HAve you ever felt that life has taken it's toll? U can't tolerate it any more? you have nothign left on this earth... you dunno where to turn or what to do, your friends are busy... your parents are out... no one understands... but you... it's a form of depression... you have to let it out and talk to some one you can trust, some one thta listens, that helps... keeping it inside u will just destroy you slowly... once u falll u can't get out of it=( but stay strong! some one out there cares I do! please do cheer up ^^. Jesus is there for you talk tro god pray ask him for help. if you are not a christain just talk to a friend whome think u can trust n they will help u out of this endless pit of depression.they will not fall with you but see your depression.and willl always take you in =) so reeber those who care for u will help no matter wat. they will not let you fall.^^

God bless

UH OH!!!!!!!! MY GOODNESS>>>>>> CRAP... My dark side is reappearing... he's gonna scrap all my depression n fill me with anger NOOOOO>>...
what to do?! hahaha nothign COz it's GOOD SINCE I AM ALOT SMARTER THAN ME GEGEGGE.... mental hospitol whereare oyu... I dun wanna hurt hose i care about... CARE?! why should I CARE?! SCREW THEM ALL ... what the fck man piss off... (sorry abt this I'm talkign to myself) ... why say sorry... I@M NOT FCKING SORRY BWHAHAHAHHAA SOI U CAN ALL FEEL MY WIKIDNESS>.... NOOO DUN WAN PISS OFF U DARKNESS... one sec lemme plubish this before u offcaily announce me as... CRAZY BWHAHAHAHHAHA

oo... ahhh~~~ I sung a song about stress haha... I didn't knwo i had it in me kekek... ok I kknew i had stress I sound so different... at the start of the song I lost my tone haha so funnyXD no back ground music.. so kinda crap hahaha

Can you feel it? It's like crazy... This werid sielnt screams... flashes of cuts n pain... some oen crying... who can it be? It's very bad to live int he past so I'm living in the present... present what a wonderufl thigm... the stess i creatign an invisable blade a spear which has already peirced through my heart... a weight that i must carry I can feel the invisable blade enar the back of my neck SLash... n that would e the end of my head... yet Is till want to live... and i want to die... I feels so lame... Does any one care? DOES ANY ONE OUT THERE READ THIS? DO YOU CARE? TELL ME DO YOU? DO YOU? HUH? anyway... why think ofmyself... haiz.... lifes spinnign i can't figure out whats up n whats down... stress is doing this... but stress is gd.. argh whats wrogn with me... it's the malay exam thing... once i get that over n done with I will be so happy^^^^^^^^^ BUT I@M SO BLOODY SCARED saya bahasa melyeu sangat salah >_< dan saya misty cekap penmelayti ARRR ID UN EVEN KNOW WHATS IT CALLED T_T CELEBRATIONS HELP HELP HELP HELP ME PLS SOME ONE IF U CAN HEAR ME HELPPPP ME T_T

Can you feel it? It's like crazy... This werid sielnt screams... flashes of cuts n pain... some oen crying... who can it be? It's very bad to live int he past so I'm living in the present... present what a wonderufl thigm... the stess i creatign an invisable blade a spear which has already peirced through my heart... a weight that i must carry I can feel the invisable blade enar the back of my neck SLash... n that would e the end of my head... yet Is till want to live... and i want to die... I feels so lame... Does any one care? DOES ANY ONE OUT THERE READ THIS? DO YOU CARE? TELL ME DO YOU? DO YOU? HUH? anyway... why think ofmyself... haiz.... lifes spinnign i can't figure out whats up n whats down... stress is doing this... but stress is gd.. argh whats wrogn with me... it's the malay exam thing... once i get that over n done with I will be so happy^^^^^^^^^ BUT I@M SO BLOODY SCARED saya bahasa melyeu sangat salah >_< dan saya misty cekap penmelayti ARRR ID UN EVEN KNOW WHATS IT CALLED T_T CELEBRATIONS HELP HELP HELP HELP ME PLS SOME ONE IF U CAN HEAR ME HELPPPP ME T_T

heart shatterz

It is currently3.42 am... I got up at 2.30 am... feeling nothing but the empty air, and how all my heart has just become nothing.... I cannot sleep.. I'm sure every one would be asleep right now...
why did i listen... why did i put so much love into it... it's best for those reading this that have no understanding not ask me about this post... but those who do.... knwo the truth... I did care... I did love... with all my heart... now everythigns has vanished... I still love... I still care... but know that theres something between makes my life alot harder... I prayed that our paths may be safe and hope that we can live our life with joy...

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this is me... Chris sighining off... I will be typing here as much as i might be so smile... even though i cannot =)

I can feel it, tellign the truth is nice... then booom, It shatters into all these things which hurt people... I never wanted to hurt anyone.. nor talk behind thier back.. as my eyes opened I noticed I have already I done that...every thing I have done/caused has lead to total destruction... It's as if i killed some body n the stains won't fade...I wanted to be faithful... strong .. some one that you can trust but why can't I ... I have failed in my goals.. yet i still want to make it better... At least i hope i can.. I know i can... but how? some say the devil has doen this others say it's depression... some time others evcen said you idiot why did u go on tell him that then...coz it wasn't a secert... n I wanted them to know... they have a right to know after all... but it turns out knowing is hurting.. soem thign i never wanted to do... boom... there goes the life i was heading for ... but now I must re build the puzzle that has just blown up....
Sighning off,
Christopher

well, i guess it's time to update my blog... wow... somethings hapened between my friend and another... my friend mit and jeff... I'm not sure what and not sure should i know. It's amazing how so many poeple can get Hurt. i guess thats what I call a down... but some must come to understand the other party, poel change wiht time and time is going so fast now... even i am lost, prehaps still some wher ein the past... tryign to race back, but losing contact. what to do?
It's times liek this where you feel the most depression, and loniless... and realise familiy isn't to bad.