Miss

ok.. for all you who think it's about some one, it's not oki... :). I actually am missing God... I know how we can just come to His presence everyday... but I just miss making myself obdeient and sitting down.. just to talk to Him.. seems like work takes a lot of time.. but in fact that isn't an excuse.. I could chat to 'some one' for an hour+ on the phone.. so why not God?.... hehe.. I guess it's coz of Karen's blog... the songs in her blog just some how remind me of this time in the past.. dunno why... I just feel like... I wanna shrink back to a lil innocent child.. who knows nothing but God... but that I know won't happen :).

ahh I miss Karen :( my krazy lil sis... I didn't get to see her much at all this time when she came over! aih.. what to do Career first :).... wait till classes are over then.. wait till after 6 months then an appraisal.. any one got any idea what an appraisal is like? =p tips? or advice? hehe... oh welll....

Don't know if I can make it to church today for class.. though honestly I want to go... I just wish I had no class on sat or sunday.. I really just want a day with God.... hehe... of course I don't mind my bretherns and sisters around... would be even better if they were to fellowship (korninia?) together rather than just talking about rubbish hehe.. but hey.. can't ask too much :).

Did you know that when you enter God's family instantly you willl become part of the family... and not only that.. we will then share the same burderns.. and brothers and sisters should care... but all are learning to be forgivable I guess... No ones perfect... what would you think of me if I told you I murdered some one before? and innocent life that never even had a chance to walk on thier own 2 feet.. then u'll probally think, I should be condemned for life.. and you can never forgive me... but now I ask you.. all that truly know me now as a brother.. would you forgive me? if this incedent happened 12 yrs ago?... you see... I dunno personally you will all probally say nah Chris can't do such a thing.. this is what forgivness does changes a person in whole.. hehe obviously I didn't murder some one... or prehaps I did.. I am not so sure about that one myself... but according to witnesses I didn't do it... heh.. no blood involved dun worry.. if ur curious then u ask me later when u get to know better if you already know me and your close to me then you will already know :)... a touch of forgivness changes.. a person is willing to repent makes them whole... and thanks giving and gratitude makes the diff...

" I can't bring the person I killed back, but I sure can change so that I don't make the same mistake twice, I can save lives instead of taking."

what would such a qoute be in your heads? inconcievable?... or yea I think he can do it... or there's no way to forgive such a person! well.. you know what.. I think everyone reading this has murdered before.. just being angry is considered murder...

1 John 3:15 Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him

So have u eve rbeen angry against any one? just the thought is enough... so before you condemn some people for doing such horrid things to you or any one else then... think of this:

-What would the person himself think?

-What would Jesus do? aka WWJD

>A Sudanese Christian boy has his knees and feet nailed to a board and he is left to die. When rescued he says he forgives the man who did this because Jesus was also nailed and forgave him.

>A Vietnamese pastor is sentenced to two years in prison. When he is offered an early release, he declines stating that he has a group of new Believers >in the prison he has to disciple.

>A Colombian missionary is kidnapped and told she only has two hours to live. She tells her captors that if she only has two hours to live, she wants to spend it telling them about Jesus.

Brothers and sisters.. if you knew that when you die you would go to heaven, and you were held in a situation where death was the obvious result, what would you do?... when you know the person who is about to finish you off is not saved.. when you know if he was caught he will be killed and never have a chance to even hear about Jesus.. TO me I think many of us look for those, 'mid range sinners' not that there is such thing.. but we tend to rank sins.. then we think hmm I would love to share Christ with a sinner who you know.. has a clean police report.. or hasn't done something so bad like u know rape.. or murder.. yea as long as they havn't done those things then I shall share..

what do you think about this? No offence is meant to be directed to all... just wanted to shed some light in some dark areas.. and yes it might actually hurt.. but I do not intend to hurt you to make you feel like crap but hurt you so that you can be lifted up :)..

Psalms 27:6 Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses.

God bless ya all,

-Chris

Weeeee

. Yea Great cool, God's awesome... This month.. first week I actually blew off most of my money... thats like... 200+? lol and been running low on my cash.. I got kinda worried.. and scared that I wouldn't have a lot of money to survive for the rest of this month... so now it's the 3rd week and guess what... AHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I still got money! :D God's really blessing me tremendously. I dunno how but my wallet is maintaining itself at a lvl of money... it's like almost 7 days of spending.. well this week will be... but before that.. I just wanna tell ya all.. the saturday after all the birthdays(1st week of september) I was hesitating to give into the offering bag to God... then I remembered that God will provide so I digged into my wallet took out a few bucks that I was happy to give to God and dumped it in the offering bag.. then I said my God is a big God and He clothes that earth He can also provide for me :)... And Guess what boys and gals! so far so good :). I'm so glad my God is a great God! ... hehe mentioning that.. I am on budget mode again :P... don't have much cash on me.. but am surviving.. n hoping tmrs meal isn't too much :(... haha I just recalled me going for a training.. and having free lunch for 2 whole days :O God's good haha... any wayz 1 more week of miracles to go~ haha :)!

and what else eh...hmmm... started the bible reading plan pastor handed out to us.. very nice.. it's amazing how u can find out other things in the bible that you kinda thought u knew ... but then when u read that same passage again! another revelation pops up! haha... it's infinite man.. :D.

