Reflections

You know sometimes you think on days, and these are one of those days for myself. We try to be happy and keep a positive vibe in life, but we all know its' never going to be all ups and now downs, highs without lows. But I suppose that's what makes life beautiful, and gives us a reason to be able to give honour where honour is due, praise where praise is due, to be able to think of these things. I know as you read my blog, you will see a huge mix of emotions from the teenager version of myself 10 years or more ago, to a very "Christian" version of myself posting as much encouragement as possible. But I have no regrets on those posts, I am more than glad if even one person stumbles on this blog and finds encouragement. But because I am real, there's other things thrown into the mix.

Well, I've been in Singapore for almost 6 months now, the initial phase was hectic, I have always been longing to go home, but I know some how, this project was by God's grace, in order for the correct financial flow to come in for wedding preparations, with the ringgit weakening and the exchange rate increasing it was good money.  But my honest reflections were that my heart was low, as if covered in a black murky clouds, lonely, and yearning for friends.But Praise to God for helping sending colleagues down as well as a friend who helped show love. An act of Christ I would say, stretched out an arm and offered what I would say a cup of water. Thank you Pheobe :). However now I am being extended for another 6 months I don't feel too bad, but I don't feel great either. Perhaps its me missing my poiema family back in Malaysia.. Not that I am the most sociable, But I do miss others that have left. Rosy, is one those :).

As I continue to reflect on lives, I realise it's not the place you are put in, but the people who make the place what it is. I am thankful for the few but great friends I have, William, Alicia, Ash to name a few. I am also very intrigued by a few such as Esther and Melissa, but they will probably never know, but that doesn't matter because I will write it here none the less, I saw them when they were young, not so tall, till they grew to extremely beautiful women, both of which would hit very high numbers if guys were to rate them, but with the physical they too have an amazing heart and personality, something of which is a rarity in this world where people are always trying to find themselves. I wish that they will continue on this path of light, and that one day God will send some one extremely special to them, who will treat them with respect, honour and love! As well as other things. May God satisfy their souls.

I am so grateful for people, genuine friends, who stuck by my side, I enjoy their company. And so my life will change soon too. I will have another entering into unison with myself :). I am glad, I will rejoice, because I am certain this is God's blessing into my life. Thank you kaylee, my dearest, and closest to my heart. You have been with me a long time, and through that time we have stretched through things that have been both bad and good, but that's what makes our relationship so much more real than anything else, a huge part of my heart belongs to you, I hope we have more days ahead as we become one flesh, and leave our parents to make a new life in God. What an electrifying and amazing thing to expect. God is good :).

To all those who have read so far, and have been coming back to my blog now and again, I thank you for reading, May your life hold many blessings, many exciting things, many happiness and comfort in times of sorrow. Keep a smile on your face, God loves you, Jesus knocks on the door of your heart, it's all good!

Blessings!
Chris

The year of ... Well 2015

It's been ages since I last blogged, I guess the trend of blogging has been left in my past and the days when creative juices were shooting up in huge quantities.  But as time goes by, life takes you on a ride, and you become more aware of the things that happen around you and some what the eyes that are penetrating deep into your every move.

But I must say a lot has happened. In my life and all that is around me, I learned that money is important, but useless without a community, a friend, a group, a partner to share your life with. As such is the things we learn when we chase after careers then look around and find no one to share joy with.

But God is good.

He sends people to you, and reminds you of the joy and value of each person around you, the heightening of happiness bursting forth, just by meeting for but a short period of time. He sends colleagues to aid you from sinking into the deepest darkest hours. Sets joy in your heart even in the most depressing times which stretch you wide and thin... till you feel the tightness of stress surrounding you. Yet still you don't break, you may hurt, you may feel pressured, but you have joy, you have someone, a sense of stability, of which is our rock, The Christ.

I appreciate each and everyone I meet as I go along this journey of life. I want to bless you guys, encourage you, never to give up, always knowing that God is by your side, He has you on His right hand, He will provide a way even if it doesn't feel like a super happy and stress free life, but He makes it worth it. He will cover you so that the arrow by night does not destroy you, the flame in a cold shivering winter, and the light in the darkest moments. This is our God, El Shaddai, The great I AM, creator and Father of us all.

So Sing Alle-lu-ia. Coz God's got your back. and He'll love you, after all, He did it all for us.

Philippians 1:6
being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

Many blessings and love to you who are reading this.
-Chris

Finding my First love again

Revelations 2:1-6

1 To the angel (messenger) of the assembly (church) in Ephesus write: These are the words of Him Who holds the seven stars [which are the messengers of the seven churches] in His right hand, Who goes about among the seven golden lampstands [which are the seven churches]:

² I know your industry and activities, laborious toil and trouble, and your patient endurance, and how you cannot tolerate wicked [men] and have tested and critically appraised those who call [themselves] apostles (special messengers of Christ) and yet are not, and have found them to be impostors and liars.

³ I know you are enduring patiently and are bearing up for My name’s sake, and you have not fainted or become exhausted or grown weary.

⁴ But I have this [one charge to make] against you: that you have left (abandoned) the love that you had at first [you have deserted Me, your first love].

