lifes race

I Belive, your life, is so specail, so very specail...
dont give up, don't lose it... just because some thing has happened
If you lost your girlfriend it's not the end, no no~
if you lost your boy friend.. don't take your life, dont loooose it
Coz theres still people out there, who care for you, who love you

come hold my hand, lets walk this race of life together,
here take my sheild, come on lets fight off these attacks.
Don't give up coz there's always some one who cares Dont give up
Don't give uup, coz I know theres one person in this world who will^.
care for you

your life is so precious, dont lose it coz of your lover.. who broke your heart
I know how it fee~ls. Theres still some one specail out there, for you ou ou.
Or maybe you never know~ that one day that one lover will regret n comme back to you
cooome back to you.

Changed

yes it's been a long tough road.. and many rocks broken glass has beirced me on the way... but I have to continue walking this journey of life no matter what. In my head thoughts rush through... zoom~ yea.. I noticed I've become alot bitter? or less sweet either way got be the same thing.. I try to help.. but my words seem less meanignful... I want to help.. i want for your trust in me,... somethigns happened n theres nothign i can do about it... just beome bolder i guess...

some itmes life is just rocky path.. a path that no one can clean up for u but yourself... money cant clean it just mkae it worste~ everything is so temporary like... I sung a song to my self I'll share it in a mintue sums up most of my thoughts i had in my mind... the way i am to my friends... nothing but a last thought a moement in time where u could just seek me^^ n I'm glad i can be a shoulder for u to cry on... to rejoice with ^^

the song

When you needed me most, I've always wondered when... u always needed me to begin with.. I know this life is tough,If i wasnt here how many times would you wonder when I was all your...life? oh yea... I just wonder now... I wonder if I appeared only when you needed me most. how many times would I apear~ I'm just guessing n guessing n thinking over n over... in my head it says you would think 5 times a yr, I doubt u needed me at all, n I know u dont need me... I'm just so sorry I wasnt there when u really needed me... I really am, yes iam, if i could go back help u i would, I'm sorry yes i am I wish i would be there for you.. yes i am sorry i wasnt there, yes i am sorry i wasnt there when you needed me the most~ when your needed me the most...

Strange?

lol yay my array has changed at the bottom great huh~n a nice video clip... ne way i thank syed for that coz he has that video code thingy on his blog so i went to the site n stole one :P not that the fact they actully give it out for free...


Aint it werid?, I mean life... just striking u liek that! it hurts so badly... lol but then again it can be so pleasurable... I noticed... I'm less sexually active now LOL but thats coz I'm not as horny :P shhh Ididnt write this... but who the heck cares i liek to be more open then others! got a prob? huh?! alright tell me n I'll try to chnage that prob for ya=P.. yea i notice hwo I got over my break up... It was like 2 day thing.. but then after like one month it started to come back to me... heh its kinda werid, prehaps its the loniless thing? how u felt so lonily before.. then u found some one, but when u lose that some one... every time u get lonily that one person will come back in your head... ah wellz~ happens to ash alot :P ASHLEY not ashraf get ya facts right! :Pwell that was a long time ago yea i dunno how to spell either but i dont care :P ne wayz just wanted to update some crap for now! oh yea I'm 18!!!

a song?

Where did I ever go wrong?
baby I really loved you...
I really wish you could see~
baby I would do anything~
your wish comand~~~
and I really wish you could see I'd do anythign for you~
I just guess i wasnt good enough...
not good enough for you


heh just a lil song iw as singing came from the top of my head... while i recorded myself.. kinda went wrong at the wish part... I'm still stuck with the thought i really did love my ex... yet i need to move on, hey not a bad song for valentines eh? ^_^ ppl say moev on... but they dont themselves.. takes time.. prehaps soemthign will come along
Chris, God bless~

Is it worth it?

Why? why do i live in this world? is there even a chance of me being any use? I always fall into temptation.. i cant help it.. I stand strong.. but my wall is just made of sand.. i look strong as a army of million, yet a child can defeat me. WHY?, why do i live? if i die today would it make a difference.

Sound fimillar?

some times in life we go crazy, I mean why do we live for n all. Then if u look back in some part of your life, you have helped some one, just a small favour or large it doesnt matter. these things saved some ones life.(yay i saved some ones life so they can be tortured more!!) nah you gave them a reason to live. prehaps they could see thier true potentail, maybe that person will invent some thign great in the future maybe his decends are the most important people of the world? (or maybe it stays in a toture cycle.)why do u feel your useless? if you were, why would i care so much? if u truely were why would people cry when u die? yes I sinned yes I'm not perfect, we're human!soem say but.. Ive commited the worste evil ever. Tell me if u had a child, n he did somethign bad, would u hate that child for life? yea he did something wrong, but you would still love him/her.u tell them off to re mould them. but when u grow up you know whats wrong and right, happens you did somethign bad. well at least you will try to change at least u use your last peice of strength to change change for the better. I know some people are very pestimistic n look on the lowest dawns of life. think about nit, if we all though tlike that to begin with which we do at one point, why do we still live up to today!

this is Chris sighing off!