Speaking it out

Hi all, I'm going to put my story aside for a bit, and dedicate this post to My Lord, and whoever he wants to speak to out there.

I'm going to be always glad to Father, first of all for bringing me up, for guiding me, and never giving up for me even though I have strayed many times. I want to be grateful because, Father, you're truly worth every moment of my time. Everytime I have fell you havn't just looked next to me and say, it's alright, but you've helped picked me up, you've helped correct me, and helped open my eyes.

Many of the church says Christainity is not a religon, and they have thier reasons, but I will always know it is, a wonderful religon, but yest it might not be religious, but it's definatly a religon of a relationship. But My Father, I want you to know, I love you very much, and I am glad you always love me the same as you first saw me, with much abundance and much love.

People are always looking for peace, people are always looking for enlightenment, answers to life, and reasons to live. Father, now I get it, We can all reach enlightenment, be it the church or likewise, we can all find our own sense of peace, but we can't find the answer, which is found in you, the reason which is found in you, we can have everything under the sun like King Solomon said, but all of this is nothing, we can have it all, and yet be depressed. We can have peace enlightenment, but still have no answer or reason. Father I'm even sure we can find ways to be happy, but I'm sure there are sad times for a reason, and I've found out in no matter what season, you're still there, rejoicing or mourning with us. And through it all, you still want the best for us.

It's not about how much we can do in our lives Father right? It's about how much you can do with our lives, it's not scary at all now I see it all ahead, there's certainty, and direction. A calling and an answer, a light and a hope. But most of all Father there's you.

I know you desire not sacrifice, but love, and I'm glad the church loves you very much.

To you whoever is reading this, these words are for you, you can seek it all, be consumed by it all, but at the end of it all, have you found that answer you have been looking for? or just reached a point of enlightenment, denying the truth, and hoping what you hold on to will not rot as our bodies will in the ground. Seek out the truth, but not a lie, ask and seek, but not to prove things wrong, but to ttruly find what you want to find, not to prove what you think is wrong, then may all things be well. I believe whoever you are, you will find my Father, and He will embrace the same as He did with me, through hurts and sorrow, through joy and peace, through bored times and busy times, through enlightenment and hell times.

Thank you Father,

Ecclesiastes 2:17-23
¹⁷ So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. ¹⁸ I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. ¹⁹ And who knows whether he will be a wise man or a fool? Yet he will have control over all the work into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. ²⁰ So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. ²¹ For a man may do his work with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then he must leave all he owns to someone who has not worked for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. ²² What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? ²³ All his days his work is pain and grief; even at night his mind does not rest. This too is meaningless.

John 6:51
I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

Amen.

Swiftly & surely

I believe love of 2 imperfect beings is possible :) that's why we have grand parents, and parents =).. there will be much fiction, but the heat produced will keep one another warm eventually. I don't believe love is demanding, but it requires a 2 way flow.

I've come to realise, with the phrase "behind every successful man there is a woman"is actually quite correct, as let's assume you're married, you're wife will be the encourager or destroyer in you're life.. some what or a rather.. if she pushes you or holds you a little, you might be able to muster more strength to work.. to succeed in life, you feel more responsible and with that hint of love she'll get you through it all...

On the other hand, if she keeps nagging, keeps killing your dreams, keeps putting you down, ignores you or worst even make you go through "hell on earth" you're work might not be able to reach the maximum capacity.. and not only will you stress out in work, but you will stress out at home, a combined stress that has a possibility of killing you.

I know myself, if a person loves me, they must love me for who i am, and respect me for who I am and not for who they want me to be, simply because I am not a toy.. but a human who has been through 22 years of life changing experiences, which can't just change overnight.

But I must say I am not an easy person to love, as I seek for more and more love.. trust me the person who loves me will know~ hehe...

people say be careful what you wish for, and I totally agree.. if you regret it, you've forced it on yourself.. you can't blame others, but fortunately for you, God is able to turn things around... if you don't believe in God, well I can;t say much :)..

Any how, I'm just let my thoughts run. to agree or to disagree is you're choice =)

God bless ya all,

-Chris
::life can be torturous.. and people will always try to ask you to do things, that you can't but for love.. you can go through the pain.. just because of love..::

Being appreciative

To everyone who knows me, and that I am with this wonderful girl called kelz kelz... this post is dedicated to tell you all.. and to tell her how wonderful she really is!

