The Past Demon

Chapter 5: Realization

"You're not in the place of torment" said a voice in the distance.
"Who are you?" I asked him
"I am Visoth, the guardian angel of this child"
"If I am not in a place of torment, why must I continuously be bonded?"
"This is the process of birth, Estalious, I was told that you would come into the earth again today, you have been missing for over five thousand years."

I couldn't believe what I heard, five thousand years, passing like a blink of an eye, truly the creator is most gracious, all this time I had a strange feeling, that he was punishing me for my impatience by putting my hand onto the scroll. But I didn't know what was going to happen, I knew nothing about the human body. All I know is that I am in one, what will this journey be like? and what was going to happen next? The thought of living on earth was bad enough, it brought a shudder through my wings.

I then heard a strange voice, not angel like, it was soft and sweet, along with a very deep and powerful voice, they spoke of a name, to give their child. It made me ponder, did they know I was in here? or would I be so insignificant, that no one in this world would take notice of me...

Finally after 1 hour, "We'll call him, Gaz!"
Gaz? what kind of name is that I thought to myself! I would have given this magnificent body a more majestic name, such as Darlicka, or Verlisotious! But Gaz?... But I wasn't in my power to change anything...

As time past, I could tell Gaz had no idea I was living in him, I came to a conclusion that humans are just all about games and playing, that's all they ever did play play eat eat, I felt like these humans had no purpose in this life! But there was one strange emotion they had, the feeling was as if the creator himself had given you the most secure embrace in the world, it was a warm feeling, that would make a heart beat faster and slower at the same time, It brought much comfort to the soul... I had no idea what it was, but the feeling was one that drew both me and Gaz to love these strange giant beings.

"Estalious, Estalious... DO you really think human life is this simple?" asked Visoth,
"This is the first stage, I have been with over three thousand humans, being a guardian for each, their motives and their pains, what they go through...is very different. I'll tell you this, what you experience now, will be very different in years to come, don't think that this life is all about games, don't be so naive or you might just end up failing, your demon comrades, are just one of the challenges in this life, be prepared, for the biggest battles in your entire life!"Visoth's face was very vicious, and serious when he was saying all these things, you could see the righteous fire that burned through his eyes, his wings were hardened like armour, and I could sense a slight amount of holy wrath in his speech..

from that day on, I knew this was just the peace before the storm...

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hehe sorry chapter 5 is really short, but this is what I will put for realization, next chapter is gonna come out in a while i think haha please remind me not to abandon the story if you like it! Chapter 6: Strange sensations..

The Past Demon

Chapter 4: The Birth

"What's this? have I fallen into the dark pit of torment? but it doesn't feel cold.. it feels very warm. Where am I?" I asked myself.

I was scared, yet I was in complete comfort, I had no idea where I was, but I most certainly knew it wasn't a place of torment. I could feel the warmth of some sort of jelly like material surrounding me, I felt like I was in some sort of protective bubble... the gel like liquid caressed my skin gently. It felt like an embrace that none could express, all one could feel is safe and comfortable..

Day after day, I was stuck in this jelly type of substance.. I could feel some strange mushy things entering into my abdominal part of my body.. It was a strange sensation. But very satisfying.. Then it dawned on me, perhaps I am bound and trapped in a dark place quickly, I asked this body I was in to start kicking to escape.. frantically it was kicking.. but in no avail, the jelly type substance had over powered us. Eventually I just gave up, and told myself, if this is the darkness it's not that bad, took time to enjoy it.

*SNAP* I felt something snap off... the jelly became like quick sand, sucking this body further and further down, I felt the pain the body felt, the sudden feeling of lack of air, it was strange, then we were sucked out until there was some light... the light was shinning through a very small hole, in all my hope I told the body, you gotta survive this, to get to the light, the thing that I have missed the most! squeezing out and enduring the pain and joy at the same time, the head of this body popped out...

I could feel the cool air swiftly blowing over the head, and i could see light for the first time in a very long dark period. Suddenly something grabbed my head, the grasp was so strong, that I couldn't shake it off, with my body still stuck in the warm jelly like place, I felt like I was paralyzed.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" a loud scream could be heard, and at last I was free from the bondage! The cold air took it's tol on me when my body started to shiver, the bosy started to cry, in the most unworthy manner, screaming and crying. But I could understand how it felt. Being so cold and all.

But Just as I thought we were free, Bam! we were tied in bondage again, this time it felt like the wings of an angel, wrapping over your entire body, I thought to myself.. Maybe this is the place of torment! I tried to help this body escape from our entanglement, but with no avail. powerless, I felt, the body grow weak.. and weaker, and then, darkness once again, the Body has collapsed of exhaused and somehow shut down... I was afraid, I thought I have failed to protect. Worste of all, I didn't know what the creator would do to me..

I felt like I've failed 2 times, and there was a worst punishment waiting for me. I felt much grief and sadness,
"Estallious..." a voice said in a distance.
"Estallious!"
how could someone on earth know my name? what is this strange voice...

