TAGGED

oooo.. been tagged by john! Something to post about I guess :P

The tag rules: Each player starts with 8 random fact/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag 8 people and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog.


So, here goes, the 8 things about me:

1. I used to be a bible study teacher :P
2. I used to have fits.. when going to areas with high frequency of flickering lights>eg tv.. or one of those games u play that has the flashing lights.
3. Refering to point 2 I've been healed from the sickness! Praise God for answering my prayer!
4. I sing my own worship songs and record them o.O;
5. I can speak in several accents :P (only english)
6. I was NOT born in UK, but I was there since I was 2. returned to m'sia at age 14.
7. I have a strange sense of loving to make those clip on models.. and paint them
8. I love to make visions of self -made stories (movie like style xD)

this is not a new post... just something for flee to copy n paste :P and alexander perhaps :P coz they cant find my previous post wahahaha

Love love love

As beautiful as the flowers that make the field attractive,
as cool as the wind blowing in the hot sunny day,
so is the time I feel for you.

As wonderful as the perfectly cut diamond,
and as memezrising as the most creatively made crystal,
so are your eyes to me.

Captivated in your love,
captivated by your beauty,
oh how wonderful are you!

I miss you now,
I miss you when we say good bye,
I love you much, my heart and dear.

as we grow, as God takes part in our growth,
I'm so glad I met you girl,
You are that rainbow that shows in the rain,
you are that precious diamond that is amongst al the glass,
You are my love my dear my girl =)

I love you with all of my heart~!

-Chris
::Love is a wonderful thing, we go through it, from hurts, pains, joyful moments, stressful moments, werid moments... any moment, it's still love::

Uncontrollable!

::WARNING THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST AND BY FAR THE MOST RIGHT IN THE FACE POST WRITTEN ON THIS BLOG, VULGAR LANGUAGE HAS BEEN USED BUT CENSORED::

We live in such an impersonal world these days, and even when we do live in a personal area of zone. We will never find satisfaction. In life we will face frustrations, frustrations come from no being able to be God Himself and control the situation, We want everything to go our splendid way, and when it doesn't we go and we just lose it we go berserk! throw a fit like a big baby.

Then when everything is going according to plan, we take every last miniute for granted. ok I can't speak for you but this is how I have felt before.We will never have satifaction on trying and striving to control situations, then when we don't need to have these extra things with us we go ahead an feed on them.. so much so we come fat full of the negative, thinking yes I am strong I won't fall... But when the time comes and you fall BAMM! your on your face again.

But I gotta say your not a loser if you get up again, your a loser if you stay down. Worste of all is, when we can't be God we will blame God for it instead of talking to him about it, We'll start to gnash at our on friends not being able to see who is helping and who is not. Eventually God will send some one to give you a GREAT SLAP! a slap is what you need.. and dang if only you could give yourself a slap to wake up...

But you see after all the fustration... we tend to fall into depression.. and we don't call for help because depression is a comfort zone of itself.. it eats you a live whilst making you feel in complete comfort and SELF PITY. Yeap I said it, I was in self pity before too... making my self sad to be NOTICED by not EVERYONE but that ONE person... yea sad eh? but so true.. then you yourself will start comforting AS WELL AS condemning yourself.. and it gets mroe n mroe comfortable in this pit of death... When really deep down in your heart you want freedom from this pit.. But it feeels so gooooddd you wouldn't want to come out of it.

But I tell you, when I decided to give it to God and when God sent some one to slap me awake, I realised I could live without depression and enjoy life... depression will come back to test ya, to show you that you ARE HUMAN and you HURT, and YOU ARE NOT GOD it also shows you that YOU NEED GOD, YOU NEED FRIENDS, YOU DON'T NEED COMFORT BUT A FRIGGING SLAP. haha... true enough, if friends comfort you it;s not enough, I'm sorry to say IT IS NOT ENOUGH! It'll just make you stay in that PIG sty feeding off PIG food till the day you die or realise hey My Father treats His SLAVES better than this person depression..

When you come to s stage where you say MY LIFE SUCKS, it HAS NO MEANING, it's all in VAIN! Then you want to get rid of it.. fall into an endless pit of sleep and never wake up again! This is where you make your decision... IF YOUR LIFE is not worth what YOU want it to be, GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT TO GOD, LET HIM USE IT. I tell you.. thats what happened to me.. I got to a stage, I'm useless and surrendered my life to God... heck I'm not a good person, but at least I know if my life isn't worth anything it's up to God to deal with it. After all it belongs to him, and not I'd rather not give it to the devil, coz personally i don't want anymore self pityness and bring others down.

