Can't sleep:(

For some reason I can't get to bed tonight.. sigh... i miss my dear Kherlit =(... I dunno how she feel abt me in her heart sometimes.. but I am believing for the best... I feel sometimes a cold shoulder.. but i guess that's what we call stress and the person that u think cares most abt u can't help u haha... ah well..

Oh well... I love my dear =>

God loves me & her,

I am really thankful for that!

God bless,
-Chris

o.o

Well.. long time no post, I'm kinda sad at some point... lol! I'm actually becoming broke.. hmm my financial planning is getting worse this month.. I didn't know in bbq's we were required to chip in.. haha if knew would have chipped in on that month.. now this month.. add on to the burdern.. haha oh well God will provide right? =)...

I broke my promise to my Father in heaven the other day.. But I thank God for bros in Christ reminds me that my favour with God is not through my promises with Him.. The most perfect law in this world was the 10 commandments and who could fulfill it? only Christ... I believe we shouldn't really promise God anything... I'm not saying it's not a good thing by promising God something.. but if you know u can't do it don't promise I guess.. sigh.. but I thank God Jesus died on the cross.. like Peter... promise Christ he wouldn't deny him and ended up doing it... did God's favour leave him? I believe not.. in fact he was even stronger in grace after that.. I really can truly say I do not deserve any of Christ works... what He did for me is way beyond my worth.. and I really thank God... this is the grace.. His love.. that He gave His only son.. grace.. is truly undeserved favour..

So in life need to realise something.. no one is perfect.. God is always there ready for you.. Stop in life... take a deep breath and thank God for wat He has done...

*Father God... forgive me for what I did... I don't want to try anymore.. I don't wanna fight with my strength, I am weak... pathetic.. Be my Strength oh Lord... be my strength..*

God bless ya all,
-Chris

updates

Well, whats been up eh? recently just trying to change what I learned into PPT in workplace as well as find more things to do or my progress report is just going to stop =/... As well as that doing a kind of small medium project of my own for my dear~ she doesn't know what it is yet... and nor will u readers haha! =p

So... weekend arrived, Friday was with kherlit and her mum... went to the colbie caillate concert thing... everything was doen by hitz fm haha... was raining real heavy and we were running late... then on the way there.. there was a huge jam(typical) haha everyone was kind of in a hurry to get there. well not everyone just some one =p... so we arrived got a nice parking space.. and then headed upstairs to the concert area.. and guess what.. Colbie hasn't even come out and sing yet haha she came out like 9pm? or was it 9:30? and sang like.. 4 songs haha... but no Oxygen the one my dear really wanted to hear.. ah well at least she got to see her =).

Next Day youth.. I didn't really feel too good during the worship lol in my head I kept on thinking abt people jumping for some reason I couldn't help thinkign why do adults get so hyper and why youth are not... maybe should give them a sugar boost.. ah well figures it all starts with us.. we arn't really to be lazy.. should just jump.. shove away the fear and scream to God coz He is truly really that awesome... haha I guess some of us wil always forget the fist time God touched our lives... We lose focus on GOd and start trying to look for new things or at new things to satisfy our hunger... but then we get even more hungry... ahhh that''s coz the other food is an illusion.. hehe ah well... besides that.. later on headed to makan... ate lots n lots... A new friend managed to whack me to take revenge of another friend I accidentally hit due to my stretching.. I did say sorry... it was totally unintentional. Oh yea! I forgot the real reason for.. the outing on sat was... Vell's Birthday! hehe he has an ipod shuffle silver colour... now very nice ^_^! I hope he enjoyed himself =)... lots of cake smashing experience..

(I miss out a lot in my posts so forgive me for all of u who still have a lot in ur mind :p)

SO Sunday arrived.. I went to church~ message was awesomer than sat for some reason... and then Prayer after that.. prayer was just amazing the worship during prayer was... so strong... I could feel God's presence really strongly... Florence choose the right songs I think... was amazing..~ God's really gifted her ^^. Then after prayer I felt good :). The rest headed off to swim and eat, whilst I picked up my dear =)... I didn't eat anything from morning till afternoon, but I was suprized I wasn't too grouchy at the time... but there was a point where I thought I did somethign wrong.. coz my dear was so unhappy... I just couldn't click on it... ah at the end of it all.. I dropped her home with me feeling a lil uneasy I drove home and waited for dinner and spent some time with my mum... I did talk to my dear later =) I believe there is no point trying to get into a fight so I tried my best not to use defensive words.. even tho at times I wanted to... I knew they wouldn't help so I wrote what was in my heart.. deep down away from the defensive aggressive crap that was nothing but foolishness... =) I'm glad I found out what was on her mind... well sorta any way.. then I tried spending some time with my mum too =) didn't knwo she learnt the piano before.. haha now she wants to learn the organ... ah well good for her :) always need to learn new stuff in life....

Well thats all for now folks

God bless ya all~

-CHris

The Tie clip

Man today has been a long and exciting day... =) but lets start off with hmm... friday? so friday care group as usual, but with some one special n new in it! My dear Kherlit! I really hope she enjoyed the care group.. hehe it's really great that she came and I'm really glad =). amongst other things got to talk to my dear dear a lot more than last time =) enjoy time with her really, very much hehe...

So fast forward to Saturday... Youth.. AMAZING great worship.. best I had since... I was just really immersed in God's amazing anointing and presence.. I was just having a time of my life on stage.. and i could feel the strength of God in the place.. at first I thought no one can feel but when it hit me I said, yes Lord Everyone can feel :). Ths weeks youth was awesome.. pastor preached on how we are Abraham's seed, meaning we have the inheritance of Abraham, but even better coz Christ died for us! =).. also about how we shouldn't let our anxiety show,... just give it to God, =) coz the devil ain't gonna know what your thinking hehe those were the main points...

