The verdict is...

Well SAP wins the court case... Ha ha, man though I feel that my passion is in the animation grounds, is not the will of God, though if I did choose animation course I know God's not gonna abandon me and say YOU DID NOT CHOOSE THE WAY I SAID TO GO NOW I WILL LEAVE YOU! nahh this isn't the God I know, but some how in my gut feeling I knew God had already told me to go to SAP. So what am I gonna do, go into SAP tmr.. meeting up with a guy who is enabling this course to happen, is on sat n sundays! oh wow.. no more sunday service for me, but youth I can still make it so dun worry guys :P(or at least I hope I can hahaha) is a 8 week course if I am not mistaken, but ever bit should be worth it at the end... as for my animation dreams, they'll have to wait, I'm sure one day God shall open a path for me to go into such a field, but till then, stay put and continue drawing as a leisure lei sure? yeap Lol... I might go into part time course in animation just to see how it goes, but I heard assignments are taxxing.. and not sure if I will be able to handle, but hey, why not be the jack of all trades.. Wahahha.. ok the jack of all trades is a bad thing :P nvm, will see if my prophecy from Pastor vernon will come about... like how I become mega good at something.. train some one to be as good as me, then move on! hey sounds gd, the company gets some one as good as me, I make sure the company survives, then move on wahhaha.. will see :) !

As for my passion, at the mo I have an amazing story I want to make up, it's from the previous story that I have written about the unity thing.. but thats the end fight scene, is gonna be a mix in... good and evil, 2 sides to the story with the same ending, and beginning ... had some views on it, people think is k(by people I mean 2 Hahaha) 1 has heard the whole thing coz he cant see it, coz he is in Aussie! (Mat that's you if your reading..). pure action packed, would be fun to see this in animation maybe one day Plex can do it Whahaa ah well! having trouble with 2 characters, basically.. a naked person,(female, how to conceal n all [btw mat gave a great tip in covering with scenery] will see when I start drawing) another is the creator =/ toughest one =/=/....

story isn't completely completed, still some bits I am thinking of adding.. right now it';s in black& white... any one who wants to know more about it, msg me aite? if you can meet up with me I'll show you the story board, then u can chuck in your bits of ideas... then with all your ideas pumped in(gonna let u see basics not ppl's ideas, so I can combine together and you wont know what the final product looks like till later :P

Stuck in a mix

ah yes.. I'm kinda stuck in decision making.. that will change the rest of my life.. sorta sounds serious doesn't it? well it is kinda... I'm stuck htinking should I go into SAP which I supposingly thought God wanted me to get into, or follow a passion, which God also has spoken on before... I have always had an interest in animation 3d modelling and 2d animation... since, my com science degree... coz we touched abit on animation... and I feel like I have much interesst in it... then again I thought to myself whatrs all the com science 3 years put in for then? ... sigh I'm wondering.. coz I dont really even have a passion for programming.. reason why I did augmented reality for my project. coz it was animation based.... but now look... I'm back on programming and not liking one bit of it... I dont mind programming or scripting to be more precise on director, didnt learn flash so wouldn't know... so if animation has scripting I'm all ups for it... so the decision boils down to... go SAP get a job I might not even like working in... OR go for the course I am passionate about and get a job that I know I will enjoy...

I asked around people say follow passion, some experienced choosing the job they dont like and regretted it, another said ask God, but whichever path you choose at the end God's with me... which is encouraging.... Multimedia(which I thought was animation as well) was actually mroe onto things liek editing videos n all, which isn't really my type of thing! hank God for friends who are in different feilds! and found out the one I liked was actually animation! so my friend william, who used to study animation before havign to join the NS said it was FUN, well to him. which I think I might enjoy too.. but he said best to go research(byu that he means ask colleges) he suggested one academy since thats the one he was in before. Which I will go n do soon I think, and then Alex said SAE is a good one, I read thier diploma->degree seems quite good, nto read thourghly yet tho... will do tommorrow... I was htinkign oh no SAP is gonna be at 4th July, but people said, it can wait, make ur decision first.. which I can see is very important at this time, coz SAP courses will re appear... this isn't a life threatening decision, but it is a life changing one...

oh Lord.. help me n guide me to the right direction...
God bless ya all

-Chris is stuck at a cross road.