⁵ Remember then from what heights you have fallen. Repent (change the inner man to meet God’s will) and do the works you did previously [when first you knew the Lord], or else I will visit you and remove your lampstand from its place, unless you change your mind and repent.

⁶ Yet you have this [in your favor and to your credit]: you hate the works of the Nicolaitans [what they are doing as corrupters of the people], which I Myself also detest.

something just speaks to me, when I was reading this, I hear many a times in worship, the phrase finding my first love again, or going back to my first love and all. I couldn't really understand it fully but I knew it meant God and that was good enough. But today I read the above it kinda swung a new perspective in all that I have been thinking and doing. I was reading what the church of Ephesus did according to Revelations, it seemed all well, you know dicerning teachings that were false, enduring, bearing Christ's name and not giving up or falling weary on such things.. Yet the thing that Christ holds against them just blew me away. 

You have left the love that you had first! When I read this, it really hits the nail on the head, that we can do so much, and miss the point, miss who it was at first that is the foremost important, the one whose relationship we should seek out most of all. This has been on me for many days, that if we are doing everything a Christian is suppose to do, BUT the most important thing, then we are all missing the mark by a space shot... By that I mean, we love each other, care, we give to the poor, reject heresy's, accept those who come back into repentance and so forth... But we forget God, forget Jesus, forget everything about them, not that we forget them in a sense that we can't recall who they are or what they have done, nah, if we did then we wouldn't be able to bear His name sake, what I am talking about here is forgetting to commune with God, to speak to Him, to seek Him, and even to embrace Him. It is true, we can pray prayerless things. What do I mean by this? we pray, out of duty, not out of our hearts and minds towards God as a person, but pray and not be attentive to who we pray to, and make it some ritual, when you talk to someone, you talk to them. Just as you talk to God, you talk to Him, you build a relationship with Him, and you rejoice with Him. 

Just a thought of mine when I read this. But the beautiful part of it all, is when you do find your first love again, you realise how amazing His love is for us, forgiving and gracious. When we find out first love again, we can smile and thank Him for all He has done. Give Him the praise and honour and glory, and live a life with Him.

Father, Today I pray, I thank you, and I honour you. Keep my feet in your presence, and my eyes fixated upon you. I thank you for your grace, your love, and your mercy. I thank you for all you have done, forgive me for walking away, or around you. Thank you for always being there, always being faithful, I return to you, my first love. Teach me daily, walk with me, I know you will. I praise your name and my your kingdom reign forever and ever.

Amen.  

Psalm of exaltation

(plucking, psalm, literal to pluck)

C Em Am G x2 (intro)

C Em Am G

Constant and wonderful,

C Em Am G

Full of love and hope,

C Em Am G

Ever present and ever seeking,

C Em Am G

Comforter and ruler,

C Em Am G

The perfect Sacrifice.

C Em Am G

Never failing,

C Em Am G

Always ruling,

C Em Am G

Healer, and maker of all things.

C E Am E

Fill our hearts with light,

C E Am E

Fill our hearts with your glory,

C E Am E

Consume us with your fire,

C E Am E

Purify us in your love.

C Em Am G

C Em Am G

Seeker of the lost,

C Em Am G

And restorer of hope.

C Em Am G

Truth and life,

C Em Am G

Bread of life.

C Em Am G

The blood that cleanses.

C Em Am G

Ever seeking,

C Em Am G

Ever open,

C Em Am G

Embracer of those who return.

C E Am E

Fill our hearts with light,

C E Am E

Burn within us a passion,

C E Am E

Your unrelenting love.

C E Am E

Cause us to love.

To my Father

There is truly none like you Father,
There's really no one who could compare to you.

The greatest human pales in comparison to the weakest in you.
You formed the stars and galaxies in the skies,
in the heavens you spoke your word and made this world.
With your breath you gave life, to the empty body.

You called bones without hope into your glory,
You called those without purpose to find hope,
You caused the foolish to be wise
and the weak to strength!

God, My Father in Heaven, who made the universe,
whose Kingdom reigns forever in glory,
The one who set me apart, who made the most inavluable thing,
to store great treasures within!
You are Great!
You are Magnificient!
In you I will find my peace, My guidance, my substanance!
I am who I am because of who you are!
I pledge my life before you, but what I pledge is nothing compared to what you gave on that Cross for me.

Because, you gave it all that day. Oh light of the world,
Creator of all,
The word became flesh,
The lion of Judah
And the worthy lamb.

You are exhalted! You are worth, You are truth, You are guidance, You are the comfort, You are the cure to purposlessness, You have the plan, you have the hope, In you all things sustain, because of you we all live, it is you who holds the key, it is your word that stand final! because no one, no one in this world will ever compare to you.

Because you love the poor,
You love the hurt,
You love the broken, the lost, the ones that have lost all hope.

It is you who calls them, It is you who Calls them Qualified! It is you who calls them Children it is you who exhalts them and say This is my child, in whom I am well pleased! It is your glory that shines through them, that causes them to tremble in fear and awe, to walk in humbleness and still shine the greatness of all who you are.

Because you have called the foolish things of this world to shame the wise. You, are incomprehensible, You are God, You are My Father, You are the blessed and most Holy one in all the earth! God Almighty!

Amen.