEY :D... thats probably it.. oh Lord...and you... Lord...

I wanna cry till I am dry,
I feel like the sun is making me fry,
The sound of deaths trumpets are dull...
I feel nothing but pain,
I have run dull and my colours are running out,
who can say they know me?
only one or two..
who can say I am really a nice guy to hang out with?
no one... I feel like a leaf in the wind,
that russels on and blows up like a puff..

Yet Lord, Your hands still covers me,
You still accept me,
Your love is so great.. and you are the only one who has not forsaken me,
your love is truly great..
what have I done to deserve this?
nothing Lord nothing... only that you died for me,
on the cross ur hands were pierced in my faults..
you were slashed, coz of my health..
you hung there knowing you could call an army of angels down,
yet you hung there...
Oh humans are so evil, and you are so righteous,
how much I do not deserve this!
I just wanna cry Lord...
lend me your shoulder...

Tagged!

grrrr ET WHY U... haha oh well... since I have been tagged.... here goes:

Food You Hate :
hmm.. I hate... tries to think......................SEA CUCUMBERS yay got one =P

Fruits You Hate :
Fruits I hate? ISIT POSSIBLE?! oh wait it is... dragon fruit.. the white one =/ yucks

Veggies You Hate :
Veggies... all are awesome, but then again I said sea cucumber ealrier :P

Celebrities or People That You Hate :
people I hate?.... non I know at the moment.. all have become mutual friends

Event/Incident/Situation That You hate :
break up of course Lol

TV Shows or Movies that you hate :
none really... maybe the hulk? but that was just boring.. nto really hate Lol.. or IT? it the evil clown always had night mares when I was young after watching..s cared of bloody evil clowns

Type of Musics that you hate :
hmmm non in particular.. but I'd prefer not to listen to death metal

Household chore that you hate :
me... hate.... throwing out girls trash... whom have hit that stage of life (you know what I mean?) yucks..

Things you hate bout the world :
hmmm... executions... due to belief...

Things that you hate bout yourself :
hmmm being angry at myself for no reason? LOL

now I wanna tag Alexander! Sulee! Katrina! :D and ALICIA wahahhaa

Right or left?

Heya all... yeap I'm back, recently depressed sorta.. well not sure haha! but hey I want to say God is good, and He is always faithful, surrounding us with caring friends, well if u feel like u dun have some, :P like I did look again, and you will see u have at least one :).

Now I am stuck here.. with a contract next to me.. to sign or not to sign,.. I wonder my Lord God is this the way to head? hmm... tonight I will ask my mum I think for her wisdom.. yet I just realized in my previous post I prayed already that this company will absorb us.. and it's happening.. now is this an answer form God? or is it just a... hindrance from the devil.. stuck in the mud! woo.. I shall ask tmr if I can have a week to think about it.. if not I will most probably go for it.. ahh God guide me.. give me peace hehe...

oo man I always thank God for my care grp leader.. even tho I did want to discuss about the care group.. it ended up in a discussion on what I wanted to ask her Long ago! man such a simple answer, which I DONT believe I didn't do! ASK GOD, haha how much more simple can it get? hehe.. so I shall ask Him later :D, ain't it great that we have a Father who will listen 24/7 and answer :) I know My Father in Heaven LIVES :D

God bless ya all!
Chris in Christ,

Hungry

oh Lord.. how I hunger for you.. yet why are things bothering me? I pray that this SAP course will be a sucess and I will be absorbed into this company.. but I pray I may grow abit mroe in RLC before being sent out, yet I am ready to rely on you whenever you feel it's time for me to head into the world.