What else.. hmm works pretty much good, things are starting to come a long and get a lil more interesting :)... thought I have a few doubts I have to send to another senior consultant... :) staying in God and hoping for the best :) looking and building paitence through it all... long suffering conclusion = good :)

:: When the World looks at you and laughs at you, go ahead and laugh with them, coz you know God's on your side::
God bless ya all~
-Chris

Random Poem? as for pics I think I will post in face book later :P

Here goes boys and gals:

Life is like a long journey, and there will be many worries.
But in the time of your life, never give up the journey.
You maybe feel lonely, or even feel the pain and need,
But know this much is true, that there's some one for you!

IN life and death there's beauty, and in time there is many bounties,
you may feel so empty, but know that you are worthy,
death my speak as nasty as bitterness of the world,
But some one has made you worthy, you are not alone in this world,
But instead have been made worthy, trough some one who loves you.

All around the world, disasters makes it's role,
As things happen and things pass, many will come and many will go,
But stay in this love and person who made you worthy,
and you will see all that is lovely, as trees bring forth flowers in spring,
so it the beauty of those who can make you cosy,

Today you have a life that's been classified as worthy,
because the one who was worthy has now made you worthy,
Jesus loves you and died for you, in all of his holiness,
His blood was poured out, and now you are more than worthy,
if you do not know this man who is Holy, make sure you do come and get to know,
because I grantee that it's all worthy it, to become more than just worldly.
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Thats all folks.. God bless
-Chris

Emotions~

Hey... yea me again :D. Funny thing or topic eh? I think emotions are pretty werid.. make u sad happy in love.. ect,.. You knwo some times you plan and you know what is right, but some times u fall so much into a crush haha... ah well... what to do? I guess the only solution is to tell yourself and your heart, NO it's not TIME yet.... haha a bit like torturing yourself really to avoid pains and unwanted splits in a well going relationship. alright feel liek writing some thing random here goes~

The skies fill with the morning dew, and clouds bloat as the skies blew.
As the morning rises, so does the birds, but only one waits in patience,
IN built in instincts one bird waits for the right time. to soar, in time and fly through skies.
Patience is a long suffering, a suffering that one must bear, but why?
if Patience is good, then why is it suffering? yet no one really wants to be bothering.
Everyone's in the mood of loving, yet the time of waiting is around.
winds blow right and left, but time flows in a constant speed.
light moves in speeds of no match, but relationships grow with time.
As random as a rose raises from the ground, so are people who come in and out.
As time passes and people rushes, stand still and wait. feel time moving around you,
And know this~ that you are special and no one can take that from you.
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Random eh.. as for stories.. I'll write when I am inspired :) thats all for today folks!

-Chris

Death or life

so which one.. haha.. I just feel so lost recently... feel real bad.. and sad FOR NO REASOn.. as if I lost.. some one special in my life.. I dunno why... maybe liek Jerm said girl trapped in guys body... haha... sigh.. Freaking tearing back then.... n ask ppl to pray.. one nudged me on msn.. n woke me up from my comfy tearing on bed..

sigh.. what to do... maybe it starts off with realizing.. how much of no life u have haha... but who knows.. apparently I am important in this world to a few people.. whom would probally disagree with me haha,,, I'd wish the best for everyone.. and If I'd ever died... I want u all to know, your life was special to me :). Each time each moment.. every second, every minute... I wouldn't trade any of it for the treasures of this world.. I want you all to know... if I ever died unexpectedly , that none of it was God's plan... well not the death.. and that I'm sure I'm happy in heaven with Christ now by my side...

To all I love and hold dearly.. to all my enemies whom became a friend, to those who are still enemies to those I have been angry towards.. and all those in Christ's family ... Stay strong and focused.. and remember, I'll see you in heaven!

-Chris

Realization

..yea came back from SG recently.. form training in DB2 pretty useful in making me understand a bit better on how to monitor n back up and all lol... But the trip also made me realize... how much I miss my friends I have made in Malaysia.. in my life... Friends have always been just people who pass by.. and you get new ones, cherish them then enjoy time and then move on... but when I was in Singapore.. I felt such a strong force of missing my friends... all of them in Malaysia.. It's sad when my eyes opened and I realized.. I'd most likely part ways with them soon.. sigh.. haha... I'm sad for many reasons... and happy as they all pursue their dreams and desires... as Long as they stay in Christ's amazing love and family I guess they'll always be as near as Christ is...

I dunno why Singapore trip took such a toll and My trip to Uk never, maybe coz one is a career type and another is a Holiday... I realized in Singapore.. there's only a few that will be with me forever... that is, God... and eventually my wife(when I get one haha)... No wonder God made eve for Adam... you know when I got back from Singapore I felt like hugging EVERYONE... but.. then they would think it's weird. coz I only disappeared for like... 4 days? lol... it felt like a month some how.

So God Father, look after all of my bretherns and Sisters.. my fmaily.. I'm so glad you put all of them in my life, and I know many more are coming... I thank you that no matter what Your still there.. since the beginning.. oh Father.. I wanna just cry out to you... I wanna cry on your shoulders.. I hate the feeling of departing.. I know it hasn't happened yet... Thanks Father...

Yea so you all shoudl be used to my blog being mixed up haha... Ah well "Never give up" as Winston Churchill said. be liek an eagle.. just waiting for the right time to soar :)....

God bless ya all
-Chris