My dear, she is wonderful... she is someone who stands by me, even though at times I failed to do the same... she didn't leave me, nor did she keep me in "cold storage". I want to say, she is some one with integrity and some one who really sticks by what she believes in, and what she believes in is not wrong, or right for any one to say she is wrong.

She has a wonderful sense of variety, she has a sense of humour, she is beautiful naturally (this everyone should see ;) ). Her love for different kinds of food, and hate for others, are both complimentary of her uniqueness. She isn't just another girl, or some one other person Jesus loves... No no.. she's a girl I love, and she's a girl that Jesus really loves, in a unique way, no other way.

kelz, is some one who is creative, and she has a very nice art sense, that keeps everything realistic.. maybe sometimes others might think otherwise, but she is willing to learn, and change.. she isn't a weed in the field, but a tulip amongst all the daisies. she's very up to date with her fashion, she has wonderful taste. Her value is not one of that can be sold or bought with cash or money.. neither can it be traded for any item such as gold or silver... she's unique, adorable, cute, sexy, beautiful, kind, loving, and loved.

She's a great friend, willing, she helps others, and tries her best in everything she does... she's not something that can be used and thrown away.. she is some one.. who is there when you need her, and listening when you have problems..

my kelz kelz, is so wonderful, such a great person. God made no mistakes =)

Love love love

As beautiful as the flowers that make the field attractive,
as cool as the wind blowing in the hot sunny day,
so is the time I feel for you.

As wonderful as the perfectly cut diamond,
and as memezrising as the most creatively made crystal,
so are your eyes to me.

Captivated in your love,
captivated by your beauty,
oh how wonderful are you!

I miss you now,
I miss you when we say good bye,
I love you much, my heart and dear.

as we grow, as God takes part in our growth,
I'm so glad I met you girl,
You are that rainbow that shows in the rain,
you are that precious diamond that is amongst al the glass,
You are my love my dear my girl =)

I love you with all of my heart~!

-Chris
::Love is a wonderful thing, we go through it, from hurts, pains, joyful moments, stressful moments, werid moments... any moment, it's still love::

Uncontrollable!

::WARNING THIS IS ONE OF THE LONGEST AND BY FAR THE MOST RIGHT IN THE FACE POST WRITTEN ON THIS BLOG, VULGAR LANGUAGE HAS BEEN USED BUT CENSORED::

We live in such an impersonal world these days, and even when we do live in a personal area of zone. We will never find satisfaction. In life we will face frustrations, frustrations come from no being able to be God Himself and control the situation, We want everything to go our splendid way, and when it doesn't we go and we just lose it we go berserk! throw a fit like a big baby.

Then when everything is going according to plan, we take every last miniute for granted. ok I can't speak for you but this is how I have felt before.We will never have satifaction on trying and striving to control situations, then when we don't need to have these extra things with us we go ahead an feed on them.. so much so we come fat full of the negative, thinking yes I am strong I won't fall... But when the time comes and you fall BAMM! your on your face again.

But I gotta say your not a loser if you get up again, your a loser if you stay down. Worste of all is, when we can't be God we will blame God for it instead of talking to him about it, We'll start to gnash at our on friends not being able to see who is helping and who is not. Eventually God will send some one to give you a GREAT SLAP! a slap is what you need.. and dang if only you could give yourself a slap to wake up...

But you see after all the fustration... we tend to fall into depression.. and we don't call for help because depression is a comfort zone of itself.. it eats you a live whilst making you feel in complete comfort and SELF PITY. Yeap I said it, I was in self pity before too... making my self sad to be NOTICED by not EVERYONE but that ONE person... yea sad eh? but so true.. then you yourself will start comforting AS WELL AS condemning yourself.. and it gets mroe n mroe comfortable in this pit of death... When really deep down in your heart you want freedom from this pit.. But it feeels so gooooddd you wouldn't want to come out of it.

