Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

hmm.. sounds like I am a general... lol! or a judge =/

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

yea... i guess this is true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

hmm.. not really lol!

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

haha sound so player..=p

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

yea... practical learning is my field of expertize.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

yeap... but not mundane.. keep searching for the right thing in life and improve!

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

haha... that's coz I got God!

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

well.. yea la, who wants people to judge you from what u wear la! last time I tried hard.. this time I just be myself xD

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

PMS! :O OMGoodness... hehe.. well I dunno about this, think people close to me will know better!

First real drink

Well had a blast yesterday, after work got to see my kelz kelz~woahh nice! hehe.. hen went out with my pet sis~ first time I ever really finished a drink! as in a drink drink, wasn't too bad quite interessting, had barcadi! nice rum...interesting how it evaporates in your mouth! Better than beer most definatly! My pet sis ahaha I think sis in Christ sounds better, said she'll be my drinking partner.. once every fortnightly! xD cool.. try new stuffs..

Swiftly & surely

I believe love of 2 imperfect beings is possible :) that's why we have grand parents, and parents =).. there will be much fiction, but the heat produced will keep one another warm eventually. I don't believe love is demanding, but it requires a 2 way flow.

I've come to realise, with the phrase "behind every successful man there is a woman"is actually quite correct, as let's assume you're married, you're wife will be the encourager or destroyer in you're life.. some what or a rather.. if she pushes you or holds you a little, you might be able to muster more strength to work.. to succeed in life, you feel more responsible and with that hint of love she'll get you through it all...

On the other hand, if she keeps nagging, keeps killing your dreams, keeps putting you down, ignores you or worst even make you go through "hell on earth" you're work might not be able to reach the maximum capacity.. and not only will you stress out in work, but you will stress out at home, a combined stress that has a possibility of killing you.

I know myself, if a person loves me, they must love me for who i am, and respect me for who I am and not for who they want me to be, simply because I am not a toy.. but a human who has been through 22 years of life changing experiences, which can't just change overnight.

But I must say I am not an easy person to love, as I seek for more and more love.. trust me the person who loves me will know~ hehe...

people say be careful what you wish for, and I totally agree.. if you regret it, you've forced it on yourself.. you can't blame others, but fortunately for you, God is able to turn things around... if you don't believe in God, well I can;t say much :)..

Any how, I'm just let my thoughts run. to agree or to disagree is you're choice =)

God bless ya all,

-Chris
::life can be torturous.. and people will always try to ask you to do things, that you can't but for love.. you can go through the pain.. just because of love..::

Why?

As tears swiftly fill up ones eyes.. so does the pain they feel in their heart, they know that they are better off without, but still they cling on.. yet the same time fighting off the tears, because they want to be strong..

one could not think of a reason why things happen the way they do.. they just Do.. and always do they happen for a reason, perhaps one that they don't know how to explain...

but why, must one gentle tear reach the cheek? to stroke and try to comfort you, but making you want to just.. feel more and more stroke you... then you start to try to take your mind of things.. we are strange beings.. strange very strange...

Christ's death and resurrection

Let me tell you, this one sure thing friends, Christ did not die for saints, nor for the perfect and Holy, He died for a world of sinners, so that when you accept Him you will become righteous by His blood.

Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Romans 5:9-11
⁹Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! ¹⁰For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! ¹¹Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

Being appreciative

To everyone who knows me, and that I am with this wonderful girl called kelz kelz... this post is dedicated to tell you all.. and to tell her how wonderful she really is!

My dear, she is wonderful... she is someone who stands by me, even though at times I failed to do the same... she didn't leave me, nor did she keep me in "cold storage". I want to say, she is some one with integrity and some one who really sticks by what she believes in, and what she believes in is not wrong, or right for any one to say she is wrong.

She has a wonderful sense of variety, she has a sense of humour, she is beautiful naturally (this everyone should see ;) ). Her love for different kinds of food, and hate for others, are both complimentary of her uniqueness. She isn't just another girl, or some one other person Jesus loves... No no.. she's a girl I love, and she's a girl that Jesus really loves, in a unique way, no other way.

kelz, is some one who is creative, and she has a very nice art sense, that keeps everything realistic.. maybe sometimes others might think otherwise, but she is willing to learn, and change.. she isn't a weed in the field, but a tulip amongst all the daisies. she's very up to date with her fashion, she has wonderful taste. Her value is not one of that can be sold or bought with cash or money.. neither can it be traded for any item such as gold or silver... she's unique, adorable, cute, sexy, beautiful, kind, loving, and loved.