The power of one

As the raiders rushed through the forest, leaving destruction in thier paths, a village lay ahead... people panicked and rushed about as they heard that a group of bandit raiders were heading their way, they had no idea where to head and had zero security, every mintue was like a count down to death. As the raiders approached the town, they saw the chaos it was in and sat and watched in amusement. hours later the whole town was in a wreck and people had fled away... the raiders simply walked in and took everything that they saw fit.

Later at night the raiders planned another ambush.. on a smaller town named, Solorial... This town was famous for the amount of raw materials they had... the raiders discussed amoungst themseleves how they may come about in stealing what they want.

"Let's run head in like we always do!" Shouted one of the raiders

"No don't be foolish, this town is bound to be secured with many gaurds we need to sneak through." the cheiften said.

they all agreed on sending a scout into the town, the scout came back with reports that no gaurds were in place that very day... as they plotted thier attack, the raiders decided to send a small group to terrorise the city at noon.

Noon arrived and the raiders arrived swinging thier maces in the air and screaming, fear struck the townsfolk and they fled into the townshall, all scared they bundled up together and asked the counsellor what they should do.

"ok everyone let's relax... I'm sure we can sort this out some how... why do these raiders want to come to our town?" said the counsellor.

"STUPID QUESTION, they want our gold and raw materials of course!" a peasent shouted.

"Let's try to remember what we have always said to one another, stand united, stand together... show kindess to terror and terror shall flee! come with me all of you, do not let fear control your hearts! each one of your grab a buckler and a wooden stick, we will go out and stand united as one!"

meanwhile the raiders laughted as they thought thier plan worked, then the rest of the raiders rushed in to celebrate and take the booty. but just as they were about to celebrate. they heard war drums playing and a huge army of people rising against them... the raiders shouted and screamed

"WE SHALL NOT FEAR YOU FOOLS! WE SHALL DEVOUR YOU ALL!"

but the words had no effect on this army marching towards them, as the army approached the raiders started to get scared, readying for battle they drew out thier maces.... but as they got a clearer image of the army, they realised it was just the townsfolk, and laughed.

"You dare come against us? the imfamous Raiders of the wind? ha!?! you must be crazy!"

with straight faces the townsfolk marched infront of them,

"Flee now or prepare for battle, we shall not flee in the sight of such lions prowling... we fear you not and stand united... "The cheiften of the raiders stood up and said

"who is your leader! come and battle with me!" the counsellor stood up and said "Here I am!"

As the cheiften readied his weapon the counsellor stood completely still with a stick in his hands, the cheiften began the first strike, swinging his mace in the direction of the counsellor but the counsellor refused to move and just as the mace was about to hit him, he blocked it with the flimpsy stick he had. The cheiften was amazed at how such a flimpsy stick could withstand such a hit, again the cheiften swang his mace with full agression and again the mace was blocked by that one flimpsy stick... the battle carried out and the cheiften ran out of breath flat out on the floor... the counsellor walked towards him with the stick pointing towards his head.

"Noo don't kill me" Cried the cheiften.

"Who says I was going to kill you?" replied the counsellor.

"That stick it is enchanted, witch craft,... !!!!" shouted the cheiften as he tried to regather his strength.

"No it isn't, it's simply a stick... but with all of us standign here united even this stick can overcome you! it has the strength of hunderds of sticks" as the counsellour said this he grabbed the cheiftens hand and put him back up on his feet.

"I shall not kill you, but I shall forgive you, come wiht me and join me as I show you how a rightoues nation shall prosper. There is no need for killing nor for stealing, step into this path and I shall show you the wonders of this lighted path."

"I shall" replied the cheiften

"AND WHO SHALL JOIN ME!!!" shouted the cheiften in enthusiasm.

2/3 of his followers dropped thier weapons and joined, the other 1/3 replied by calling the cheiften weak and feable, but in fear ran for thier life.

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Your probally wondering.. Him Chris you usually write stories related ot Christ, but amazingly enough this is about Christ... How as our old nature we used to rush into the base of the Lord and think we can simply attack Him, not realising even wiht a puny stick He could defeat us all.

Proverbs 21:31The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but victory rests with the LORD.

Another part is standing united... As Christains we are all the church, each of us a building block and a part of the body of Christ, all of us are bound together, even though we have seperate giftings, we are still one together in the body of Christ.

Romans 12:4-5 4Just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5so in Christ we who are many form one body, and each member belongs to all the others.

last part is about a sinner accepting Christ wanting to take the rightoues path, in the way they saw the power of Christ come alive! and how some do not believe and reject, some flee coz they fear that thier weaknesses shall be shown, though clearly they don't need to coz simply we are weak.