But I tell you, when I decided to give it to God and when God sent some one to slap me awake, I realised I could live without depression and enjoy life... depression will come back to test ya, to show you that you ARE HUMAN and you HURT, and YOU ARE NOT GOD it also shows you that YOU NEED GOD, YOU NEED FRIENDS, YOU DON'T NEED COMFORT BUT A FRIGGING SLAP. haha... true enough, if friends comfort you it;s not enough, I'm sorry to say IT IS NOT ENOUGH! It'll just make you stay in that PIG sty feeding off PIG food till the day you die or realise hey My Father treats His SLAVES better than this person depression..

When you come to s stage where you say MY LIFE SUCKS, it HAS NO MEANING, it's all in VAIN! Then you want to get rid of it.. fall into an endless pit of sleep and never wake up again! This is where you make your decision... IF YOUR LIFE is not worth what YOU want it to be, GIVE IT AWAY, GIVE IT TO GOD, LET HIM USE IT. I tell you.. thats what happened to me.. I got to a stage, I'm useless and surrendered my life to God... heck I'm not a good person, but at least I know if my life isn't worth anything it's up to God to deal with it. After all it belongs to him, and not I'd rather not give it to the devil, coz personally i don't want anymore self pityness and bring others down.

I tell you now, WAKE UP, This is how it happened to me, through fustrations of uncontrolable beings, realising fire doesn't take out fire but makes the forest burn faster! when I realised HATE never really get any HATE out of the equation but make more ANGER. When you realise that depression if just a f*cking illusion now F**KING WAKE UP! if your useless if your life is in vain GIVE IT TO GOD SO HE CAN DO SOMETHING WITH IT.. STOP HOLDING IT SO TIGHT... STOP TRYING TO BE GOD...

And I tell you.. you don't need to pick up a shield and run with me, Coz God will be your sheild till the end.

Darkness never drives out darkness, only light does,
Hate never drives out hate, only love does,
Depression never drives out Depression, Revalation does.

I tell you friends, whatever is happening in on above around this decaying peice of rock. That we are trying to save, or shall i say slow down the process of decay. YOU'VE GOT THE CHOICE, AND YES YOU ARE CHOOSING WHAT YOU ARE CHOOSING NOW AND NOW IS THE TIME.

God bless ya all,
-Chris
::Sound the Jubilee - RLC::

Love story - Taylor Swift

We were both young when I first saw you
I closed my eyes and the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

So, I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Oh oh
Cause you were Romeo, I was the scarlet letter
And my daddy said, "stay away from Juliet"
But you were my everything to me
I was begging you, please don't go
And I said

Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo, save me
I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you, but you never come
Is this in my head
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad
Go pick out a white dress
It's a love story
Baby, just say yes

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

Thank you!

Well was down recently.. probably struggling on my own effort.. As some of you would have noticed my blog posts probably got a lil more aggressive too haha.. But My Public apologies to all I might have offended!

I want to thank God for bringing me out of the valley of shadow of death, truly I have been dwelling in it once more.. thinking everything a waste.. and God has abandoned all of us... Well not all of us mainly me! haha... But I'm glad tonight a special dear friend of mine~ Or shall I say my dear shared some things with me. It brought me up, and probably cleaned my eyes.. from that MASSIVE plank blocking my vision. I don't think many people would have done that with my kinda attitude. But I'm glad God sent her to me never the less~

Which reminded me of a verse immediately, I believe must be God speaking to me.

Ecclesiastes 4: 9-12

9 Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

10 If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!

11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

:) I'm glad God sends bros and sisters at right times... even when I felt my closest brothers and sisters abandoned me, there was still one standing there smacking me in the face(gently) saying wake up and taking that plank of wood outta my eyes so I can see clearly again. God is still here God is alive! AMEN

God bless ya all!

-Chris

::Woah God never gives up, He'll make sure u are up again, Using absolutly ANYONE!::

All sufficiency

Short but I feel liek posting this after reading a blog =). I know these are trying times in the world, and many retrenchments are happening, just I never felt it before. I'm guess that's a blessing in it's own way. but that's not what I Wanted to share.

Just wanted to share, that Strangely enough before realising abotu retrenchment I believe GOd made me listen to this message 2 times. By Pastor prince, He mentioned about retrenchment saying he knew many peopel who were retrenched and how it was more of a blessing than a curse! How the poeple couldn't possibly of taken a break during their working times, managed to take a break, go on holiday come back and there was a new job waiting for them! He said if you are a child of God, God has a better plan for you =).

