Miss

ok.. for all you who think it's about some one, it's not oki... :). I actually am missing God... I know how we can just come to His presence everyday... but I just miss making myself obdeient and sitting down.. just to talk to Him.. seems like work takes a lot of time.. but in fact that isn't an excuse.. I could chat to 'some one' for an hour+ on the phone.. so why not God?.... hehe.. I guess it's coz of Karen's blog... the songs in her blog just some how remind me of this time in the past.. dunno why... I just feel like... I wanna shrink back to a lil innocent child.. who knows nothing but God... but that I know won't happen :).

ahh I miss Karen :( my krazy lil sis... I didn't get to see her much at all this time when she came over! aih.. what to do Career first :).... wait till classes are over then.. wait till after 6 months then an appraisal.. any one got any idea what an appraisal is like? =p tips? or advice? hehe... oh welll....

Don't know if I can make it to church today for class.. though honestly I want to go... I just wish I had no class on sat or sunday.. I really just want a day with God.... hehe... of course I don't mind my bretherns and sisters around... would be even better if they were to fellowship (korninia?) together rather than just talking about rubbish hehe.. but hey.. can't ask too much :).

Did you know that when you enter God's family instantly you willl become part of the family... and not only that.. we will then share the same burderns.. and brothers and sisters should care... but all are learning to be forgivable I guess... No ones perfect... what would you think of me if I told you I murdered some one before? and innocent life that never even had a chance to walk on thier own 2 feet.. then u'll probally think, I should be condemned for life.. and you can never forgive me... but now I ask you.. all that truly know me now as a brother.. would you forgive me? if this incedent happened 12 yrs ago?... you see... I dunno personally you will all probally say nah Chris can't do such a thing.. this is what forgivness does changes a person in whole.. hehe obviously I didn't murder some one... or prehaps I did.. I am not so sure about that one myself... but according to witnesses I didn't do it... heh.. no blood involved dun worry.. if ur curious then u ask me later when u get to know better if you already know me and your close to me then you will already know :)... a touch of forgivness changes.. a person is willing to repent makes them whole... and thanks giving and gratitude makes the diff...

" I can't bring the person I killed back, but I sure can change so that I don't make the same mistake twice, I can save lives instead of taking."

what would such a qoute be in your heads? inconcievable?... or yea I think he can do it... or there's no way to forgive such a person! well.. you know what.. I think everyone reading this has murdered before.. just being angry is considered murder...

1 John 3:15 Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him

So have u eve rbeen angry against any one? just the thought is enough... so before you condemn some people for doing such horrid things to you or any one else then... think of this:

-What would the person himself think?

-What would Jesus do? aka WWJD

>A Sudanese Christian boy has his knees and feet nailed to a board and he is left to die. When rescued he says he forgives the man who did this because Jesus was also nailed and forgave him.

>A Vietnamese pastor is sentenced to two years in prison. When he is offered an early release, he declines stating that he has a group of new Believers >in the prison he has to disciple.

>A Colombian missionary is kidnapped and told she only has two hours to live. She tells her captors that if she only has two hours to live, she wants to spend it telling them about Jesus.

Brothers and sisters.. if you knew that when you die you would go to heaven, and you were held in a situation where death was the obvious result, what would you do?... when you know the person who is about to finish you off is not saved.. when you know if he was caught he will be killed and never have a chance to even hear about Jesus.. TO me I think many of us look for those, 'mid range sinners' not that there is such thing.. but we tend to rank sins.. then we think hmm I would love to share Christ with a sinner who you know.. has a clean police report.. or hasn't done something so bad like u know rape.. or murder.. yea as long as they havn't done those things then I shall share..

what do you think about this? No offence is meant to be directed to all... just wanted to shed some light in some dark areas.. and yes it might actually hurt.. but I do not intend to hurt you to make you feel like crap but hurt you so that you can be lifted up :)..

Psalms 27:6 Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses.

God bless ya all,

-Chris