I tell you now, WAKE UP, This is how it happened to me, through fustrations of uncontrolable beings, realising fire doesn't take out fire but makes the forest burn faster! when I realised HATE never really get any HATE out of the equation but make more ANGER. When you realise that depression if just a f*cking illusion now F**KING WAKE UP! if your useless if your life is in vain GIVE IT TO GOD SO HE CAN DO SOMETHING WITH IT.. STOP HOLDING IT SO TIGHT... STOP TRYING TO BE GOD...

And I tell you.. you don't need to pick up a shield and run with me, Coz God will be your sheild till the end.

Darkness never drives out darkness, only light does,
Hate never drives out hate, only love does,
Depression never drives out Depression, Revalation does.

I tell you friends, whatever is happening in on above around this decaying peice of rock. That we are trying to save, or shall i say slow down the process of decay. YOU'VE GOT THE CHOICE, AND YES YOU ARE CHOOSING WHAT YOU ARE CHOOSING NOW AND NOW IS THE TIME.

God bless ya all,
-Chris
::Sound the Jubilee - RLC::

Love story - Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

dunno

Dunno what to post... Blabla lets do soemthing random:

The stars glow and the moon shines,

People kill people love,

SO who shall we trust?

The truth will set you free,

But first it'll make you angry,

As when you cannot accept the truth,

rage will come in hunger~

Random stuff random weeee..

Thank you!

Well was down recently.. probably struggling on my own effort.. As some of you would have noticed my blog posts probably got a lil more aggressive too haha.. But My Public apologies to all I might have offended!

I want to thank God for bringing me out of the valley of shadow of death, truly I have been dwelling in it once more.. thinking everything a waste.. and God has abandoned all of us... Well not all of us mainly me! haha... But I'm glad tonight a special dear friend of mine~ Or shall I say my dear shared some things with me. It brought me up, and probably cleaned my eyes.. from that MASSIVE plank blocking my vision. I don't think many people would have done that with my kinda attitude. But I'm glad God sent her to me never the less~

Which reminded me of a verse immediately, I believe must be God speaking to me.

Ecclesiastes 4: 9-12

9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

10 If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!

11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

:) I'm glad God sends bros and sisters at right times... even when I felt my closest brothers and sisters abandoned me, there was still one standing there smacking me in the face(gently) saying wake up and taking that plank of wood outta my eyes so I can see clearly again. God is still here God is alive! AMEN

God bless ya all!

-Chris

::Woah God never gives up, He'll make sure u are up again, Using absolutly ANYONE!::

Assumptions

Why Do humans love to assume? It's what makes this world of MIS-communications so wonderous.. I've got my own theory on assumptions. Never Assume Always confirm. Assumption just brings you down the road of misery and broken relationships.. Besides that it can make you feel that ur right when your not. Then when you find out you were wrong! POOF you feel not only bad. But end up in deniel .. Haha I've experienced it before... I assumeds something got everything in to a mess.. and learnt my lesson.

Don't you think assumptions are bad? Imagine.. I assume that there are 5 hostages held in that mansion of 50 people.. u go storm in with a gun.. thinking your rescuing some hostages.. then peopel try to stop u.. u kill 25 of them and find out no one was actually in that mansion being held hostage... but preparing for a theatre act? Ouch wouldn't that be wonderful..

only time I accepted assumptions is for using it as an alternative way of saying IF.. like Assuming this and that happened... is just another way of saying IF this n this happened..

Anyhow, Another ASS uming post from me.

-Chris

Pretty much in disgust

Haha, recently read the news... What the heck man.. somethings wrong with this world =/ check it out : http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/11/19/nation/2582545&sec=nation

Can you believe it... leaving your own husband to be with another woman(tom boy), who resembles a singer you like... Crap la..

very scary, I hope this never happens to any of us =/... So screwed up. Worste part was they were like commit adultry.. What's this world come to? @_@ seems like no one knows what moral is these days.. no respect.. makes me sick!

=/ Don't normally post these kinda things haha.

TAGGED

oooo.. been tagged by john! Something to post about I guess :P

The tag rules: Each player starts with 8 random fact/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. At the end of your blog post, you need to tag 8 people and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’ve been tagged and to read your blog.


So, here goes, the 8 things about me:

1. I used to be a bible study teacher :P
2. I used to have fits.. when going to areas with high frequency of flickering lights>eg tv.. or one of those games u play that has the flashing lights.
3. Refering to point 2 I've been healed from the sickness! Praise God for answering my prayer!
4. I sing my own worship songs and record them o.O;
5. I can speak in several accents :P (only english)
6. I was NOT born in UK, but I was there since I was 2. returned to m'sia at age 14.
7. I have a strange sense of loving to make those clip on models.. and paint them
8. I love to make visions of self -made stories (movie like style xD)

Thank you John Tan for tagging me :)


Alrighty, here are the 8 bloggers who are now being tagged!!!