I also believe that this verse given to me earlier this month was not a coincidence:

2 Coirinthians 9 : 6-8

6Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. 7Each man should give what he has decided in his heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. 8And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

Although it's about giving. I believe if you pray and give time to God give to your brothers and sisters, surely even through retrenchment you will have all things =) and All sufficiency.

God won't let you down ;) stay strong and faithful bros and sis =) I will keep you all in prayer! =)

-Chris

Twist & turn

to be honest I don't know why i chose
this as the title of my post.. but here
goes~

Through life's turmoil, and through all
the pains,when we walk in valleys when we walk on
mountains,There is no end to the hurt or pains...
so that was what they said to a person
named, blane.Blane was a person who always searched
for love, somewhere in his heart he
knew true love stooped, but everytime
he ever got close enough, he was
rejected... or at least felt rejected.
But one day, he met a girl named,
sophia, she was sweet as can be, and
things were going smoothly; with of
course the occasional bumps in a
relationship. For the first time in his
life Bane felt security. He felt so
complete in his life, that he forgot
about those who truly loved him for all
his life.

However his new found love was not
easy, he would leave the house of his
parents to visit sophia, each and every
day. His relationship with his parents
deterioted, and his relationship with
his friends, would now all have a
barrier.. he sacrficed his life, just
for sophia... but ironicly she didn't
do the same for him. She loved him, but
her love wasn't enough to fill the
hole.. she saw Blane, get more n more
desperate.. only wanting to draw from
her love... she was so burdened... yet
she couldn't leave.. for years she
tendered and loved him, but for years
Blane didn't get enough. He became more
desperate.. craving for her more and
more.. that she literally became his
god.

Then, during a sunny day, when all the
birds were churping, and the trees were
blooming in all thier beauty... Sophia
told Blane, with a tired expression on
her face, and shaking in her voice, she
said,"Blane, I can't take this any
more.. it's been 4 years, but in this 4
years, though i love you , I can't
satisfy you..you've got a void, and you
just want more. during that time we
broke up before, I actually felt
freedom for a while, I enjoyed it.. but
my compassion in seeing you there
tearing into bits.. just won over me,
so I came back.. but this time.. it's
not the same.. we need to separate.."

The words were like a waterfall
crashing into his heart.. Blane felt
like he was drowning in the words of
one he thought was his life, and his
all...
sophia turned her back and left...
whilst Blane was still in shock.. it
was as if some one has just given him a
crippling blow to the heart... he felt
his life was melting away... the birds
churping became silent in his ears and
every thing felt black and white... As
he sat on the floor, thoughts started
rushing through his mind.

Memories of
his parents who loved him so tenderly
and how for the past 4 years he has
been so ignorant to them, and even took
them for granted... He sat and though
of these things.. how he left the house
2 years ago out of rage, just because
his parents told him to spend more time
with them, because they missed him. In
all His anguish he did not know what to
do, who to turn to... so slowly, he
returned to his home. His thoughts were
like ants whome home was distrubed, and
scattered. He told himself, I'll
appologise.. no no.. thats not enough
for my parents, I'll beg my way.. I'll
become thier slave.. or butler.. driver
anything.. I'm nothing now... As he was
reaching home.. he saw posters which
were torn, it read: lost, Blane bows ,
if found please inform us. name your
price, he is worth more than the world
to us!
With this.. tears started streaming
down his eyes.. he fell to the floor,
muttering, " How could i be so
selfish.. my parents loved me so much,
and I forsoke them.. how can I return
to them now?.. They'll never accept me"

*screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee* the sounds
of tyres scretching on the floor, out
of no where hands embraced him. He was
dirty and smelly from the long journey
home.. He was stunned when arms
suddenly grabbed him from behind.They were soft tender hands, as he turned around he couldn't believe his eyes, the beauty of a young girl, tears started to fall, and he embraced her back, "I'm back lil sis..", his sister was so happy that she couldn't stop cryign and smiling, the parents too were there, welcoming him back.. They embraced him and said welcome home.. before he could say anything they said, we are going to throw a party for your return, invite all your old buddies. and have a great time!..
________

well felt like writing this story, some may see it the same as the prodigal son, well you're correct. it's about the same, just this one falls on more how even though you might turn your back on God, for someone else.. God is always wanting you back home, to the place where you belong!
Hope you have been blessed.

