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I'm glad for what i have been through, I'm glad that my life was harsh to me.. people suffer so much worste than me... I'm glad to be where i am today.. God's guided me, he's guided all those I prayed for. They dun see it, I see it, thier here today.. some are most lielkly my friends.. but i duns ee it, Coz God's already worked his Glory on them... they ain't accepted him, but it's cool coz I knwo he's been answering. God blesses thorough his love not through favour...
 
A parent wants the best for a child, but a child repels it, thier so lucky.. why? they feel so clenctched on to, too tight? ya thats why... but you know what? thier so lucky... I'm lucky my Dad cares for me.. tho I get pissed art hsi remarks... so why dun he come n do somethign abt it.. guess he thinks self expereince is better.... look now all i am doing is sitting infront of the com.. I miss a=hanging out with Sam, in town n all or any other friends like andrew to themeparks, now I'm just wastign my life away... i look back now.. not when i am old n realise hwo much i have wasted...
 
SO what are you waiting for  enjoy yourself... there's no point wating your self ove nothing like i am... I am a gammer I love htis but i miss much, I wish i had friend liek i had in UK... but i guess they are less open in Malaysia.. this showsi do miss my friends in uk. Heck I actually care for thier health... thier life.. heh like a parent i want them to have the best... actually I'm greatful if they gave me even somethign i hate, they gave me somethign I should enjoy every moment of it, optimisim is gd, I hate it when i get depressed for nothing, Some say that you should take care of yourself before others. YEs they are right, but I want myfriends and family to have the best. belive it or not i can say I love them at this very moment... I knwo when i read this again it's gonna be like what the heck did i write this... but coz of soem one very gd I see much gd in me...
 
though others God answers your prayers, it's true, through faith you can heal, its true happened to me. I'll tell ya /God's great you'll tell me isit? or say ye, or no... but any other way i knwo he's answered my prayers. I'm thankful that i knwo the poeple i knwo today it's just great!!! I dun care if your the worste n most annoyign person on this world that has no life ro the most noturious popular gal int he world your my friend n u deserve to live your life the fullest no m,atter what others say... I knwo that you arn't gonna read this.. but it makes me proud to knwo your there. =)
this is a post i havn't written before, I ain't beeen optimistic for a long time,
specail thanks to a friend of mine i met, and I know that it was right to meet.. no names dun beg your not gonna get it :P unelss your that person.
Chris sighnign off cioaz n thanks for being my friend or enemy which i dun care your one of me still ^^

hmm...

I have actually been wondering.. well, hasn't every one..
wondering why does this world have so many depressed kids...
isit coz they thirst for confort? or do they want friends they really want to trust...
or is it just coz hey have so little friends... no ones there to help..
 
ya.. depression.. it's sad... it's like a whirl wind.. that brings u to the bottom of the 'bottomless' pit. ay u'd think u'd keep falling till u hit the bottom.. for me.. I some times get depressed... It could be coz I hav't got much friends to talk abt, or i have too mnay friends n i msis most of them in uk... it's hard to say. Some times it's coz i think of how pathetic i have done.. or how useless i am. but I know one thing Is how i never realised that I have so many friends that care for me.. n i care for them. soem times I can see they don;t see that i care. but it's life i guess, heh prehaps it's best nto for most of them to know i actually care.
 
I know you guys are here for me.. but what am i seeking through depression... there's no point in it... yet it seems to have a confort in it, I dunno how to explain. brings you down and makes you think, of all your mistakes but not your sucess.. makes your sucess seem miniscule, but I want to tell ya, your sucess is what brought u here today, your mistakes are what made you great. Your depression is what drives u out, dun giev the devil a ride, he always wants to be the driver...
 
thats if for now this is chris
sighning off~

COolies~~

Well, any wayz.. I just made a new net friend last week end..
haha when i first saw her on  GB, and heard her talking.. she was like what does it matter to you, why should i tell you... lol rebelent :P hey but she still agreed to me adding her to my =buddy list.. haha Got to know her, nah she's actually quite a cool person, she listens n helps ^^ kinda :P jokes around, tho can seem abit serious at times when your joking around.. but it's cool. Huh! she likes making me embarrassed... nah.. it's hard when you got an embarrassing hair cut from your sis to get even more embarrassed!!!! any hows havn't got to know her very well, but it's still nice to meet her. I just realised alot of ausriallians play gunbound @_@ lol, I met Mas the same way... nto that i know his real name unless that is his real name lol he's learning arrays MWHAHAHA GD LUCK MAS!!!... ne ways as for me.. I been coughing badlynwo a sore throat SUX!  i gotta suck these sweet tablets thingy thta tastes... wait... they taste quite gd.. mmm~~ ne wayz :P just put it in my mouth, like i was saying.. running nose.. any one can help me spell artifect correctly?!!!?!?! the small pink tablets u take when u have a running nose!!! ahah this is a long post... yes yes.. ash this post is abit long, and yes not enough punctuation LIKE IT CARE:P so.. we gonna meet up? yea.. as for my PET sister she just scared me she ent a text.. as a prank... a freaking prank... very very annoying!!!! dangerous playign with ones feelings... grrr... repel :P not lol nvm then kk this is
pin3
piney
Chris
SIghning off~~~ bzzzt transmission over...

A sad story From a document

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half. Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with. Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh n silence for a while) Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game Peter: Eh? What game? Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think? Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months. Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go? Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now. Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home) Day 2: Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star. Day 3: They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time. Day 7: Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something. Day 25: Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while. Day 67: They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek. Day 84: Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting. Day 99: They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench. 1:23 pm Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first. Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like? Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine. 1:43 pm Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her. Stranger: Is your name Tina? Tina: Yes, and may I help you? Stranger: Justnow down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend. Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh. 11:51 pm Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket. The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said. Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you. 11:58 Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU. As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days. NOTE* Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. You never know whats going to happen tomorrow. You never know who will be leaving you and never return

Well then, It's so hot hto hot... or in my words,
I've fallen on my knees
where are you
I need you here friend..
I helped u,
but your still ahead
you never came back...
now I have the burning within..
BURNS!!! hot HOt hot..
Argh is it anger?
no it's sorrow btu why does it burn
need water...

IS it ok?

Is it ok to be sad? knwoign that every one u care for drifts away?
Is it ok to be sad.. knwoing that the person u once wanted to say I love u leaves?
is it ok to be sad?
When u know that every one on this earth hates u but not realsie that more poeple care for you?
Is it ok to be sad?
when u care for every one in this world inludicng your enimies, but knwo how much they hate u on this earth
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Forgive thy enimies i say.. For get what they did move on!
To the person you wanted to say I love you... It's not to late go search explore n say it ... if they are taken say it any way for gratification....
those u care for drift away? did they drift away or did u drift away?
every one hates you coz they dunno hwo to say I care for you ...
P.S the top is what i had in my mind ... the bottom are answers for you people out there... for me ... I have no answers for myself just walk the path with Jesus ^^
God bless
Chris~~