The wish I have
These days, people wonder... why they live, what for? sometimes, I don't know why... but I fear the day I might be a father... tho it is the day I am longing for... Every one turns from thier father... either it starts out bad or it ends bad... I say to myself I live to be a gd parent, a gd husband. I wish I will be. I know in the future my kids are gonna hate me. It's all the same as today, you treat them nice when thier young they;ll love you till teen age... being a teen... hard to accept the fact that you love your parents.. some where in your heart, theres something... no matter how much you say hate HATE HATE.... there is no hate... just the feeling of.. distance, like your far from them... so far you can't remember the love they gave you once... Humans... so prone in memorising the bad points, we never tend to realise our good, cherished memories, stored right at the back... any one who holds on to them, will surely smile and say, I was loved once... and I'm glad I was, and so I shall be again
no ones really been against me, my family has loved me... they shout to correct me when I was younger.. my dad didn't.. I don't even know why people get annoyed with thier dads... I do too, I try to love him... but it feels awkward.. maybe cause I'm a guy.. it's harder?
I really wish, that one day, every one will see somethign in thier parents.. some good piroty... they say negative thigns to you... but really they care for you... if they didn't they would have rejected you a long time ago... and even then, they will feel a great deal of loss, as thier child. something they brought into this hectic world, has gone astray. it's not easy for them, as it isn't easy for us Kids. I wish I could say that and be loving, I'm trying to change... I wish people would too... and to those who do=) I'm glad you achieved much more then most of us have, don't hate your parents coz they brought you into this world, they didn't bring you here to suffer, they brought you here through love.
but the thing that I wish most, is for every one to feel the feeling I am=) a peacefull and joyful one. It's not coz I am loved by others, heck I can be rejected and hated by others. It's the fact that I have some one who is my corner stone of my life, you guys will think of this as all bimbo crap, but really it's true, JEsus really rocks, and the feeling... it's amazing... if every one had this feeling, they wouldnt call thier parents parents... more like friends. Shame... I wish this wish really could come true, then even through suffering... poeple will find joy in thier lives.. through thier suffering, they will still be happy...