Emotions

You know.. I read a blog very discouraging this morning coz it was directed to me... people don't understand each other.. no matter how much they really do, the person in sadness will say u don't so others just can't do a thing about it...

I don't want to attack the person who messaged me through thier blog post... I just wish to talk to that person.. I feel sadness in my heart... and strife.. I wish I understood what was happening... but I feel my Heavenly father always holding my shoulder with that encouraging pat... the one that tells you everything will be alright? even if it isn't I'm here kind of pat?

you know tears do fill my eyes... but I try my best not to cry coz it's no use to me... no one is going to give u a shoulder to cry on in an office... so best thing to do is deliver tears to heaven, I'm human and I'm glad God is God... I couldn't handle his post ever!

Well, talk and mend, if mending means breaking, then break it is... at the end of the day... I wish that this person knows my true feelings, I can be disappointed and add stress. But what solution is that? this time I REALLy means serious business.. we need to talk...

God bless
-Chris

I saw the devil fall

Few knew I was sad, and those that knew could not help. I was stuck in turmoil.. not knowing where to turn or what to do... I called out to God many times.. but for some reason I couldn't find the peace I needed... tho he did bring me up on several occasions..

My fight goes like this...

Day1
Devil threw visions into my mind. I block them and sway them aside... but he strikes into my relationships.

Day2
I feel weariness.. and tiredness.... I seek love and attention but none I received... A relationship break out into a big fight and I feel like i am losing the fight, Devil presses on with his huge bastard sword..

Day3
Continuous fighting I have asked for support... People can only cheer me on as the rule of a gladiator... they couldn't touch the devil because they had their own fights with the others around them...

Day 4
Seeking more backup... Manage to get supernatural strength... able to fight with full force... Overcoming the devil.... but relationship still not repaired.. and devil manages to strike my side and wound my knee...

Day 5.

The Devil stuck me hard in the chest... as I lat there hanging with his bastard sword stabbed straight through my chest... I spew blood... I feel defeat.. and death was coming.. final call for support but none understand my language as it is clouded with all the death around me... I feel like I am drawing my last breath.... The Lord reminds me... you have a sword, Fight the good fight of faith... Victory is on your side... I lift my hand ready take up my sword blessed by the Lord and slices the devil in to half.... Devil smiles and laughs... as He thinks he is winning... I collapse to the floor.. with the sword in my chest... devil has been defeated he fell.. sword taken out.. and minions come after. but none able t win as I saw the devil fall..

I turned my head and saw my brother calling out for help... I rushed to strike the demon on the back... and told him to bring up His sword... we win the battle and sound the jubilee =)

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Well thats all how I saw it in the spiritual realm.. sounds like a story.. but indeed it was a heavy battle for me... one of the heaviest since...

God bless
-Chris

Down

Yeap I'm back for a bit... sudden urge to post here again...

Disgust, pains, cries and all.. some feel betrayed some feel attacked.. but bottom line it didn't feel good...

some times we feel like we'ere hurting inside, but we fail to see we hurt others on the journey along... some times we forget that others have feelings to and spread this pain along our path... but I just wanted to say... IF your hurting, look to God...look to Jesus hung don't he cross for you, this may sound harsh, but I don't care if you see it as not logical I don't care if you don't believe.. try to muster some strength say to God... I can't do it... thought I do not understand why Jesus had to die... for me, I can't do it God... I feel the pains are getting deep.. I need your help...

Jesus did DIE for you thats The truth... a fact is there's only one God and your not him.

Let's try not to be Gods in this world... why don't we leave it to God to be in His role and we be humans liek normally intended.. power lust all this is just temporary.. at the end.. if you were stripped... your walls breached.... your bare and naked... with nothing... the world disappeared... no one was here but you.. what would Gold mean? what would all your power mean? it would be pointless...

So back to my point... don't let your hurt inside, be it.. people who bullied you in the past, so your fear comes in control and you wanna keep on top if not you feel inferior and the memories of bullies come flushing back comes... or have feelings of loneliness and revert to pure lust.. be it whatever you do... You were never intended to be alone, why do you think God made you?... if we just existed without form.. without a creator.. then what purpose do we serve? trust me God made you so you would not be alone but with Him.. just you know some times we are rebellious and run away... don't let it grasp you all... you are all loved :)...

Lastly for those who are trying to help, fatal error of a helper is they don't take a step back.. and see the whole picture! come on friends and family let's take one step backwards... and see the whole picture.. the whole scene... never assume! assume and you might be come the ass of the assume part... ending up hurting both parties.. also don't ask harshly... a gentle questioning is enough to understand the situation... people don't look for solutions.. people don't look for who is wrong and who is right in these situations.. they look for comfort.. and a friend... cut your fingers off and offer your hand walk with them don't send them a missile barrage... and if the person that hurt them is sounding bad, don;'t be angry at that person... just carry the one that is wounded with you... we don't know what happens in lives...

lastly To everyone... Jesus said I am the way the truth and the life.. he who believes in me will have eternal life...

so I say to you.. all you need to do is believe confess Jesus is the Lord and Saviour... surrender and give it all up to him... no need to carry all this crap the world is giving you... become a stupid sheep that follows the shepherd and not a smart goat that jumps of the cliff...

Jesus loves you all...

No need to reason with yourself... Jesus loves you... the bible.. will reveal itself to you slowly... just be like children and follow... =)

God bless ya all!

-Chris