She's a great friend, willing, she helps others, and tries her best in everything she does... she's not something that can be used and thrown away.. she is some one.. who is there when you need her, and listening when you have problems..

my kelz kelz, is so wonderful, such a great person. God made no mistakes =)

Our God is an awesome God

God's love is just so amazing.. I couldn't take my mind off it... How could I be so foolish to run from Him? recently I have had doubts on what is right and what is wrong, but over all I believe that Jesus did die for our sins our coverings for all, for we did not know what we were doing.... He didn't die when we were perfect, He didn't die while we were in the process of repentance.. no, He died whilst we were still sinners..

This is amazing.. imagine dying by the most gruesome death, for a bunch of people who don't even deserve let alone respected you? yest you would save them at such a cost of death? haha is amazing!

If the Law made us perfect, then we should follow it, but it didn't that's why Jesus came to fulfill it, it's not about how well you can do things, it's not about, how great and mighty you are as a Christian.. heck it's not even about how bad you are.. or how sinful you are, It's about God, your father, restoring the foundation of the relationship! I know God does not desire, sacrifices, But I know one thing, He desires, for us to be restored with Him, He desires to see us happy, in joy and love... Yes we can go focus on what we are meant to do, but our hearts remain empty and useless.. we can help people, we can speak in tongues, we can give great speeches.. But with no weight of God's love? you're knowledge will puff you up, but love will grow in a pacing speed... I can give you all points and stuff, but that would totally mess up the fun of discovering God for who He is :)

I love you all!
But I am not perfect, so it is more correct to say this,
God loves you all!

God bless,
-Chris

::We can do whatever we want, we can try to earn our salvation, we can try to earn every part of it, but miss the whole point of it, miss the real reason behind it, miss the real person, and that person is God Himself::

Why let your light shine?

Not sure if any of you wondered why my post was about let your light shine? Here's my answer to all of you who are baffled beyond any understanding!

This world has never been a very wonderful world, with or without Christ.. in fact if you read more and more about the past and history, you'll know that this world is very dark.. in deed the darkness had time to breed itself.. ok let me break it down and not speak metaphorically for you.

Humans, make the world... Humans have the tendency to be tempted and minds and thoughts changed through, ways we cannot understand, why i say this in these terms is basically, we can be educated by sin, and by the evil spirits in this world very easily, why? it's in our nature la... who needs to tell a kid to lie? or to steal? no one... if the kid thinks he wants the toy that don't belong to him, He'll go grab it off the weaker kid...

yeap looking familiar to the world eh? personally nothing changes as we go on in life, people try to backstab, lust kicks in and we go sleep around, with no more morale values in us... sometimes we are rejected but we know we are stronger, just like kids we take what we want, rob people, slash them,. shoot them, rape them... and whatever else we want to do.. somewhat like that kid,.. who stole your toy when you were in nusery in a grander scale. this is how the 'world' is dark..

so then you ask, is it getting darker? personally, it might seem like it's getting darker, but heck I believe it's been dark all along, just the media blew it up in a grand scale, and in a sense, gave new ideas to those who might not have been brave enough or smart enough to rob/rape/sleep around/do this do that...

(wow Chris this is getting too deep, and dark) yeap dark it is! ok so let me get to the let your light shine part!

sorry to those who have yet to believe, but i think if you followed me from the beggining till now you will understand everything I say =)

So you see this verse:"John 1:5 The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it."

the light is actually my dear friend, brother and saviour, Jesus Christ... He shone through the darkness of this world (yeap sin and those spirits that u know you can't explain why you can just lie for no reason) and of course as the verse states the darkness didn't understand...

During the time of Jesus, you could tell He was a light in isreal.. so many people fled to Him, even the romans could see hope life and light in him... so many fled to Him, even the pharasies realised it! and sadly enough, they got angry about it too (:O a sense of darkness? but why angry?) so... cut the story short, jesus died and rose again for us later on!

so those who accepted Christ now have the Holy Spirit in them shinning from inside out, thus you have the light... same kind of light that Christ has! But wait.. you must be thinking oh know what if I do wrong things.. I'm stuck to this rule this regulation.. blablabla, no no! it's wrong! tell me if you had some one save your life and gave you the best, through every time.. He save dyou from being a prostitute by force, provided you with a house, a maid to clean it.. everything you needed.. would you go to Him and give Him trouble? or would you yourself return to the place where you were almost forced to prostitution? no right? But you would be so thankful to that person, and somewhat love that person for what they are doing for you!