-Chris
::The world might flood you with kisses and destroy you all together after that, but if you run back to God, He'll take all those shots for you and sheild you from the enemy::

Thank you

Thank you for being by my side,
Thank you for the joy you brought,
Thank you for the burdens we share,
Thank you that you're there,
Thank you that I have you,

You're the one that I have fallen for,
The one person that captured my heart so long,
As precious as this heart is,
You're holding it carefully,
full of love and care.

Thank you for letting God step in,
Thank you for letting God be the center,
Thank you for listening,
Thank you for talking,

Though some times I feel you've changed,
I still love the way you say I love you,
I miss the times you say it spontaneously,
and how you showed your love towards me.

Thank you for holding my hand,
Thank you for being mine,
Thank you for new friends you shown,
Thank you for showing me things I knew not.

I miss your kisses,
I miss your hugs,
I miss much about you,
BUT MOST OF ALL,
I MISS YOU.

Thank you for everything,
I want to tell you here what I told you before,
I love you, because of you...
...................................................

Thanks Lord.. for Friends, Thanks Lord for family, Thanks Lord for holding me, Thanks for salvation. and thanks for my dear =)

God bless ya all,

-Chris

::Funny thing life is, we can sometimes lose insight of others, coz we keep looking at ourselves, building a wall with own effort, when all we need to do is let God in and protect us! For He who is in us is greater than those in the world::

Not here to judge

These were the words by Ps.Kevin today (chc). I dunno why but these words gave me so much comfort... not that it was said directly by God or he said Thus saith the Lord... BUT that the way he said it reminded me of how our Heavenly Father is really like.. and what Jesus did and came for.

Ps Kevin said something like this: I am not here to judge you, I am not here to give you new sets of law, I am not here to say, you are in CHC here's the 10 commandments and 1000 pharsical laws.. (and other laws) But I am here to bring the glory of God down into your lives, so that the Glory of the Lord may be amongst you while you work, while you are studying, that the Glory of the Lord, helps you in pursuing your dream. My Job is not to tell you what you can do, and what you can't do. Don't let any one ever tell you, that your dream is not worth it. No Pursue it! I am here to teach God's glory to you, to teach you what God wants you to have in your life... I am not here to judge. No one can judge you.

I dunno these words reminded me... of what a pastor really is, their not law givers.. in fact, they are shepherds, they are the image of Christ... and what He said really made sense... coz Jesus said before, I have not come into this world to judge.

Yes as Christians, we should know what's right from wrong in God's eyes... And yes coz of love we obey! =) but thats the thing that made everything about this service today great.. wasn't only about the music, but the offering challenge speech was amazing.. no one can force you, to give... don't give coz YOU HAVE TO, but give COZ YOU WANT TO!

So many will ask me, does that mean I can do wrong as a Christian? Then I should ask back, Do you want to do something that will hurt some one precious to you?

It's like this friends. you have a girl friend/ boy friend, what you going to do? if you know this bad habbit of yours if hurting them deep inside, will you strive to do it more? if you knew let's say they won't leave you... would you persist in doing it? to hurt some one you love? then you know what I mean by you want to do what's right in God's eyes. Instead of YOU HAVE TO!

=)

That's all! God bless ya all~

-Chris

God's word for you

As Tears drop from an eye of pain,as clouds clear and the sun continues shinning,God reminds me, of the time, when i was hurt.He told me son, I am holding on to you and not you to me,He said, if you cry, come to me, I will hold you not matter what,if you're angry and you blame me, I'll take the blame that's what i did,wit the nails in the hands and the thorns in my head, I'll take the blame as i did before,Look at me child, and tell me you're ok?see these wounds I have for you.. I didn't do it to get recognition,I didn't do it to make myself great,I didn't do it to make you cry,I didn't do it so emotions over whelm you...No I did it for you and for who you are, I took your pains your hurts..Come out of the darkness you dwell, and step into the light and be renewed.
Remember that poem I asked you to write?how tears fall and a comfort stroke from me?remmeber how they fall to the ground, but as they fall I remmeber each drop?remember I told you I catch them in a cup? and I cherish them all coz I love you?My Dear child, lissten to my words. I am Love.. and that's my name.I am your Father, your shepherd.I won't leave you nor forsake you when your in the darkest part of the valley,always remember it's just shadow, it can't harm you..so you ask me? WHY is it that I did that.. why did i let you go in the darkness?then I asked you why don't you come in to the brightness?and as you sit there with streams of water, I look at you and feel your pain.I knew this day would come, and how i wish i never had to.look at me again. My little child, I love you much,and I havn't stopped loving you since the day you found me,look back into the foot prints of the sand. I love you, I most definatly want you, You are my prized possession.I've waited for over 1900 yrs to find you.. to this day.