Kelz Kelz
Benjamin ET
William
Florence Lee
Alicia Chui(no link for personal reasons)
Alexander Tee
Alex Chui (No link for personal reasons o.O;; bro n sis alike haha)
Sze Mun

All sufficiency

Short but I feel liek posting this after reading a blog =). I know these are trying times in the world, and many retrenchments are happening, just I never felt it before. I'm guess that's a blessing in it's own way. but that's not what I Wanted to share.

Just wanted to share, that Strangely enough before realising abotu retrenchment I believe GOd made me listen to this message 2 times. By Pastor prince, He mentioned about retrenchment saying he knew many peopel who were retrenched and how it was more of a blessing than a curse! How the poeple couldn't possibly of taken a break during their working times, managed to take a break, go on holiday come back and there was a new job waiting for them! He said if you are a child of God, God has a better plan for you =).

I also believe that this verse given to me earlier this month was not a coincidence:

2 Coirinthians 9 : 6-8

6Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. 7Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. 8And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

Although it's about giving. I believe if you pray and give time to God give to your brothers and sisters, surely even through retrenchment you will have all things =) and All sufficiency.

God won't let you down ;) stay strong and faithful bros and sis =) I will keep you all in prayer! =)

-Chris

wet toilets

Today thought of posting something else.. but the person who over wrote what I wanted to say is the cleaning lady! wow.. she was speaking in malay.. I didn't understand a word.. Thank goodness, but by facial expression i could tell she was scolding me.

like WTF man... what did I do? she's not exactly considerate to think that someo ne else sprayed water on the floor and Frigging blame it on me? she should be happy.. most of the time I helped clean that damned toilet.. why don't they go install an cctv! I hoep she complains to my management so I can complain back with a letter o unsactifactory state in toilets! also complain how the cleaner didn't use her BRAIN to think. hah.. need to vent out my fustration here... whats the point in cleaners if they don't clean any way?... should be happy got somethign to clean and not aimlessly blame it on the last person u saw! imagine I walk down the street.. I see some litter next to her.. should i go blowing in her face.. HOW CAN U THROW ALL THIS ON THE FLOOR! I tell u she'd be defending her self, and I would just say. Yeap then you should have thought about the case in the toilet. Smart ass cleaners...

Any how.. She's forgiven, God still loves her the same. Hope she doesn't have such short sightedness next time and more wisdom.. if I wasn't a person whow as kind.. well she'd be in the news paper tmr morning. she's lucky it was me she thoguht she 'caught' wetting the toilet. ny How case closed!

-Chris

::Don't ASSUME unless your an ASS who is umming... In any case if you're an ASS God can still change you and use you...::

Twist & turn

to be honest I don't know why i chose
this as the title of my post.. but here
goes~

Through life's turmoil, and through all
the pains,when we walk in valleys when we walk on
mountains,There is no end to the hurt or pains...
so that was what they said to a person
named, blane.Blane was a person who always searched
for love, somewhere in his heart he
knew true love stooped, but everytime
he ever got close enough, he was
rejected... or at least felt rejected.
But one day, he met a girl named,
sophia, she was sweet as can be, and
things were going smoothly; with of
course the occasional bumps in a
relationship. For the first time in his
life Bane felt security. He felt so
complete in his life, that he forgot
about those who truly loved him for all
his life.

However his new found love was not
easy, he would leave the house of his
parents to visit sophia, each and every
day. His relationship with his parents
deterioted, and his relationship with
his friends, would now all have a
barrier.. he sacrficed his life, just
for sophia... but ironicly she didn't
do the same for him. She loved him, but
her love wasn't enough to fill the
hole.. she saw Blane, get more n more
desperate.. only wanting to draw from
her love... she was so burdened... yet
she couldn't leave.. for years she
tendered and loved him, but for years
Blane didn't get enough. He became more
desperate.. craving for her more and
more.. that she literally became his
god.

Then, during a sunny day, when all the
birds were churping, and the trees were
blooming in all thier beauty... Sophia
told Blane, with a tired expression on
her face, and shaking in her voice, she
said,"Blane, I can't take this any
more.. it's been 4 years, but in this 4
years, though i love you , I can't
satisfy you..you've got a void, and you
just want more. during that time we
broke up before, I actually felt
freedom for a while, I enjoyed it.. but
my compassion in seeing you there
tearing into bits.. just won over me,
so I came back.. but this time.. it's
not the same.. we need to separate.."

The words were like a waterfall
crashing into his heart.. Blane felt
like he was drowning in the words of
one he thought was his life, and his
all...
sophia turned her back and left...
whilst Blane was still in shock.. it
was as if some one has just given him a
crippling blow to the heart... he felt
his life was melting away... the birds
churping became silent in his ears and
every thing felt black and white... As
he sat on the floor, thoughts started
rushing through his mind.

