Speaking it out

Hi all, I'm going to put my story aside for a bit, and dedicate this post to My Lord, and whoever he wants to speak to out there.

I'm going to be always glad to Father, first of all for bringing me up, for guiding me, and never giving up for me even though I have strayed many times. I want to be grateful because, Father, you're truly worth every moment of my time. Everytime I have fell you havn't just looked next to me and say, it's alright, but you've helped picked me up, you've helped correct me, and helped open my eyes.

Many of the church says Christainity is not a religon, and they have thier reasons, but I will always know it is, a wonderful religon, but yest it might not be religious, but it's definatly a religon of a relationship. But My Father, I want you to know, I love you very much, and I am glad you always love me the same as you first saw me, with much abundance and much love.

People are always looking for peace, people are always looking for enlightenment, answers to life, and reasons to live. Father, now I get it, We can all reach enlightenment, be it the church or likewise, we can all find our own sense of peace, but we can't find the answer, which is found in you, the reason which is found in you, we can have everything under the sun like King Solomon said, but all of this is nothing, we can have it all, and yet be depressed. We can have peace enlightenment, but still have no answer or reason. Father I'm even sure we can find ways to be happy, but I'm sure there are sad times for a reason, and I've found out in no matter what season, you're still there, rejoicing or mourning with us. And through it all, you still want the best for us.

It's not about how much we can do in our lives Father right? It's about how much you can do with our lives, it's not scary at all now I see it all ahead, there's certainty, and direction. A calling and an answer, a light and a hope. But most of all Father there's you.

I know you desire not sacrifice, but love, and I'm glad the church loves you very much.

To you whoever is reading this, these words are for you, you can seek it all, be consumed by it all, but at the end of it all, have you found that answer you have been looking for? or just reached a point of enlightenment, denying the truth, and hoping what you hold on to will not rot as our bodies will in the ground. Seek out the truth, but not a lie, ask and seek, but not to prove things wrong, but to ttruly find what you want to find, not to prove what you think is wrong, then may all things be well. I believe whoever you are, you will find my Father, and He will embrace the same as He did with me, through hurts and sorrow, through joy and peace, through bored times and busy times, through enlightenment and hell times.

Thank you Father,

Ecclesiastes 2:17-23
¹⁷ So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. ¹⁸ I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. ¹⁹ And who knows whether he will be a wise man or a fool? Yet he will have control over all the work into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. ²⁰ So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. ²¹ For a man may do his work with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then he must leave all he owns to someone who has not worked for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. ²² What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? ²³ All his days his work is pain and grief; even at night his mind does not rest. This too is meaningless.

John 6:51
I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

Amen.