Strike in the heart, the purpose of life

It has been a real busy time in Singapore, working late nights day after day... But some how God's been faithful, He's been good to me, and I can't say that He has left me in this stressful time, but in fact, He has held me, and is probably the only reason I am not flipping tables and have this strange sense of peace, amongst all my frustration... Few things have happened that aren't considered joyful to most, since my last post, but God is faithful!

Now today is actually the first day since being married going to church in Singapore, and though the message was very particle and about prosperity with a purpose (examples weren't amazing, but the just of the message was great!). I got a different hit of revelation, it hit my soul so hard I couldn't not feel somewhat convicted. It came to me from a new song from Mat Redman There is no one like our God. 

"Your Death has spoken life to us and every Accusation, all our condemnation silenced at the cross...." Suddenly something in me didn't say with an audible voice, but definately gave a knowing of this, hey! this is why we are here, remember? Christ died for all! all condemnation are silenced at the cross! Not to say all things are good, that we have a license to sin or anything. But more of here I am forgiven, for the things I have done in life, This is the love and forgiveness that Christ has thrown to us as an example, this is the forgiveness we should show others, as wrong as we think they are. Now it doesn't mean we love their wrong doings, but we love them as the person and forgive them for anything they do against us... A love that impacts, not one of just praying for someone, now I didn't say don't pray, I said not JUST praying for someone, it's the extension of your hand, and your act of kindness despite the hostility against all else. The real purpose, to love, to show who and what Christ is to His bride, the church. :)

Second thing that hit me was the Philippians 4:6 - Very stuck in my heart as I used to meditate on this a lot, Do not be anxious about anything but through prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  Normally the first half of this is stuck in my head, Do not be anxious about anything but through prayer. Then the thanksgiving then the request to God because frankly I didn't understand what it meant by petition, yet, somehow or another today, it made sense, with the help of pastor How's explanation it clicked... corporate prayer, which has answered that question in my head, why do we do this corporate prayer when we can do it at home? because this is the way you do it, instead of being anxious, as a group, as if signing a petition to a higher authority, instead of signing, it's that Amen, that togetherness in praying. Oh How great our God is! Unfailing, Beyond measure, Full of Grace, More than Enough, the Provider, The Peace, The Father, The Shepherd, The Banner, The life, The Word, The king above all kings, The creator, the ruler of All, Beyond all patience, love and virtue, HE is the purest of all! Hallelujah and all glory to Him forever and ever! Amen

Reflections

You know sometimes you think on days, and these are one of those days for myself. We try to be happy and keep a positive vibe in life, but we all know its' never going to be all ups and now downs, highs without lows. But I suppose that's what makes life beautiful, and gives us a reason to be able to give honour where honour is due, praise where praise is due, to be able to think of these things. I know as you read my blog, you will see a huge mix of emotions from the teenager version of myself 10 years or more ago, to a very "Christian" version of myself posting as much encouragement as possible. But I have no regrets on those posts, I am more than glad if even one person stumbles on this blog and finds encouragement. But because I am real, there's other things thrown into the mix.

Well, I've been in Singapore for almost 6 months now, the initial phase was hectic, I have always been longing to go home, but I know some how, this project was by God's grace, in order for the correct financial flow to come in for wedding preparations, with the ringgit weakening and the exchange rate increasing it was good money.  But my honest reflections were that my heart was low, as if covered in a black murky clouds, lonely, and yearning for friends.But Praise to God for helping sending colleagues down as well as a friend who helped show love. An act of Christ I would say, stretched out an arm and offered what I would say a cup of water. Thank you Pheobe :). However now I am being extended for another 6 months I don't feel too bad, but I don't feel great either. Perhaps its me missing my poiema family back in Malaysia.. Not that I am the most sociable, But I do miss others that have left. Rosy, is one those :).

As I continue to reflect on lives, I realise it's not the place you are put in, but the people who make the place what it is. I am thankful for the few but great friends I have, William, Alicia, Ash to name a few. I am also very intrigued by a few such as Esther and Melissa, but they will probably never know, but that doesn't matter because I will write it here none the less, I saw them when they were young, not so tall, till they grew to extremely beautiful women, both of which would hit very high numbers if guys were to rate them, but with the physical they too have an amazing heart and personality, something of which is a rarity in this world where people are always trying to find themselves. I wish that they will continue on this path of light, and that one day God will send some one extremely special to them, who will treat them with respect, honour and love! As well as other things. May God satisfy their souls.

I am so grateful for people, genuine friends, who stuck by my side, I enjoy their company. And so my life will change soon too. I will have another entering into unison with myself :). I am glad, I will rejoice, because I am certain this is God's blessing into my life. Thank you kaylee, my dearest, and closest to my heart. You have been with me a long time, and through that time we have stretched through things that have been both bad and good, but that's what makes our relationship so much more real than anything else, a huge part of my heart belongs to you, I hope we have more days ahead as we become one flesh, and leave our parents to make a new life in God. What an electrifying and amazing thing to expect. God is good :).

To all those who have read so far, and have been coming back to my blog now and again, I thank you for reading, May your life hold many blessings, many exciting things, many happiness and comfort in times of sorrow. Keep a smile on your face, God loves you, Jesus knocks on the door of your heart, it's all good!

Blessings!
Chris

The year of ... Well 2015

It's been ages since I last blogged, I guess the trend of blogging has been left in my past and the days when creative juices were shooting up in huge quantities.  But as time goes by, life takes you on a ride, and you become more aware of the things that happen around you and some what the eyes that are penetrating deep into your every move.

But I must say a lot has happened. In my life and all that is around me, I learned that money is important, but useless without a community, a friend, a group, a partner to share your life with. As such is the things we learn when we chase after careers then look around and find no one to share joy with.

But God is good.

He sends people to you, and reminds you of the joy and value of each person around you, the heightening of happiness bursting forth, just by meeting for but a short period of time. He sends colleagues to aid you from sinking into the deepest darkest hours. Sets joy in your heart even in the most depressing times which stretch you wide and thin... till you feel the tightness of stress surrounding you. Yet still you don't break, you may hurt, you may feel pressured, but you have joy, you have someone, a sense of stability, of which is our rock, The Christ.

I appreciate each and everyone I meet as I go along this journey of life. I want to bless you guys, encourage you, never to give up, always knowing that God is by your side, He has you on His right hand, He will provide a way even if it doesn't feel like a super happy and stress free life, but He makes it worth it. He will cover you so that the arrow by night does not destroy you, the flame in a cold shivering winter, and the light in the darkest moments. This is our God, El Shaddai, The great I AM, creator and Father of us all.

So Sing Alle-lu-ia. Coz God's got your back. and He'll love you, after all, He did it all for us.

Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Many blessings and love to you who are reading this.
-Chris