Only to you...

Dear God,

I'm really feeling burdened, I feel like I am trying to hard, or maybe I am doing too much and making things worste? as I fail to meet peoples expectation... The better I try to be, the more people demand, it's as if every person in this world was your boss haha... wanting mroe of you everyday...

But i don't mind trying my best to please people... I really don't... I know it's bad to expect something in return, and honestly Father I try not too... But could you help me to not want.. I feel really awkward when I don't want. Especially those close to me, I understand their busy and all.. but when I want to talk to them when their not, I'd really love them to listen. I'm so glad you put friends in my life that do, to state 2 would be Alicia and Katrina. Thanks God for putting these 2 sisters in my life, also brother Jerm. I really thank you God that these few people are in my life..when I am down you bring them to me to cheer me up. They know for some reason what my heart is yearning for... it's as if you bring them in at the right timing.

I also thank you God for Florence :) I really appreciate you putting her as a mini shepherd over a period of time in my life. I pray you always guide her and lead her into your glory God. They have given me much joy, and are the joy bringers in my life :) Thanks God.

it's bad to expect i know... but sometimes I wish I'd get a surprise.. or something from the one dearest to me... a hand written or made gift.. or something small.. just to show me some sort of love.. that doesn't only come by words... God I know it's bad to expect. I don't want something big.. maybe just questions to explore more about me? or to be interested in me? I dunno.. I really dunno... I'm trying my best to change God I am.. but I'm glad your the one who renews my spirit...

God oh God... my heart desires more of you... and at times I get confused.. I just wish I had mroe of you... :)

Thanks God for listening

Your beloved son,
Chris

Hunger
starting to feel hungry for God's word for some reason.. I feel like I havn't had enough of it! recently I've noticed my intake of God's word has reduced substatially, as well as this I have realised I am becoming more blur! not a good thing hahaha... I feel like all those words of God that I used to know isn't submerging when I need them these days.. and I am stuck.. well they do come out when people need them =p just when I need them I can't get them out! haha need to start eating more regulary! can;t diet on the word of God anymore... me spirit man getting skinny hahahaha!

I've realised, negativity hits me hard these days.. like foul words, they seem to give me a feeling of wonder... of why people need to say such things. I guess a lot of people say what's wrong with it? and why Chirstians shouldn't say such words... haha I guess what I read online is the right question, what's right with it? think w eneed to all start asking ourselves the right questions.

The word of God is life... and food for the soul right? if the word of God was false, I truly believe all the transaltions in the world would be different, but the thing is, thier all the same! just that english has many meanings for one word. haha, reason being why english has to be read in context.... what I like about the bible is, it says God is the same yesterday today and forevermore, so whnw e say the new testiment is only relavent and God only works there, I believe it's wrong. I think the old is as necessary haha. What God didn't like before he still doesn't like today I assume. just that Jesus took it all... So all those abrahamic blessings and good conditional promises still stand right? eg respect your parents and all will go well. the rest of the curses I believe are cut off if ur in Chirst coz he took it all on the cross... =)

Humans
one thing I have learnt, in a relationship, you sometimes get fustrated coz you wish to see somethigns in return, or you want to feel loved ect... but you don't feel it. but thats not the thing I learnt, the thing I learnt is, people are changing, and we can't expect them to change overnight, we try our best to change for the better, but ultimatly only with God's strength we can do that... I've realised people learn, and listen.. and I;ve also realised good people can turn bad by the group they hang out with. Good character is corrupt by the bad.

But it doesn't matter =) I believe and continue to pray God's love will work in each and every person on this earth... no matter what race, religion, as long as ur human, it's enough.

-Chris
::Humans are hard to change, but thats what makes this world so colourful, different people different oppinions, but no matter how much we may not like each other, God loves each one of you personally, and loves them the same::

weekend
well i ain't blogged :P for a short while, so here goes, whilst I munch on my apple.
well went to the study skills thing... actually wasnt too bad :P but there were parts that got real boring :P.. overall i give it a 5 out of 10. but there were quite a few new people there, I think it's cool. I met some dude called sean, :) hope he comes next week =)! but I didnt get enuogh time to talk to him as I had to rush off after study skills to pei leengs partay.

