Peace that brings rest to my soul

Hey all I've stumbled across this song from hillsongs recently, short title, You.. love it!

The season of desperation

Hey hey peoples,

well these days I've been wondering why so many people are after "chicks" haha, but i suppose my title is too far fetched, since it's always a "season" to want to look for a gf!

So many people ask how?
no.1 have self esteem
no.2 stop looking so desperately
no.3 Get your priorities right! :)..

But Hey I am not a person of expertise on this, but i know a relationship is a different ball game from single hood. It's a commitment, something you will have to give a lil and take a lil... :)..

Any way I'm not married yet so i am not as successful as others :D just yet :).


Wheee that's all my blogging for today hahhaa

Long time no post

Sorry dear readers! I have been a baddddd blogger hehe! just felt like blogging today.. seems my story has been abandoned once again! haha... well I've been hit with H1N1! don't worry I'll live :) like a dear brother said to me: God's words never lies! so true!...

These days I've been looking for God again, I mean it's been a while, I think went far from him, but indeed He has not been far from me.. truly He is one who never leaves nor forsakes you :)... a good book for all of you to read! Escape to God by Jim Hohnberger...

yeap one of the only books I have ever completed in my life time! haha and dang it's a good one, read it if your lookin for God desperately :) and you'll just find out that God's really wanting more of you than you have ever thought of! great book recommend it to all of ya! :)




I'd like to write some random lyrics here now :D~

Have you heard, that the wind blows,
Yet none of us will ever know where it came from..
Have you heard that faith, is all about walking with the unseen things, of life today.
Did you know that, there was a Messiah for the jews,
did you know that, the opportunity fell on us today,
A world full of gentiles, a world full of sinners today, oh ya...

But that is the Good news today, don't you hear it?
The world can be saved by the blood, of the lamb,
some say primitive, some say it's not modern, some say it's cruel~
but I'll tell you this...

The world's cruel as it could be, that is why such a cruel act had to be done...
The act that saved us, yes it saved us..
But do you know who performed the act? do you know who crucified the lamb?
It was no other than us, we who were blind, shall now see..
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:) Love thy neighbor, love thy enemy.... God loved all, He's not changed yesterday, today or tomorrow, He's the same the same God forever more..

Speaking it out

Hi all, I'm going to put my story aside for a bit, and dedicate this post to My Lord, and whoever he wants to speak to out there.

I'm going to be always glad to Father, first of all for bringing me up, for guiding me, and never giving up for me even though I have strayed many times. I want to be grateful because, Father, you're truly worth every moment of my time. Everytime I have fell you havn't just looked next to me and say, it's alright, but you've helped picked me up, you've helped correct me, and helped open my eyes.

Many of the church says Christainity is not a religon, and they have thier reasons, but I will always know it is, a wonderful religon, but yest it might not be religious, but it's definatly a religon of a relationship. But My Father, I want you to know, I love you very much, and I am glad you always love me the same as you first saw me, with much abundance and much love.

People are always looking for peace, people are always looking for enlightenment, answers to life, and reasons to live. Father, now I get it, We can all reach enlightenment, be it the church or likewise, we can all find our own sense of peace, but we can't find the answer, which is found in you, the reason which is found in you, we can have everything under the sun like King Solomon said, but all of this is nothing, we can have it all, and yet be depressed. We can have peace enlightenment, but still have no answer or reason. Father I'm even sure we can find ways to be happy, but I'm sure there are sad times for a reason, and I've found out in no matter what season, you're still there, rejoicing or mourning with us. And through it all, you still want the best for us.

It's not about how much we can do in our lives Father right? It's about how much you can do with our lives, it's not scary at all now I see it all ahead, there's certainty, and direction. A calling and an answer, a light and a hope. But most of all Father there's you.

I know you desire not sacrifice, but love, and I'm glad the church loves you very much.

To you whoever is reading this, these words are for you, you can seek it all, be consumed by it all, but at the end of it all, have you found that answer you have been looking for? or just reached a point of enlightenment, denying the truth, and hoping what you hold on to will not rot as our bodies will in the ground. Seek out the truth, but not a lie, ask and seek, but not to prove things wrong, but to ttruly find what you want to find, not to prove what you think is wrong, then may all things be well. I believe whoever you are, you will find my Father, and He will embrace the same as He did with me, through hurts and sorrow, through joy and peace, through bored times and busy times, through enlightenment and hell times.

Thank you Father,

Ecclesiastes 2:17-23
¹⁷ So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. ¹⁸ I hated all the things I had toiled for under the sun, because I must leave them to the one who comes after me. ¹⁹ And who knows whether he will be a wise man or a fool? Yet he will have control over all the work into which I have poured my effort and skill under the sun. This too is meaningless. ²⁰ So my heart began to despair over all my toilsome labor under the sun. ²¹ For a man may do his work with wisdom, knowledge and skill, and then he must leave all he owns to someone who has not worked for it. This too is meaningless and a great misfortune. ²² What does a man get for all the toil and anxious striving with which he labors under the sun? ²³ All his days his work is pain and grief; even at night his mind does not rest. This too is meaningless.

John 6:51
I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

Amen.

The past Demon

Chapter 9: Wrath of love

"ARGH!" I screamed in agony, as the pain through my body, I tried to get back up, I channeled all my strength to my legs and knees, to get back up. after a few moments I managed to get back on my feet, with pain traveling throughout my body, I could barely see straight. My wings weighed like two moons, covered with blood, snapped into 3 pieces either side.. as I tried to walk towards Visoth in all my anger, I kept stumbling... my breath was heavy and the air felt so damp... "one more step" I said to myself, with the intention of smiting this so called angel to smitherens.

I mustered all my strength to try an deliver a fatal blow, and just as I lift my fist to strike him... Darkness. The next thing I knew, i was laying on a soft material familiar material, much like the ones we have in heaven. I slowly opened my eyes, and found myself in complete light, 'What's this i thought to myself?'.
my whole being was submerged in light, i darted my eyes around and there was no shadows, no darkness nothing, but pure light. As I tried to lift my body up to view my surrounding, excruciating pain went throughout my body...I screamed out so loud, it echoed through the air. "GET BACK DOWN" I heard a strange voice say, " You're in no condition to do anything, visoth has done quite a great deal of damage to you..." the voice said.
"I must get back up! I need to help protect Gaz, I'm part of him, I can't be separated..."
"Calm down Estalious!" another voice said,
"Gabriel? is that you?"
"Yes, and your in trouble now, you let anger and murder get into your mind during your second chance!"
thoughts ran through my head, but more than that, regret. I can't go back to being a demon...
"But... you're lucky, The Creator has said, that you may return to your Gaz, as soon as your well again"
I felt relieved, and smiled. Somehow though i was in extreme pain, I felt comfort and peace, I took this time to recover as my small gap of peace throughout the rough storms that i have been.
"Gabriel! can you tell me... how is lizzy?, What did Vis... Visoth... Do..do... to he..er....?" I struggled to ask through the pain in my body.
"look next to you" Gabriel replied pointing next to me.

As I turned my head, *CRACK* I heard something break, My vision became very blured once again, I struggled to even see striaght, as my vision doubled and trippled whilst becoming blurer and blurer, I couldn't make out if she was alright or she was in critical, or was it even her! but in my heart i knew it was her, and just in that moment.*Thud*
*Darkness once again*

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Alright I know it's been a long while, it's probally going to be a reallylong while till i post chapter 10! xD... so like let your imaginations run wild for a while!..

I'll be heading off away for a while...

Ta ta All!

P.S could you sms me ur number n name, coz my old phone died....