What hurts now is just for a little while, For I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you,plans for a great future. For even though you walk through the valley of shadow of death my rod and staff, they shall protect you,Most of all.. seek my kingdom, and dwell in my presence, and my peace shall be upon you,don't be anxious.. but come to me, with your prayers.
I love you my child, so I aks you the same as I do to peter, do you love me?
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I felt like writing this.. and whoever reads this you know it is for you =)
God bless,

-Chris

::life roads full of light, but some times there are mountains in the way casting a shadow, don't fret =) if in a shadow God's with ya all da way. even with a shadow, he'll shine and lead your path::

Jealousy

I was searching for scriptures about jealousy on http://biblegateway.com/ ... and I have come to realise... there's nothing against jealousy! in fact it isn't even in any of the laws being classified as a sin.. but more of suspicion, interesting to note aye? so that answers my question on why God calls one of His names jealous! so... it;s ok to be jealous in that case? I believe so.. first off let me draw a nice line between the difference of JEALOUS and ENVY..
The bible clearly states you shall not covet(envy) your neighbours wife, household, maidservants and what not(Deutornomy 20:17) This means, when you covet it is the fact you want some ones item...hence u always say I envy him coz he has a good car.. you are coveting over the car that the person owns... Basically, I want it, but they got it.. so I need to some how get it too! many many verses in the bible about this, I'll leave it to you all to search,... just type in covet! haha..

Now Jealousy is qutie the opposite.. to be jealous is to have someone take something that is rightfully yours away from you... so you become jealous.. e.g John was Jealous because Alexander took his promotion. whilst in this case john worked harder.. and deserved the promotion, Alexander who let's assume did nothing took the promotion instead. Another example would be.. You being jealous when your partner dates some one else.. or has an affair. This is NOT a sin... it could lead to a sin..(e.g killing the person.. or what not) but being Jealous is not a sin... Check it out, God's only jealous when you worship other gods or idols.. why? coz he is God and by your worship[ign something else is saying he is not God.. thus taking his status as God and putting it on someone else.. which ends in being jealous... it's interessting to note that one of God's name is Jealous~ check it out:
Exodus 34:14Do not worship any other god, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.

Bet you never seen this verse before... so if jealousy is a sin.. it's punsihable by death(accordance with the law) so wouldn't that mean God should be dead? but you see it isn't in the law.. nor is it classified udner any ACT as a sin.. =)! So you ask(being off tracked) why did God kill so many people.. all I can say is Death penality... coz of all the sins.. you earn your part of the keep... which is death.. so u end up in death penalty basically...
Any howz, that's all i felt like posting for today! go search up on it in biblegateway.com >Jealousy & covet
God bless
-Chris

::So many decessions in life, which are you going to choose? So many doubts, which are you going to believe? the best is still the truth, beyond all facts.. and hypothsies... if you find it prehaps you will enjoy life a lil bit more! ^_^::

Been a long time

It seems that i have abbandoned my blog for a long while.. so what have i been up to? well mostly memory course... and work n sick.. lol! do you believe it.. I literally broke down coz of exhaustion.. lol! I wasn't a very happy boy at all~ I wanted to go emerge n i had to go get sick,... on a sunday too! right after church!!! AHHH hated it...

but good thing I managed to go on the saturday, I thought the message was great! talked about daniel in the bible how he was so concerned about defiling himself. Thus he wouldn't eat the food and all.. ~ BUT if u look what he didn't consider as defiling.:-Changing of his name-wearing the clothes of a babylonian-speaking the way of a babylon-learning the culture and living like a babylonian.- learning the arts of babylon (reading dreams n all)