It's the same way in Christ, you won't follow rules and bolt down to them just because you have to, but because when you walk the road with him, you'll find out more and more, yes no doubt you might fall, but you see there is still hope, Christ will come down with His hand and uphold you again... when you realised, hey the love of christ is so amazing, when you experience it, and realise.. why is this world so damn horrible and how on earth did Christ do it? and then look at yourself, freak I'm not that good either, then look at Christ.. you will finally realise.. hey... I'm loved tremendously.. I don't wanna go back to that dumpster...

then, you will have this light in you.. wiht the realization of the love of God, you will be able to love others, the way Christ loves you, coz you realise, how much your loved, and How much Christ loves them too... so light your light shine, the light of Christ, which loves all!

Dye hair, haircut

Okay, I did consider dying my hair.. but I didn't do it just yet, coz I was unsure... =p I think my parents don't really want me to dye my hair, but I want to try it and see :) I think it's not permanent, and if it looks good, then it's most likely pleasing to many people around me.. Haha the old British saying: Eat to please yourself, dress up to please others =).

Pretty neat saying... I heard it on the radio haha! =p
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Any how besides my new haircut, and consideration of dying it. I had my whole weekend spent in Jerm's place... yeap Jerm's place where random people invite themselves in xD wakakaka... But I'm not one of them.. ^^ not really something I like to do.. randomly appear in someones house without their notice xD or invite myself over =)... but I do ask if I can come over.. probably means I'm inviting myself... ahhhh! bleh who cares =p what do you my fellow blog readers say? :)

My internet was down all weekend.. due to some network issue, quite strange and hilarious at the same time.. But hey, I think God worked this way to give me rest =)...

As for the emo-ing.. haha after my haircut, my thoughts of emoness were reduced greatly and my joy was restored to me.. haha was cool! I remember God's word about short hair bringing glory to God for guys.. alright I won't take it into full blow right now.. coz I have to re read the verse.. but funny enough, God was like.. go cut your hair... =p I was planning to grow it a bit more! Thankfully quite a few people thinks it looks good! soooo I'm happy!

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As for my relationship with my dear <3.. well, what can I say? :).. I miss her, admist the busyness but I understand every situation she is going through... =) I love her the same =D well... you want juicy bits? :P zpppp* no can do, that's private between me and her and people we choose to reveal to =p.

God bless ya all!
-Chris
::⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. ⁸Love never fails... -1 Corinthians 13:4-8a::

2 Peter 1 (New International Version)

2 Peter 1

1Simon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ,
To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours:

2Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord.
Making One's Calling and Election Sure
3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

5For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; 6and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; 7and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. 8For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9But if anyone does not have them, he is nearsighted and blind, and has forgotten that he has been cleansed from his past sins.

10Therefore, my brothers, be all the more eager to make your calling and election sure. For if you do these things, you will never fall, 11and you will receive a rich welcome into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Prophecy of Scripture
12So I will always remind you of these things, even though you know them and are firmly established in the truth you now have. 13I think it is right to refresh your memory as long as I live in the tent of this body, 14because I know that I will soon put it aside, as our Lord Jesus Christ has made clear to me. 15And I will make every effort to see that after my departure you will always be able to remember these things.

16We did not follow cleverly invented stories when we told you about the power and coming of our Lord Jesus Christ, but we were eyewitnesses of his majesty. 17For he received honor and glory from God the Father when the voice came to him from the Majestic Glory, saying, "This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased."[a] 18We ourselves heard this voice that came from heaven when we were with him on the sacred mountain.

19And we have the word of the prophets made more certain, and you will do well to pay attention to it, as to a light shining in a dark place, until the day dawns and the morning star rises in your hearts. 20Above all, you must understand that no prophecy of Scripture came about by the prophet's own interpretation. 21For prophecy never had its origin in the will of man, but men spoke from God as they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry blog readers.. but I am sad.. so I must let go my sadness in the only place I know!

I fee that tears are always in my eyes.. but never flowing out.. I feel sad.. and alone... I dunno whats wrong with me.. I wish God oh I wish, you would come and see me now.. :(... my heart is heavy.. and my friends around.. but all I see is emptiness and the joy I have is fake... my true joy.. where have you gone?

