Almost

As He walked on by life... He looked into the sky.. then with a sigh he looked back on the floor... life to him was nothing..
[lets change the narrative]
January
Well My life sucks as usual... some times I wish I had the courage to go up some people and say Hey, hwo are you... your looking nice today... but hey that's only once in a blue moon... I walked on by into my own quaters again, into my hiding place, my place of loniliness where I could hide from all people...
Febuary
I don't understand, This worlds getting tougher as it goes on.. I wish I could break down n cry, but... No no don't even think about it... lifes not going to get any better by crying.. this world around me seems to be closing up on me... all the "friends" I have can't seem to get any closer than 500 yards.. to tell you the truth.. how do I open my heart to some one? I wish I had some one which people called "best friends" "close buddies" some one you could talk to and pour out everything... and they would just reply wiht a nod or something.. But I know no ones there.. who is there to listen? a void is in me and I feel nothing.. If only I knew what friends were..
May
The sky is beautiful today, it's a wonder that soem people belive that "God" created it, some itmes I wish I knew God... or this person God.. they say u can talk to him and speak to him and He'd listen... but when I try... I don't feel it why?
June
Today I spoke to a friend.. He told me how the world was formed in God's hand... He told me what are you doing for God? and that hit me.. what am I doing? do I even believe... who is "God" and what does he want for me.. I don't understand... No one cares in this world.. God can you hear me? I feel like crying again... but I have no time for this
July
I saw a girl today.. She told me I will amount to nothing.. I don't even deserve to be alive... well I choose to believe that she said it out of anger coz I tried to ask her out n win her heart.. but I failed.. or prehaps she's right... I do amount to nothing... hmm.. who can hear me? respond...
August 12th
Today is my rest day as I sit in my chair I think about what my Dad told me.. how I couldn't do anything to the best... why can't I make it? WHY IS THERE a barrier... is htis my limit.. am I this low.. this useless... Well God if you can hear me.. hear me please... tommorrow I am goign to "church" dunno what's it about but I think it'll do some good.
August 13th
Well I am back from church... I'm still considering if I should accept God into my heart or not... The message was so touching... "You are everything to Him" some how I feel it was for me.. but I think I'll go a few more times...
August 19th
Today I saw the girl I liked again..she smiled at me... then spat in my face, and said your a loser... get lost you fuckhead... I wish I knew why she was like this... why she kept condemning me..
August 20th
Today this is my plan walk and look into the sky.. for it's beauty amazes me.. and I want to see it just like that and remmeber it just like that before I look down into my death... or is it worth it to die? Maybe I'll wait for one more hcurch service first..

[changing back to the 3rd person narative]
As he looked down the cliff He turned around.. but as He turned He slipped..and fell... and lay at the bottom of the cliff... crushed... in his hand was a peice of paper written on it was "Should I accept God today?"

How he almost accepted Christ.. "Almost" the worste word in the english dictionary Today and now is the best time.. but everything is almost.. the other day I watched the news and some kenya almost made it to the finish line.. He's legs gave way.. and he hit his head on the floor and damaged it severely.. Hwo he almost won the race.. one step.. caught on video.. today and now is so important.. almost and now can make the difference... I wish I could tell you to accept Christ now.. but it's up to you still.. but let it be not almost you were saved like this guy... in this story...

God bless you all..
-Chris