Then night time just spend time with my Dear Dear... oh how I love her ==) So Glad she's a child of God.. and God is blessing her too! =).

So Sunday.. which is today! I went to church as usual... this time served in praise team and also went for Holy communion, haha todays songs were new @_@ I couldn't get the hang of it at all, oh well, but spirit filled never the less ~ most importantly, is not performance, like pastor said, relax.. and the anointing will be even greater =). Which is true I believe. so... After service went to prince cafe ate some stir fried Spaghetti(first time) and also, some salted egg fried rice(very nice, one of my dears suggestion) After that.. headed back to my dears place to play some games with her..(she happily smacking my hand as hard as possible of course) then played other games.. hehe enjoyed myself :). hehe earlier she was looking thru my stuff n realized the tie clip she got me vanished! I was so shocked.. I thoght I put it back int he box.. then when she told me.. that I was so sad... and I felt she might of been disappointed.. sigh
but to my suprize she wasn't =)... but still I was determined to find the tie clip.. it has a high amount of sentimental value to me =) coz it is given by my dear dear =). so I search high n low for it.. and I was so sad.. i couldnt find it.. but I knew it was osme where around.. I couldn't give up.. searched for an hour or so.. no result .. even on the journey to dinner cannot find.. Iw as so sad... but then I decided and remembered Abigale told me about praying in tongues,, and leaving it to God... so I was searching but not so hard this time for the tie pin whilst praying in tongues! guess what my memory came back and There it was where my mind said it would be.. oh wow.. Thank God.. the Holy Spirit is amazing hehe =)

ok thats all folks! nights

loving my dear dear~

-Chris

Sadness

My apologies to Ally... as I gave a sad face before I left.. I was sad... coz I dunno.. see such a world of lostness.. I feel sad... n heavy hearted... I see all th epoeple in my office getting lots of nice things to do.. but I don't get much.. but I thank God I always have something to do.

I feel so sad in my heart.. when I see my dear, sad.. I wish I could give her that shoulder she wants to cry on... I wish to share her burdens... but I see it's her choice at the end of it.. I wish she choose to let me take some.. just give her a proper long hug... but seems I never get to... do it... I wish I could have.. but everything's passed now...

next time I will.. I am sad... and I feel like crying some times.. but I dunno why... I'm just sad... I guess we have those times when we just feel sop insecure all of a sudden.. I never have.. but when I thought of the world.. I felt a slight feeling of insecurity.. i need to switch my focus back on track and regain that confidence I had... I need to switch my focus back to Christ...

When I look at the world I feel depressed
when I look at myself I fell stressed
when I look at Jesus I feel at rest.

my small prayer
Lord Jesus, make this country a peaceful one, make it prosper and may all the ruling hands have much wisdom and guidance from you Father God. Lord Jesus, come and make my vision come back to you, I wish not see what this world sees... Lord Jesus... Renew my heart and mind... Lord Jesus..

amen.


God bless,
-Chris

To My dear

I love you oh dear~

She makes me smile when I am sad,
She makes my heart beat fast,
She calms me down when I am anxious,
She has the sweetest voice to me,
She makes a lot of difference in my life,
She has the sweetest smile,

I miss her so much,
I love her so much,
I'm going deeper with her,
I feel so much love from her.



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TO me you are more than the world,
To me your a gift from God,
to me you are more precious than gold,
I thank God everyday, that I met you my dear adorable L~

when the skies are all dark,
and when the rain pours down,
I don't feel sad anymore,
because your by my side.

when you hold my hand,
when you wrap my waist,
I don't feel like a waste no more,
I feel like your my taste.

As the colours of the rainbows,
so are the colours that your brought in my life,
Thank you so much oh dear dear,
Thank you for your love and paitence.

Muaks!

Love you so so so much!

love
-Chris

Updates updates

So what has good old Chris been up to... Well I realised I needed more hands on work in my career, thus I took the iniative and made full use of the system provided in the office, tho I can only do up to a limited amount of things I am glad I can use the system... I have set up printers.. and what not.. tommorrow I plan to setup a real printer and test it gonna ask My colleagues if I can do this~ So excited!

During the weekends I went out with my dear... this is the first weekend if I am not mistaken I really spent lots of time with her as a couple... and guess what... I LOVED it! I'm telling ya, life with her is getting better and better... I don't regret one moment of it :). She brightens up my day every time I see her :).

We went to eat pasta and pasta.. wow been a pasta -lastic weekend I guess hehe... then later on went to take pics in a booth thingy.. it crashed! do u believe it! but Thank God, Our God is really so good~ We could continue editing, after the machine started up again! Thank God!

After dropping My dear off I headed to dinner and to no suprize, FEDERAL was congested due to a VERY small flood in the corner near amcorp.. So getting late I managed to zoom there when the rain stopped... Thanks to Michelle I made it without getting lost! Thanks Michelle!!!

But when I got there.. They were all sitting there with the food they reserved for me.. to makan.. wah so scary,, I was like eating n they were all like watching me haha.. saying dun rush.. lol like no person would ever rush when everyone is waiting for them ....
Ah wellz, All wells ends well~

hahaha and not to forget the message was awesome! God is really talking thru this church and to me.. hehe praise God for protection all the time... amen!

Missing me dear~
God bless ya all!

-Chris