I'm not happy, and heck no one said you will be happy all the time, yes you have the choice to be happy.. then be happy
SMILE... damn it Chris... you're pathetic!

I'm sorry I can't lie to myself.. when I am sad I'm really am sad... I mixed.. not knowing what is what and how to handle it all... help me oh Lord...

I feel that feeling again.. pressing against me.. and I can never explain it.. I am being consumed by my very own self.. and yes I know God your continually pulling me out.. coz I get these times of relief... but it's not enough.. sigh,... I want.. I think this is self pity!

ARGH
I hate you Chris... always wanting people to love you... face the fact, if you don't feel loved it's probally because your looking too hard! for goodness sake.. look what Jesus did for you, it's not enough? can't you count your freaking blessings?! for franks sake... wake up... *slaps* ur a freaking idoit you knwo that chris?? and you think you know it all... you think people are going to SHOW you love.. JUST BVECAUSE WANT IT...

YOU wanna know something.. people are not sensetive enough to do that... people don't care Chris.. if your not a benefit to them.. then they'll just shove you aside.. like a freaking dead peice of meat on the side of the damn road..

yes when they need you they treat you like a KING... why don't you see this?... what are you lookiing for in this life Chris? to change peoples minds? to make them realise like you! damn it... you're so niave.. and an idot! so.. t(-_-t) you..

results...

seems like I only have two friends reading this blog.. and commenting.. so the result! is i should change.. just do it.. so I will.. actually there was one friend that said she likes me the way I am... the loving bro kinda guy.. sigh.. I'm just so damn confused.. where is my family? where is my friends?... all I have left is you God..

Change?

Hey all, I've been pondering, should I change myself? I don't mean just physically, I mean mentally and all, become a more fun guy, become some one who doesn't care so much, or shall I say worry, have concerns..

if I am to do these steps:
1:take risk, pay for paint balling go for it
2:go out more with random people no more sticking to a few.
3:don't really bother about what others think, meet new people
4: work out more, go to the gym/swim/jog/work out at home in general
5: do something bizaar, like head to genting for no reason
6: meet up with some old friends from college

hehe or shall I just stick to being me? caring, loving, wishing to have fun, playing computer games...

Burfday

ok like I said catching up... haha but since I only just got my present from the gang,... I suppose this is the correct timing ! xD.

Well... here's my presents~ :P

Pair of addidas trainers! $$$ expensive but NICE!

Pair of Crocs... from the gang! very late present :) but thanks none the less

Great wallet, nice and stylish, any one looking for one? this is nice! from my sweetheart!

games from my sis(ok harry potter.. I know what ur all thinking) ipods from my mum Chirstmans & bday combo haha

well I had a birthday dinner with both the gang and with my family! nyam both yummy! hehe.. nothing more to blog.. :P

Farewell!

This post is dedicated to two of my lovely praise team leaders!

from the left Carrie(PTL) valrie(she didnt leave:P), Katrina(PTL & great sis!)

Well First to Carrie (not that your going to read my blog):
Wish you well, and great health, hope you excel in Aussie and become the top notch! You're a great Pt Leader and a cool friend :). Remember God is always there for ya and wheneve ryou need an ear he's there!

Now To Katrina:
Don't party till your drunk :P even tho beer is cheap there hahahaha! your a great sis and I thank you for listening to all my ranting! haha I really miss ya! ^^ hope you do well in aussie, pass with flying colours, and get along with all colours hehe! Remmeber church is the best place to mix :).

My Valentines day

Yesh yesh, Iknow I am behind time! haha but better late than never :). Well, spent the time in Jaya ONE! :D, we ate in frontera, it's a mexican food stall.. yum. any way won't bore you with words!

The making:

well I know it's not exactly the making since the tree was done, but hey... the base was in the making haha

improved.. but still a lil cacat

Much better!

sorry guys, the final final is not published here, because.. it's only for my sweet heart to see! (Maybe she will reveal it in her blog =p)

starters in da Mexican grill bar:

sorry guys thats all the pics of the food I took.. coz of hunger :P..


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The most beautiful and wonderful gal!

well... for me to enjoy for you too look on my side bar :P!

^^ that's all for my updates... next "Should be" dedicated to Kat and carried :)

-Chris

Feeling a lil un-equiped

ahh... this is life aye? Well I am feeling pretty much inadequate at the moment due to my job... I don't think I can train?! how? ah well... we'll see how.. I'll be telling my GM tmr :)


this pic is pretty cool! got it form my ipod :).~