Memories of
his parents who loved him so tenderly
and how for the past 4 years he has
been so ignorant to them, and even took
them for granted... He sat and though
of these things.. how he left the house
2 years ago out of rage, just because
his parents told him to spend more time
with them, because they missed him. In
all His anguish he did not know what to
do, who to turn to... so slowly, he
returned to his home. His thoughts were
like ants whome home was distrubed, and
scattered. He told himself, I'll
appologise.. no no.. thats not enough
for my parents, I'll beg my way.. I'll
become thier slave.. or butler.. driver
anything.. I'm nothing now... As he was
reaching home.. he saw posters which
were torn, it read: lost, Blane bows ,
if found please inform us. name your
price, he is worth more than the world
to us!
With this.. tears started streaming
down his eyes.. he fell to the floor,
muttering, " How could i be so
selfish.. my parents loved me so much,
and I forsoke them.. how can I return
to them now?.. They'll never accept me"

*screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* the sounds
of tyres scretching on the floor, out
of no where hands embraced him. He was
dirty and smelly from the long journey
home.. He was stunned when arms
suddenly grabbed him from behind.They were soft tender hands, as he turned around he couldn't believe his eyes, the beauty of a young girl, tears started to fall, and he embraced her back, "I'm back lil sis..", his sister was so happy that she couldn't stop cryign and smiling, the parents too were there, welcoming him back.. They embraced him and said welcome home.. before he could say anything they said, we are going to throw a party for your return, invite all your old buddies. and have a great time!..
________

well felt like writing this story, some may see it the same as the prodigal son, well you're correct. it's about the same, just this one falls on more how even though you might turn your back on God, for someone else.. God is always wanting you back home, to the place where you belong!
Hope you have been blessed.

-Chris
::The world might flood you with kisses and destroy you all together after that, but if you run back to God, He'll take all those shots for you and sheild you from the enemy::

A Smile

A smile is what I remember something I dreamt of, to see the world smiling.. and all in joy, I wonder if it's possible? I did once conceive it as impossible because one persons joy might be another's suffering..

But I figured, the only way to make people happy, is to be the one who is happy... Oh how I wish I could spread happiness.. but my heart is full of deceit sometimes.. laziness gets the better of me, or tiredness.. which leads to destruction sometimes.. I'm really sad to see some people sad... and the fact that they can't express it when they want to makes me hurt inside... I know how they feel.. how the world can't be trusted and how it's bad to say bad things about others.. how we love to bottle up our emotions and say everything is alright when we know it isn't!

But this how people put on masks I guess.. this is why some don't believe in God.. they put on a mask so they don't believe, when deep inside they are craving to get to God... perhaps? I didn't say all are like this, just some.. perhaps fear is holding them, or being uncertain? perhaps doubt is wandering about their minds.. What ever the reason.. I wish them peace and may their emotions and bottles be busted... so they can finally sigh not another sigh of stress.. but a sigh of final peace and relief..

Oh how I wish the church was as perfect as it should be, but i know that people are all imperfect.. and we all fear.. how I wish we could just share to our fellow brothers and sisters.. but we can't simply because sometimes what we share might not be the right thing to share... ok, though I understand that our brothers and sisters hurt us for the better good sometimes.. not all of us can see it that way.. and the hurt feels more than capable.. thats where we need to rebuild i guess... instead of fleeing to the enemies kisses...

I'm deeply grieved.. I see many people sad... but why should i be grieved? I know God will pull them out.. if I let him take the stand and control.. I guess.. coz once upon a time, I told myself I will make myself as trust worthy as possible.. make sure people trust me, so they can share, and I'll keep them in my silent prayer.. or keep their secrets at bay so they will feel better that at least some one they trust knows..

I probally failed... thats the reason why less and less people share.. it's not that gossip is what I want to hear. But I'd prefer the burden to be shared I don't mind keeping silent, as long as you think me sharing your burden will ease your pains..

Only God will know what I have come to know.. and forever it shall be like that.. even if death may come. They will only hear the truth of how Christ, has come for them.. and redeemed them too..

oh God this is my prayer tonight.. Every man and woman, in this world.. believer or not.. has a peaceful sleep.. meet up with them.. and let their load be light for just an hour or so.. if not let them come to know you and lighten up the burden forever... may they see you for who you really are.. and not for who they think you are.. I pray you shelter the orphans... heal the sick, continue to be with those who are hurting.. and mend their hearts . I thank you oh God.. I type this prayer on this blog... not for recognition.. but so that some one in this world may be at peace, and know they are prayed for... =) Thanks oh Father,

Amen.