Any wayz these points were valid~ and indeed daniel did not consider it anything as to be a defile. I believe God didn't either =).So what was it all about~ it just meant, when ur in ur working place.. dress appropriatly to your job (eg if ur in entertainment, please dont dress like a doll.. which has no entertainment in it) u get what i mean~. But what else was considered (in the world) would be.. pride. Greed, sexual immorality, LUST for power, LUST. lying.. stealing.. killing.. You see Daniel didn't do any of these =) I also believed the dream thing was a gift of God n not the dark arts that ps kong said :P sorry if I miss qoute u.. but I was hearing dark arts sitting there n I was baffled.. coz dark arts means u gotta deal with da devil n do some magic! WHICH GOD HATES IT IS A ABOMINATION TO HIM.. ah well~ any howz.. back to the point.
So what's the main point in all this? well it was all to mention upward mobilisation.. meaning u selected few,.. from the bottom move u to the top as quickly as possible as long as u do all those things.. learn language.. ect. But that;s not enoughto last as a righteous person.. Ps Kong mentioned one important key~ SD(SPiritual Dicipline) I loved this point that over saw everything.He said"You can be successful even if your not righteuos" but all this is like nothing.. and vaintiy.. and u will eb come "discontenteD" meanign always crazing for more power.. more greed.. and thats how a lot of those pop artist went.. from church going to crazy.. but there are those who are still spiritually diciplined~ eg marry J blige (she rocks haha) Ps Kong mentioned, To reach the top in upward mobility u must have it equal with spiritual dicipline (go church, pray, fast, read the word, worship, solidutity with God..etc) all necessary~ oh man! that rocked...
alright better end here for ya all basically all of thats summed up.. =)
God bless-Chris
::This life's tough, and we might just get into what I like to call the vicious cycle(nothing is ever enough) which will eventually be our demise~ But with God and our commitment (SD) We will reach a level of satisfaction whilst not being controled by lifeless things(greed money etc)::

Crushed rose

In All the world around me,

I see a life before me,

The roads are paved with roses,

as I walka long this road of roses,

the throns peirce deep in my feet,

but as I see the rose crushed,

I see the one who was crush for me,

the thorns remind me of a crown,

worn by a king of kings,

and the pericings remind me of a hand,

that took on the burden of the world,

and all this blood and wounds may stain,

but the beauty of it all remains,

roses are red,

viloets are blue,

my saviour reigns,

before all rules.

like a rose trampled and distorted,

so as he the pains he bore,

all for me and all for you,

so you might be free in the road before thee.

Things I love about her

These are things I love about my dear Kher Lit!

-She makes me feel at ease when I am around her

-She supports me when I need help

-She is really good at doing her make up ;)

-Even when the most beautiful girl walks pass, she still looks more beautiful to me!

-She knows how to carry herself, with a good fashion sense

-She has a great sense of art and colour combinations~ that I think most will agree with me ;)

-Her smile is unique

-Her eyes are dark and mysterious, but filled with light and beauty

-She has a good sense of humour

-She's blur at times :P (yeap this is a good point~!)

-She is alert (esp on the road

-She can sing~ very beautifully esp dispney songs =)

-She is in Christ

-She is exciting to be with

-She is unexplainablly wonderful

-Others (which I cannot explain =D)

This is a dedication to my beloved Lim Kher Lit, who is my most amazing and most beautiful sscrumptiooousssss girl friend =)

-Chris

Increase

Today I have learnt something on increase. I woke up went to go to see my boss and other collegues.. he made me realise, everything in life, of working we need to ask ourselves, why this screen.. why do we type this in this area, what else does all the other things in this one screen mean, Then I realised.. I haven't paid attention to the small things in work! and it really got me thinking about life the same way.

Haha We tend to take the smallest things in life for granted, in fact I think that the small things matter in life, hehe... we also need to react pro actively to the things in life especailly little things, that really doesn't need to be seen as such a big problem we make it as!

I talked to a dear bro today and he also taught me some stuff =) thanks bro ;) you know who u are. I think in life we have many decisions and we need to choose the best of it all, stop dwelling on the negative, that just makes us depressed and what not, but to choose the positive! you know, these previous blog posts I have been down, and I have many choices I can choose from. Bad ones good ones, each one changes a life, but hwo you react to each on is the key right?