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The Past Demon

Chapter 3: The Redemption

"The Creator cannot forgive you for such acts!" exclaimed the reader of verdicts,
then there was a pause. It felt like eternity, I couldn't believe what I heard, but I knew it was coming my way. I couldn't control the tears running from my eyes down my cheeks to the floor. But clinging on to hope, I kept my head bowed... every split second felt like an hour. Thoughts ran through my head, and I started to condemn myself for what foolish acts I have done.

"However... The Creator, being as Good and righteous as He is, in love and kindness, He has given you one way out, this way will not be an easy way. Especially for the likes of a demon, You must keep yourself as pure as possible till the coming time." A sense of relief came across me, it was as if a huge burden had been released from my chest, my emotions were mixed, but I was glad to hear that there was another way to earn my redemption.

"There will be a child born in the near future, on earth, and that child you must defend and live with, I will appoint a guardian angel over him, and you yourself will be within him. He will be a follower of mine, and go through much humanly suffering, which no supernatural being has felt. But under no circumstances must you corrupt him, but instead you must defend him, against the fallen brothers you once held high regards for, including the deceiver. Should you accept this, you should know that the journey will be tough, and you will feel everything he feels, sadness, hurt, anger, love, peace.. and other emotions.. Should you fail, your punishment will be greater than any of those who have turned against the Creator during the hectic war."
As he closed the scroll, my heart was throbbing, to have to live on this planet earth, was torturous enough, but to live in a human.. ones that my brothers torment down on earth. But if this was the only way to return to my Lord, I was willing to go through the torment and pains that is installed.

As I lifted my head, I shouted, "Yes, yes LORD! I will do as you have said. I will accept this contract! I have regretted my actions that have harmed the heavens, But you most awesome and magnificent one, have given me a second chance, I will not fail!"

"Very Well Estalious, you must sign this scroll... and your journey will begin" holding up the scroll, the creator pointed to a part of the scroll which distinctively had a shape of my hand. It was as if He knew I would sign it and specially customized the contract to me. I had no idea what life would be like, once I signed this, would I lose my wings? where would I end up? who would I be with? what kind of person would this be?... But I knew I had to do it..

My Hand felt heavy, as if some one was holding it down tight, but using all my will power, I started to lift it up.. my hand was nearing the scroll, in just less than a second everything would change, I knew I wouldn't see this place for a very long time..

" STOP!!!" a large bang was heard in the courts...There stood Stalious, he was large and strong and I could sense the amount of hatred he had towards us demons..

"How could you let this low life get a second chance my Lord?! can you not remember how much torment they brought? what if they were to do the same but as a human! wouldn't it be worst?"

"Do you question my judgment Stalious? I have made this decision and I know what will be of him, trust what I do, lest you stray afar like the Deceiver"

At that point, I could not stand it, I quickly pushed my hand into the scroll and in a sudden blink of an eye, I was cast into a bright light, swrilling down, further and faster.. I felt like i was falling.. and I did not know where I would end up...

Then suddenly darkness.

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The Past Demon

Chapter 2: The Repentance

"HALT!!" a sudden swoosh of various kinds of angel blades surrounded me.
"What brings you here traitor? demon.." Said Angelous, the guardsangel of God's kingdom...
"I have come to ask for forgiveness.. and repentance" I knew at any moment, I could be bounded in chains and thrown into the most hideous and dark place... where only torment lives... yet I stood as tall and strong as I could before the many blades.

Angelous grinned, he stood tall and proud, you could see righteousness shinning out of him, yet.. the grin gave me a distinct discomfort.. unlike Angelous, I have been stripped of my righteous feathers.. I was bare, barren, and naked... my wings were but of flesh... red and scorned by the punishment of the creator.. for all who betrayed him.

"Wait here... demon" Angelous walked off into the courts of the creator. What was held for me ahead was uncertainty, and fear went through my body.. as I shuddered at the thought of what could become of me. I felt a cold feeling travelling down my spine and slowly spreading to other parts of my body, I told myself, I must stay strong, I must be honest, I must show the creator how much I regret the actions I took against him in a very hectic battle.

It felt like eternity before Angelous returned, as he approached he looked frustrated and angry, but as all angels, he kept his majestic look, and the light that shone from the creator was shinning off him, almost blinding to me... what used to be perfect beauty in my eyes.
" The Creator says you may enter!" Angelous said with a somewhat frustrated voice.

As I walked into the court room, there were Elders sitting on seats, surrounding the area, with the creator in the judge seat, with his lamb next to him. I felt like I was in a coliseum, Never did I ever think in my entire life I would be in this place, I've always wondered why there was a court and so today, I have found out why.

"Estalious! You are brave to come back here after the treacherous war crimes you have committed in Heaven it self!" The thunderous voice of the creator said.