Today my dad gave advice to, a brother in choir.. and he said have children earlier better, look at me, then he pointed at me... man.. am I that much of a curse?... or am I just a burden.. I dunno.. prehaps I try to hard to speak to my Earthly Dad... I was so hurt when he poitned that statement out.. but now thinking about it.. how much earlier could he of had me..? I know My God you have planned me to be here today, for if I were not then at this time, then things between me and you would be different... no matter what I know God's faithful n beside me... yet the hurt turned my mood of worship to super down mode.. I'm sorry Father God in heaven.. my worship was not as gd today... but I am glad you still choose to listen and dance with me at the end...

everything is coming at once Father God.. I dunno how much longer I can take this.. yet you make it ok in the end.. you always hold me back up... I wonder what would happen if I didn't have Jesus in my life.. sigh,... people ask me what is wrong.. and my eyes tear up.. yet I held it back and said nothing.. oh God... am I leader of yours?... is this why the devil is attacking?... oh Lord protect pastors of this world.. whom go through even worst persecutions form the devil roaring.. but I am glad their in you and that they are protected by your rod and staff... Lord... protect my care grp leader Florence.. she seems busy now a days.. and I want her to talk to me and communicate... coz I too am her intern.. I need her to work with me Lord.. I want your sheep to have the best... Lord oh Lord use me... protect each and every one of those sheep... ah.. Father God.. your mercies are new every morning...

I stand,... in your presence... stripped with all my faults uncovered, in the Light, yet.. I do not fear so much of what will happen to me, because your blood has covered me and clothed me in white robes... I stand innocently coz Christ died innocently for me... oh Father God.. I know you are near now... coz I feel your hand of comfort... change me... I'm no mistake this I know... coz you made me...

-Chris(message to God)

Hmm.. my fasting seems to be burdening others I think... though if it wa sjust a normal outing to steven's corner I wouldn't mind burderning the others :P coz I would have cheese nan, but it wasn't.. it was a outing to klang, some where, people don't normally get to go to eat things, and what do they end up eating? vegetarian? Lol... yet klang is mroe fmaous for seafood / buk ku teh! aih... I shouldn't of gone, even Ben's stomach is upset, till today >.<, and Michelle didn't really enjoy it. nothing but a burden... yet hey must move forward the past is the past, and there is nothing I can do to change it! move on, ahead, to my greater calling my higher calling in God! :D...

yet this fasting.. I have been praying.. and I praise God prayers have been answered.. yet I feel like I have some sort of block between u and me God.. :(.. dunno why, I wanna feel closer yet I dun feel Your presence as I used to... tho, prehaps.. is just Your presence around me God? is it... that your that close.. yet I can't feel you.. I know I shouldn't rely on feelings... sigh... I can't hear you, why?... is this all part of the cleaning processes Lord?... I will finish this fast, coz I started it, and I see improvements in my self control.. Lord.. answer me please :(.. I miss your voice... and your touch..

any wayz, thats all for today, perhaps tomorrow will bring up a super testimony eh?... oh btw, my internet hasn't been working thats why no post dudes and dudets! so whenever my next post is till then Adios!

Fast n prayer

so today is my 6th day and as usual, i got lot of ppl saying stop to me xD, but I'm still going on with it... so first week fo my fast is dedicated to Cambodia trip, and also the surgery of a friend's friend... next is gonna be for the merdeka thing, and of course Malaysia in a whole. I pray that God will guid me in giving me ideas, on evangelist events.. that Alex actually is planning, also dedicate this fast to that, and above all else, I wanna come to get to know my Father God more :).

Dun worry, dudes and dudets that are reading this, no need to fast to get to know God intimatly.. there's just some stuff I want to shurg off my back.. dats all ^^

Alright thats all for nwo, God belss ya all

And rmember no matter what, if u don't believe or whatever, Jesus <3's ya!

Story as promised

The kings only son

A whole nation bound to slavery... many have tried to help this nation, but all have failed.. week after week were they tortured and made to work sleepless nights... Whilst the king of the nation has tried his best to free the slaves. The captors of the nations people refused to let them go. They said, even your head is worthless to us! As time carried on the nation was thrown into disarray... not even worthy of being called of a nation anymore.. the king grew weary and wanted a way to redeem his country, yet nothing could be done.