Romans 5:17 One man sinned so death ruled all people because of one man. But now those people who accepts God's full grace of being made right with Him will surely have true life and rule through one man, Jesus Christ

1 Corinthians 15:57But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Thats all folks! Jesus loves ya all the way, when your in the worste oif situation call out to Him! EVEN IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN HIM! JEsus still loves you :)

-God bless,

Chris

Home sweet home

Got home back in malaysia yesterday at 7 am.... Wohoo... got here went straight ot eat siew ngap! MWahahhaa roast duck for those who can't understand my noobish chinese :P, Any wayz, continued on ate dinner.. couldn't eat much due to the duck not being digested, went straight to planet shakers concert.. and started to jump for da Lord! it was amazing, I am so glad I made it back on time to listen to a very powerfully filled message! Reveal Religious spirit! Give fragrance! Give generously! Wahhaha, and some I forgot... hmm crazy? dynamic Whahaha, I am on a rescue ship, and so are all my brothers, but who of you wanna go to da edge with me? :), God rocks amen? AMEN! YA BABY~~~ Wakakka....
but today I woke up with an acheing body Wahaha, but that didnt stop me from goign tochurch and bveing filled up with an amazing message and charged in the spirit, PLUNDER HELL POPULATE HEAVEN, PLUNDER HELL POPULATE HEAVEN! FIRE FIRE!! Whahaha, I am on fire Weeeee! God r is so awesome, wait awesome isn't good enough.. so I'm gonna make up a word, Superfudalistic! Yeap yeap That's my God! Beyond what words can experessssssssss!!1 Yahooooo, but not .com Hehe...
Everythign seems the same, besides so many people wanting to talk to me at once, got kinda hectic :S, but is ok, I was touched, just by how many people actually welcomed me back, sorry to those I didnt seem very kind to I did mean to be mor3e friendly and chat longer... but unfortunatly I only have one mouth... wait that could also be fortunatly, coz I have 2 ears! Heh, Wokies... I feel so inspired...
I really feel liek I Wanna run out into the world and drag people into God's kingdom, but I believe that SAP will eb the way that it will all happen, I dunno how, or why, I'm gonna walk the path that Christ sent me on, and heck the storms shall be brewing, but you know what! I'll walk on the water with the empowerment God's given me! as Jesus is in my boat!
God bless ya all!
-Chris is back in town

Haha this is cool! I got this from my dearest, and kraziest lil sis :P Wahaha ok shes only like a feew months younger but I still have the rights to call her lil XD here goes

C : You are really silly.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks.
R : Easy to fall in love with.
I : You are great in bed.
S : Fuckin crazy.
T : Easy to fall in love with.
O: Easy to fall in love with
P : You are popular with all types of people.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks.
E : awesome kisser
R : Easy to fall in love with.
Delete my name at the top, copy & paste and do it yourself using the letters of your first name.Try it yourself ……
A : You like to drink
B : You like people.
C : You are really silly.
D : You like to drink.
E : awesome kisser.
F : You are dead sexy.
G : You never let people tell you what to do.
H : You have a very good personality and good looks.
I : You are great in bed.
J : People Adore You
K : You’re wild and crazy.
L : You like to drink
M : best kisser ever.
N: You like to drink.
O: Easy to fall in love with
P : You are popular with all types of people.
Q : You are a hypocrite.
R : Easy to fall in love with.
S : Fuckin crazy.
T : Easy to fall in love with.
U : You really like to chill.
V : You are not judgemental.
W : You are very broad minded.
X : You like to drink
Y : Best g/f b/f anyone could ever ask for.
Z : Always ready


Wahhaha am I that easy to fall in love with? Lolx, I wonder...
Any way thats all for today, flying tmr :( :) Mixed emotions

God bless
-Chris

Time nearing

the time is coming where I will be returning to Malaysia.. in a sense I want to go back in another I wanna stay. Well here I have friends I never got to catch up with and made new ones, and the house isn't completely finished, I do hope I can do everything in 2 days.... :(. On the other hand I Wanna go back to church in malaysia... I miss lots of ppl, Jerm, William, Florence! yeah I've missed names., but thats only coz I chat to them online regually, dont know how to miss them :P Haha jking...

sigh... I don't know whats gonna happen in the future, I do hope that the sap course will be ready... if not I have to get a job first then squeeze it in... I'ms cared coz I havnt touched up my programming much recently, I will be touching up more and more as I am back in malaysia... lifes going on.. and I'[m gonna be entering another phase in life.. I hope to be a contented Christain I know I wont have all my collueges as friends though I do wish to.... prehaps if I be kind, and respectful, and earn my trust in them I will be loved?... I dunno, :) I hope Christ can spread witghin the office, you know... I really wish to go missionary some time.... liek dedicate a part of my klife to see people get saved.. n give time to people, who need Jesus... which is everyone basically...