"Why have you returned? Do you not know what you have done cannot be reversed, you took the wrong path and there is no forgiveness for such act that you have done! Many brothers suffer because of your act! Explain to all of us why you have returned? do you do the same as your leader? to accuse those down on earth?"

"No, My Lord, I have come to beg for forgiveness..." I replied with a trembling voice
"I am truly regretful for what I did, I was deceived by the darkness, confused, and I truly really want to repent! I cannot live with out you my Lord!" I cried out before everyone.
With my head facing to the floor, not knowing what was coming next, I feared the judgement of the Creator, for I know our kind does not deserve such forgiveness, nor were we made to have forgiveness. After the corrupt things we have done.

" I cannot forgive you for your actions! you know that far better than anyone else here Estalious! many of your kind has come to this court room begging for forgiveness, but all know I cannot give. But in their hearts I know they truly do not really repent, but all they want to do is get out of the planet earth, as it seems tormenting to them. But they have played with my creations, and took pleasure in what I see as evil, so what makes you so much different Estalious?" You could hear many whispering in the court rooms, some even said, it's just another accuser of our brethren, some said he's a spy.. But I myself, knew deep in my heart.. I needed the creator.. I kept my head bowed down to the floor.. and cried, which no angel has done before for sadness, but only for joy.

"My Lord, if you would give me a chance, I will do anything to redeem myself, I truly wish not to be a demon, I would like to be by your side again. Yes, it is true I cannot stand the thought of being in the planet earth, but even if I had to stay there and resist to earn my salvation, then so be it!" I pleaded to the Creator.

What Happened next, was either the worst thing in my life, or the best. Who could decide, and who could really predict what was the Creator Himself thinking, as he turned to the Lamb, whom we called the lion. The decision was made, but nothing was spoken yet... You could hear people around the court, murmuring, wondering what the decision was.. I put my face to the ground again.. and stayed in that position, till the verdict was spoken, for only when it is spoken.. will it be executed.

"Estalious!"...

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The Past demon

Chapter 1: The War

"We're losing the battle!" Screamed an angel... "fall back fall back!" you could hear the rushing of angels pass throughout heaven.. one third, of the angels fled to their last stronghold in heaven..
"I knew we shouldn't of listened to him.. how could we defeat the creator?"
"Shut up and wipe that attitude away or else we'll lose for sure!, no one knows the creator better than him!"

That was the day Our leader.. lost the war.. in all our misery, we were kicked out of the most pleasurable place in the universe.. to an undoubtedly strange, world, The creator named, Earth.

It was tough.... There was no pleasurable experiences for us who have experienced heaven on earth. I felt a deep remorse in my heart. After just one day of living on this earth.. I decided, to try my luck in the courts of God. I wanted to repent, to ask for forgiveness.. for my foolish act. How could I ever go against the Almighty one? How could me perceptions be changed so easily? I was defiantly not made to live in this place called earth.

My Decision was clear in my mind, My Heart throbbed with a beat of that a meteorite colliding... As I flew slowly and nervously towards the courts of Forgiveness.. many thoughts ran through my head.. I had no idea what was installed for me...


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Things Change...

Sometimes...
We wonder....
other times..
We think too much..
But when it happens..
We think even more!

But no matter what happens in life..
Try to be the best for the one you love...
Try to be the best because God loves you...
And don't worry when you fail...
God will defiantly..
Most Certainly..
See you...
As...
Perfect! :)

Crazieness

bleh I don't know I don't know what to dooooo... I love kelz, God loves me, God loves us, God loves her, I love God, let's go go go.. I wonder if kelz remembers to read that white book I got her! I hope soooooo REMEMBER Dear.. please remember~!! currently I am in work.. nothing much happening see lots of people being stressed.. wonder if any projects gonna come in ahhhh!!!! I want kelz to cook something for me :P mwhahaha I wanna try her fish with soy sauce... personally the only fish i know how to cook is fish fingers! COZ U FRY IT LOL...

I miss her...I miss her...I miss her...I miss my dear...I miss kelz...I miss her...

Can't really express...

But I'll try to.. :)

have you ever felt you were so in love.. that your heart has drawn into some one so deep?
have you ever felt so in love, that you have become blind even when everyone can see the wrong?
have you felt so in love, that you see more good in someone than bad?

I can't express how much I love my dear... I want her to know, she's my love, the one I want the one I just love so much!

I wish sometimes I can hold her in my arms forever,
If the sky is just the limit, then it's definatly too small to show how much I love her..

Dear.. You are some one whome God put in my life, some one who is reall treasured not only by God but myself too!

I cannot express how much I love you, If there were only black and white in this world, you would be the rainbow, because even when I feel this world becomes black and white, you always look colourful to me..

my love isn't shallow, but it's really there. you might think others don't think much of you,
But I think a lot of you, you are specail, you are beautiful no matter what!

I just simply love Ms. Kaylee :) I do!

-Chris