Then one night... there was a huge celebration, joy filled the hearts of the nation, even though they were slaves to evil captors... a Son was born, and a great gift he was, as this was the one and only child of the king's, after many failed attempts... As the son grew up He went around encouraging people and spreading love and joy in the hearts of many.. even to the slave masters, and soon enough he gained favor even in the eyes of the salve drivers... production started to drop, and people were starting to have ordinary lives... nothing could be better... As time passed even the 70% of the captors loved to listen to this child speak words of encouragement in the hearts of many... yet the rulers of the city of Gillareth, whom were the captors, had realized that this is a bad sign, and that they would have to get rid of the boy as soon as possible, or else their nation will be converted and might even retaliate and cause a civil war... so the rulers of the city stepped on cautiously as they did not want any troubel form their own nation...

slowly they spreaded rumors about the King's son, to try to make a bad name for him, but even that tactic did not work... eventually they came up with the ultimate deal for the King, they said to the king, “ If you would have your son, handed over to us we shall set your nation and allies free from our clench” The king struggled and thought about it over and over... his retainers told him and advised him, not to agree, for this would be a foolish thing to do, they also told him that their allies did not deserve such a deal, for the allies had not helped in any way but cursed them and spat at them for being so useless... the King did not know what to do... for he loved his nation so dearly and his allies he appreciated for the help they have provided. At the end of the day he asked his son, “son I have a deal to set all these people free from the bonds of this evil nation but it requires you to be handed over to them”

The son replied,”Father, if it will make you happy to see this whole nation and this whole land and it's allies set free, I shall do it”

Filled with tears the king embraced his son tightly,”Good bye son.. I wish you all the best”,

then the king wrote back to the city rulers of Gillareth, “I shall do it, and you shall keep your promise!”

Then it was so.. that the kings son was handed over to the rulers of Gillareth, and news was spread around the whole nation of this doing... many thought how cruel was the king that he was to give his son away to these evil people.. others cried, as they saw how much they did not deserve the freedom through ones death.. especially through the king's only son's death.. For they knew that this nations intention was to kill the son. And so it was the son was beheaded... and the nation of Gillareth kept their promise and released the land and it's allies.. However the rulers doing of killing the son was their undoing.. and soon after their nation became weak and feeble only able to use their history to cause fear, and for those who did fall prey to their roaring, they consumed. But many stood strong and heard of what this king did. The City of Gillareth was now nothing but a lion which had been defanged.

John 3:16
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

A famous verse.. and this is exactly how this story relates... we were not God's people, we were sinners and bound to sin as slaves... and there was no where for us, we even were enemies of Him... or allies, but never in his nation, for his chosen ones were the Jews, so if you are a Jew God had chosen you first! Yet through much pains and suffering God gave us His only son, do die for us... so that we might all be redeemed! Jesus Christ died for us, even when we were still spitting in his face... cursing him, or moreover sinning!

Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Yes... we are defiantly not worthy of such a death of a righteous and blameless man, yet for us, Jesus still choose to die. He exchanged places with us in this world of sin. So that we might be set free, then after that resurrected and justified us, by taking the keys of death and hades away!

Revelation 1:18
I am the Living One; I was dead, and behold I am alive for ever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades.

This is God's grace to us, and this grace was given freely for each and everyone of us, it is given as a gift!

Romans 6:23 23For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

And just by accepting the gift, we are able to stand in front of the defanged lion and proclaim that Christ's death has brought us victory!, and also be sure that God will not let you fail!

Philippians 1:6

6being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Proverbs 21:31
The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but victory rests with the LORD.

1 John 5:4
for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith.

1 Corinthians 15:57
But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

So stand assured bretherns and sisters Victory is by our side, coz God is with us never against us again! Even death has lost, coz of what Christ has done for us! Stand strong in your victorious battle! :)

1 Corinthians 15:55
"Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?"

God bless ya all,

Chris ::No matter how tough the battle seems, keep on fighting with the conviction that you have won::

God is good!

