Uncontrollable!

::WARNING THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST AND BY FAR THE MOST RIGHT IN THE FACE POST WRITTEN ON THIS BLOG, VULGAR LANGUAGE HAS BEEN USED BUT CENSORED::

We live in such an impersonal world these days, and even when we do live in a personal area of zone. We will never find satisfaction. In life we will face frustrations, frustrations come from no being able to be God Himself and control the situation, We want everything to go our splendid way, and when it doesn't we go and we just lose it we go berserk! throw a fit like a big baby.

Then when everything is going according to plan, we take every last miniute for granted. ok I can't speak for you but this is how I have felt before.We will never have satifaction on trying and striving to control situations, then when we don't need to have these extra things with us we go ahead an feed on them.. so much so we come fat full of the negative, thinking yes I am strong I won't fall... But when the time comes and you fall BAMM! your on your face again.

But I gotta say your not a loser if you get up again, your a loser if you stay down. Worste of all is, when we can't be God we will blame God for it instead of talking to him about it, We'll start to gnash at our on friends not being able to see who is helping and who is not. Eventually God will send some one to give you a GREAT SLAP! a slap is what you need.. and dang if only you could give yourself a slap to wake up...

But you see after all the fustration... we tend to fall into depression.. and we don't call for help because depression is a comfort zone of itself.. it eats you a live whilst making you feel in complete comfort and SELF PITY. Yeap I said it, I was in self pity before too... making my self sad to be NOTICED by not EVERYONE but that ONE person... yea sad eh? but so true.. then you yourself will start comforting AS WELL AS condemning yourself.. and it gets mroe n mroe comfortable in this pit of death... When really deep down in your heart you want freedom from this pit.. But it feeels so gooooddd you wouldn't want to come out of it.

But I tell you, when I decided to give it to God and when God sent some one to slap me awake, I realised I could live without depression and enjoy life... depression will come back to test ya, to show you that you ARE HUMAN and you HURT, and YOU ARE NOT GOD it also shows you that YOU NEED GOD, YOU NEED FRIENDS, YOU DON'T NEED COMFORT BUT A FRIGGING SLAP. haha... true enough, if friends comfort you it;s not enough, I'm sorry to say IT IS NOT ENOUGH! It'll just make you stay in that PIG sty feeding off PIG food till the day you die or realise hey My Father treats His SLAVES better than this person depression..

When you come to s stage where you say MY LIFE SUCKS, it HAS NO MEANING, it's all in VAIN! Then you want to get rid of it.. fall into an endless pit of sleep and never wake up again! This is where you make your decision... IF YOUR LIFE is not worth what YOU want it to be, GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT TO GOD, LET HIM USE IT. I tell you.. thats what happened to me.. I got to a stage, I'm useless and surrendered my life to God... heck I'm not a good person, but at least I know if my life isn't worth anything it's up to God to deal with it. After all it belongs to him, and not I'd rather not give it to the devil, coz personally i don't want anymore self pityness and bring others down.

I tell you now, WAKE UP, This is how it happened to me, through fustrations of uncontrolable beings, realising fire doesn't take out fire but makes the forest burn faster! when I realised HATE never really get any HATE out of the equation but make more ANGER. When you realise that depression if just a f*cking illusion now F**KING WAKE UP! if your useless if your life is in vain GIVE IT TO GOD SO HE CAN DO SOMETHING WITH IT.. STOP HOLDING IT SO TIGHT... STOP TRYING TO BE GOD...

And I tell you.. you don't need to pick up a shield and run with me, Coz God will be your sheild till the end.

Darkness never drives out darkness, only light does,
Hate never drives out hate, only love does,
Depression never drives out Depression, Revalation does.

I tell you friends, whatever is happening in on above around this decaying peice of rock. That we are trying to save, or shall i say slow down the process of decay. YOU'VE GOT THE CHOICE, AND YES YOU ARE CHOOSING WHAT YOU ARE CHOOSING NOW AND NOW IS THE TIME.

God bless ya all,
-Chris
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