I love all my friends... and my enemies too though it hurts me to see them hate me... but it's life I guess... I hope the best for everyone, and that through much of thier lievd they will come to know Christ, I am not perfect that is why I need Him....

Any waysz,,, Chris signing out!

5 days later

Well paintings basically all done, just need to fix a small part of a frame and thats it paint that upand it's all finished I guess..... still one room which is now in 60% completion, garden, which is back in a mess coz I did some prunning xD, and last but not least! carpet laying...

Well.. days been tough... and fun at the same time... In the bible studies I manage to speak out more and be more confident in speaking.... church basicallyhelps me to gain more knowledge on how things go... and daily devotion is excelent! I'm so glad church gave us the black book, reflection of his grace... been real fun recently finding out more and more about God, I am really glad to see some revival happenign in uk! oh man I just wanna praise God!

Well, lets get onto what I had in mind earlier this morning... I was thinking to myself, what about my Childern in the future.. hwo can I assure that they will be great followers of Christ and should I really get married seeing that I might not be able to please my wife =(... kinda sad statements really, coz it lead to me saying, trhen what purpose or dreams do I have left? if I cannot be what I dreamed of being. So my purpose in life stops there, but ont he other hand I still have a purpose to share the gospel... to share the goodness of Christ... I really wonder where God's bringing me, ah so many things... like jobs n all came to my mind too... I havn't looked for a job since my graduation in feb.,.. I wonder if I can still find one in my feild.. and how I might react in my job... I pray God will settle this in my mind, well.. like Philpians 4:6 says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." *sighs in relief*

Poetry/song/story

Oh, as I see the skies above... how the clouds in all it's love... covers up the sun.... I shall still, know that the sun is still shining, above all the clouds... and in everything I see..... as I look around, wondering, observing.. such wonderous things, such creaters, such wonderful things that the Lord has made, I wanna stand here, and praise the Lord, for all the wonderful things, He has put in my life. I know I am not perfect, this I know. But his perfect hands have made me whole, and I know that everything that happens, bad and good, it'll always be, that one day that my life, will be complete at the end of the goal...

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Thank you, for the wonderful things you've done, all the wonderful friends you've given... all the difficult friends you've given... thank you for the cross, thank you for your love and grace, thank you for my brothers and sisters, and most of all thank you for you!

Thanks

Thanks everyone, I cherish you as an important part of my life.. all those who hate me I also thaank you for being in my life... for you have helped me grow in my character and all, I know that the Lord loves you all dearly, despite if you believe or not.... I thank you Lord for my care group leader, whoms hand has been gentle on your sheep, even though she is not perfect in any human sense, but I know she is made perfect in you! I thank you for my care group members, whome I love regardlessly... some times they do annoy me but I thank you never the less for them, I also wanna thank them personally for all they have done.. adding nice sweet and bitter tastes into my life, making the cake of life taste a lot better! Thanks Florence, Jerm, William, Eric, Alex, Alicia, Michelle, min hui, and many more! that I havn't mentioned not all are from my care group... I wish that all of you read this... but I know only a few do... and I am really thankful for all of you. I wanted to tell all of you this and I always do. so that in life I shant have no regrets! Thank you God, thank you friends... thank you brothers and sister. =)

-God bless

-Chris

little things

Haha life's been great in uk I guess, got to do lots of painting still well just one mroe layer.. after that is done then it'ss be all cool, sherding and one room left after that :). oh yea and carpeting :( but hey it's allmost there :D:D:D.. can't wait, any howz, I was in bible study yesterday, and I noticed real smnall thing about what Jesus said, when he was speaking to nickodeamous(however u spell his name) and he used We told you blablabla... all we and it's amwazing how I never noticed that we in that text.. it's cool huh?

Life's been interessting... and God's been great I think revival is about to burst out! :) but people may not respond nicely to it all, but if they get saved, what's for them to lose? :) ah wellz, thats all for me today boyz n galz

God loves ya all regardless!

-Chris