Well 3rd day on my fasting period, and I'm feeling great! wonder if this is how Daniel felt? ha ha anyway, I really praise God for what He has done! you know in the past seeing all these people pass away.. it really deteriorated my belief in God's healing ability, yet God is faithful, and today some one with a 5% chance of survival in surgery survived! Wohoo, Like I said, the Holy Spirit is the ultimate operator xD . Some times I wonder what people say, I know God is faithful.. does that mean.. they didn't pray for my other requests? or was God not faithful in those prayer requests? ha ha, I doubt so, I reckon God, for one, did answer a prayer o mine, by takign a lil boy to heaven, since he was going through so much pain.. and suffering, another I have no idea.. I hope he is with Christ .... Any wayz, back to God is good, all de time xD. I have actually been sending out an email to some one in USA (won't mention name xD but you know who you are if you read my blog) and I have been praying for her salvation.. well not everyday, then now she has accepted Christ as he Lord and Saviour, I am over joyed! is not me who converted her, more work is credited to her boyfriend :) but all glory to God :)... Now I am glad, and will continue sending out the scriptures to her, I hope that she will always be strong in the Lord no matter what happens! I hope she knows that God's relationship with her is also personal, and not impersonal, so anythign between her n God has nothing to do with everyone else xD! I'd also liek to praise God for His awesome guardian angels! the other day I ran out on a road, and didn't realise a car was heading towards me, then I jumped back wards right after.. my Dad of course was there and scolded me haha, either u run or you stop! I was like =/ no answer Ha ha.. if I stop I woulda died =/, praise God for having me safe.. another was when I dropped Serene home, I went back home and I was so tired.. I didn't realize my driving skills were so lousy, and yet I didnt crash, ppl stopped for me, honed me of course, but still no damage! praise God! He is faithful to my prayer since I prayed in learning school :).... ok, I know.. it seems overwhelming but I have one more! Haha
the other day I was dropping a drunk ken home(scary) :S(sorry ken it was!) then when I dropped him home I had to go through a police check... then the police just told me to drive of, I was kinda confused coz normally they would check your tax n all, then... I got home, and realised I was driving without my license all this time! :O.. I believe is God's divine protection... esp in keeping me safe! obviously God doesn't allow us to go do all wrong doings, but He sure does protect us well :) I'm so secure!

Confidence! Must have more confidence, I think this fasting is bringing my confidence in God higher and higher! is just amazing! PRAISE GOD!

Ahh I'll write a story another time guys! Jesus Loves ya all, no matter if you hate him or not =) God bless ya all!

-Chris over n out

Cutting down

Mark9:43,45

43If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life maimed than with two hands to go into hell, where the fire never goes out. 45And if your foot causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter life crippled than to have two feet and be thrown into hell.

You know some times I wondered if Jesus meant it literally or not =/... but this is how I interpret it... sacrifice, to sacrifice something you love doing, but you know that it is against everything God stands for.. So this is the stage where I need to cut it out.... this thing out rather than go to hell with it... Not that I am gonna go to hell... but hey since theres a risk do it aye? so what if I fail... hmm that is a very hard thing to say... God's gracious.. and I'll stay in His grace, as I need to... I read yesterday about sin that leads to eternal death.. dunno about that either yet.. it says if we come to God and ask from him and he hears it and accepts it, then we know God will answer our prayers.. so.. that was the verse before...

so... all this gets pretty into depth esp when I read Corinthians.. it all seems real heavy warnings against me...
God is gracious still... and patient... just as Love is slow to anger.. so is God... I know He knows my heart.. some how, don't ask me how!

Alright... thats all form me God bless!
-Chris

How....?

some times.. I wonder if it is possible for any of us to over rule the blood of Jesus and over sin... but some how it's impossible... and I find it incredible how God is able to make such a decision to send His son, to die for us... even when he knows we are so evil...

But then.. could some one who continues disobeying God be a leader?... or even a teacher... still love God? can God be in them....? But what if this leader loved God.. and knew he had no more salvation, but because he knows God wants people in his kingdom... he goes out n brings them in... is that possible? aihs.. I dunno..

hwo can darkness and light dwell in the same place.. one must leave for the other to take its place.. but can one come back? hmm guess it could.. since is like the sun.. when it sets the darkness takes over when it rises the light comes.. oh well thats all I am pondering baout at the mo