So we made it to the party, nice and fashionablly late.. I was thinking people would have eaten.. but who knew?! they were all waiting for us.. wasn;t too bad we thought.. well me and ken thought it was ok.. until we realised the food came out only after our arrival! lol.. ouch! but doesnt matter! Good to see you again peileeng and Erwin.. thats if you read my blog lol!

As for hanako, no ideas about here:P never talked to her haha... =p

So, Then came sunday, rise up early in the morning... totally dead haha! the whole day I felt my whole body giving way to sleep even when I was driving(but obviously when driving I will use all my focusing power to stay awake and concentrate on the roads!) after church it was off to Alex's Farewell! yeap yeap~ in the CAVE! couple cafe... was awesome, nice pick alexander!.. I advice u all with another partner to go.. if you dont have another partner..(as in gf/bf) go with a bunch of friends :)! worth it! hehe...

So we all had fun after that off to kherlits singing school gathering performance thing.. Wow! I didn't know she could sing so well.. her voice though, a lil shy.. was very good.. Esp the Jap song!
I think she will get through in her emerge audition no problem!

Then off home and boom! dead on the bed hahaha..

Next day
Monday I thought to myself I will go back to my fruit diet on everyday but thursday... So I went to buy some fruits from the fruit stall.. oh man who knew! fruits are so expensive these days 4bucks for 3 peices... actually half a peice of guava :P and I doubt one peice of mango.. with.. a slice of papaya! Woah blew me socks away I tell ya haha..

Works getting interessting recently, Think is coz there are so many new issues occuring =).

Last but not least
My talent contest
I am thinking of joining what you all think? Join under vocals.. or story writitng.. I havn't really decided. what do my dear blog readers think? yay or nay? =)

Anyway thats all for now!
God bless
-Chris

Love Truly amazing

I Have this werid feeling to blog, so I am since there is no tickets to attend to now :P!

I believe God is going to raise a generation filled with light Salt, and GLory! I feel God is going to be the leader and father of these people! God is loving every one of them, He says, "FOr I am your God and Lord" Amazing! God is the I AM and the I AM in your every situation! feeling lost? angry, weak? I AM the way the truth and the life, I AM God your peace, I AM Your strength made perfect in your weakness~!

Woah, How awesome, is Our God :)!

it's funny THough this world seems like it's falling apart, I don't feel too effected anymore. I can actually feel God's provision for me.. I feel His love and kindness falling upon me like a dove.! Indeed God is my Sheild and EXCEEDINGLY GrrreEAAT Reward ;)! Praise GoD.

You know, This world won't get any brighter, but we can be that light bulb in this darkening world! yup yup! Lift Jesus up and draw all Humans~ To Him or Men, which ever makes u happy! hehe...

Ooo so excited for some reason! I feel like so victorious! dunno why haha lets rejoice never the less! in every situation! :)

God bless ya all me blog readers~ My bros and my sis~

-Chris
::This worlds getting darker, but The church is getting brighter~ Where the light shines, darkness falls! Where the light shines, the darkness has not understood::

Back on Track
Sometimes, we all go off track I think. And the best thing ever was really commiting it to God.. sometimes we need to realise, people arn't perfect, and somethings are harder to change than others but we are all trying I believe :).

I am glad God changed me throughout life.,. sure I've done stupid things.. haha.. very stupid things, but at the end, God will lead us by hand!

the interessting part of life is meeting all kinds of people.. people we cant click with , people who make us feel all warm and fuzzy, people who just loves to take the mick haha.. but at the end of the day, we sharpen. We either become more stubborn, or we become more acceptable. Correcting with love, and trying not to do it in a way where it will condemn the people but uplift them instead!

I love my dearies lots! and I thank God that she's been put in my life! May God bless her alwayz, her hands.. everything hehe!

Anywayz getting late now! nitez all

-God bless
Chris
::Life is like a roller coaster, there are ups and downs... twists and loops! but no matter what we know we can enjoy the ride, coz God's made sure every screw in that whole ride is screwed on securely::