I believe this is why God gave us some free will.. too choose... I guess thats the greatest power of a human being! to choose!

Whilst talking to my bro in church, I realised negativity impacted me when I started letting negative things in my life, like the news papers and what not! haha I need to intake some positive words in my life I think ruters and erm... forbes eh? I shall consider it! maybe I will look into new guys fashion? tho I dunno how too haha I tried once ... hehe failed attempt to search online... oh well...

Another thing that hit me, is I need to love myself more.. maybe touch me self up and pamper meself more hahaha! I believe this is the key... It hit me when the bible said, love your wife as you love yourself... I will never be able to love any one properly, if I do not first love myself.. now I'm not saying I should be selfish, but I should have a degree to love myself enough..

reliance on God is another thing I learnt.., very important God's int he equation if not can't get anywhere! =) Jesus I love you! and yea I'm so glad you love me too~ can you teach me to love me too? hehe... at least, prehaps there will be a chance I will be more of a good husband that way :) my dream... hehe...

-Chris
::Sometimes we are so BLIND in this world, but you know what! we can still choose to see, everything is a choice in this world::

Love Truly amazing

I Have this werid feeling to blog, so I am since there is no tickets to attend to now :P!

I believe God is going to raise a generation filled with light Salt, and GLory! I feel God is going to be the leader and father of these people! God is loving every one of them, He says, "FOr I am your God and Lord" Amazing! God is the I AM and the I AM in your every situation! feeling lost? angry, weak? I AM the way the truth and the life, I AM God your peace, I AM Your strength made perfect in your weakness~!

Woah, How awesome, is Our God :)!

it's funny THough this world seems like it's falling apart, I don't feel too effected anymore. I can actually feel God's provision for me.. I feel His love and kindness falling upon me like a dove.! Indeed God is my Sheild and EXCEEDINGLY GrrreEAAT Reward ;)! Praise GoD.

You know, This world won't get any brighter, but we can be that light bulb in this darkening world! yup yup! Lift Jesus up and draw all Humans~ To Him or Men, which ever makes u happy! hehe...

Ooo so excited for some reason! I feel like so victorious! dunno why haha lets rejoice never the less! in every situation! :)

God bless ya all me blog readers~ My bros and my sis~

-Chris
::This worlds getting darker, but The church is getting brighter~ Where the light shines, darkness falls! Where the light shines, the darkness has not understood::

Back on Track
Sometimes, we all go off track I think. And the best thing ever was really commiting it to God.. sometimes we need to realise, people arn't perfect, and somethings are harder to change than others but we are all trying I believe :).

I am glad God changed me throughout life.,. sure I've done stupid things.. haha.. very stupid things, but at the end, God will lead us by hand!

the interessting part of life is meeting all kinds of people.. people we cant click with , people who make us feel all warm and fuzzy, people who just loves to take the mick haha.. but at the end of the day, we sharpen. We either become more stubborn, or we become more acceptable. Correcting with love, and trying not to do it in a way where it will condemn the people but uplift them instead!

I love my dearies lots! and I thank God that she's been put in my life! May God bless her alwayz, her hands.. everything hehe!

Anywayz getting late now! nitez all

-God bless
Chris
::Life is like a roller coaster, there are ups and downs... twists and loops! but no matter what we know we can enjoy the ride, coz God's made sure every screw in that whole ride is screwed on securely::

To My dear

I love you oh dear~

She makes me smile when I am sad,
She makes my heart beat fast,
She calms me down when I am anxious,
She has the sweetest voice to me,
She makes a lot of difference in my life,
She has the sweetest smile,

I miss her so much,
I love her so much,
I'm going deeper with her,
I feel so much love from her.



~~~~~~~
TO me you are more than the world,
To me your a gift from God,
to me you are more precious than gold,
I thank God everyday, that I met you my dear adorable L~

when the skies are all dark,
and when the rain pours down,
I don't feel sad anymore,
because your by my side.

when you hold my hand,
when you wrap my waist,
I don't feel like a waste no more,
I feel like your my taste.

As the colours of the rainbows,
so are the colours that your brought in my life,
Thank you so much oh dear dear,
Thank you for your love and paitence.

Muaks!

Love you so so so much!

love
-Chris