the worlds getting togher

Well liek i said the worlds just getting tougher~ not int the sense of struggle but in the sense of making decisions. Snatch!! man wish i had that skill :P, but unfortuantely I'm not tha evil... I prefeer ppl giving willingly then to give unwillignly. Flaw of me i guess, too truthfull lol. Decsisions~ take it or leave it.. go in and try or back off... Tell me people if you really really wanted somethign what will you do? yet that somethign you want, is soemthign that some one already has. in my mind I say yes... things are better this way, This is how its ment to be, prehaps if u wait paitenly you'll get the thing that the other person already has. But another part of me is like saying Snatch.. win it over... you know, soem times I hate it when that happens, but i just liek to see people happy. another flaw? dunno... I want ppl to smile. Enjoy life, without burdern, what am i doin' putting burden on one of my close friends.... I just want it sso bad, I guess my consience will keep me at bay. I love that thing... I adore it, btu i cant have it, and thats a fact... maybe waiting will, but I mean if this is God's will what am i to say =) I could rebel, or mayeb its not his will. yet I just want that person to be happy... talkign in very coded langauge Coz you cant buy that 'thing' T.T , ah wells what can i do~ ooies thats all for tonight, a lil' less conversation and a lil' more action~ lol hmm lets steal some words from the lirics~
Namida tomaranaiKonnan ja Kimi no kotoShirazuni ireba Yokatta yo
lalala CHris~

it's a question of oui? au non~

(oui=yes au=or non= no)

Days can get crappier the mroe i think abt it the more i feel like running.. escaping. Yet I have no idead whats wrogn with me... as uc an see yesterday i kinda freaked out somehtign was sseriously wrong then...crys Got txt messages spammed by her bf=/ was that it? then Mat hears crunching outdoors.... Days are getting werider...

Prehaps its just me i mean, what more can u expect from some one that has actually prayed for a person so they have a life partner... yes i actually did that. but every time i tried it seemed so... like... they just disapear. it's all puppy love then.. Eva taught me love is somethign that isnt what it seems. thus what i feel abt love before isnt what it really is? oui? prehaps its lonliness.... I dunno. today my own self started to talk to me, somethign that rarely happens coz i usually start the topic then chat to myself. was like... this is wrong... I'm worried... prehaps your just a message man? from God? showimg some one they have whats specail.... but maybe your there for the specail person. Its confusing... but i get it. Like i have always said~ any thing i get close to fades away... I dunno why I hold too tight, bleh I dont wanna repeat my blog.

well I was starved today in college got home... my grand mah has cooked food, for some werid reason I have absoletly no appitite wohoo~ Weight loss program lol! ah well, this weeks gotta be the most confusing week of my life. Any wayz exams coming neaer, need to focus but what did my teach say today? DONT STUDY VB its hopeless I totally agree! lol. So my main focus is math and System analysis.

I know my blog title seems seemingless, no value to it right? nothign seems right. ah well... its reffeeerign to some one i know, and I dunno if going for her is the right thing or not, everythign in me says Do it, whats there to lose, and I know u like her that much u'd fly across the world, yet another part of me says... what if~ ect... ah wells so. the Qeustion is oui au non? I choose oui, but what will she choose?

Confused.. feelign strange somethigns wrong...

I dunno whats wrong with me... not a heart atk thos my heart does feel heavy... I'm confused beyond my own limits.... somethign has happened.. btu id unno what... its somethign bad, been havign a couple of bad dreams lately... maybe they were sighns... I dunno whats wrong... I heard a scream earlier.. was it that? ARGH some one help me... this is very very painful...

I'm tellign u all.. somethign wrong... isit me? am i trying too hard on somethign or not hard enough... is soem one tellign me somthing... just answer me !!!!!! please... I'm breaking down... I dunno whats wrogn... just speak to me... coem on.. have i done somethign wrong.. did i make some one hate me... have i done somethign too poorly? can u teach me to be better? help me control my temper.. I dunno MPSL I feel so unweary.. i feel soemthign very bad is happenign or has happened or is goign to happen! this is werid and wrong... help...

The chaotic day~

My day today has been the worste.. in fact my week would ahve been the worste if it wasnt for a person i knew...lets see where to start... form the morning... I went to college just to help out on a club thing that helps all the newbs enter our college.. turns out... it was cancelled teach was on EMC(emergency Medical leave) Argh.. had to wait 2 hrs till class....then... my eyes became weary in math It was itchy like mad... but the worste part was at 12 o clock or around there wher ei found my mobile DEAD when i say dead not workign... cant even charge right now... and to top up dessert for the whole day my dad arrives late in picking me up... and I get a head ace... sighs... seems I have no contact to the outside world but through this lil com... and if this is gone... I'd be dead X-)--<---<(R.I.P)

well i got nothing much to say but sigh... nothing
Chris

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yea it is :P tough luck to those that cant read my title! mwhahaha, right then lots of things happened today~ literally I'd say alot is nothing wohoo~ new record! I Felt so tired for no reason~ woke up all energtic.. then got in the car to college after a nice shower... and started to fall asleep... then Got to college waited outside for a club meeting and still feelign sleepy got in and managed to wake up... then got back in the car AND FELL ASLEEP AGAIN now how lame is that lol!. In my club meeting thier forcing me to go tmmr for 9 30 class tho its ment to be 10 30... oh well Do some powerpoitn things for the nOObs~ entering our college this November... means no revision for me then pif~ bleh I'll revise... right then I got home, and it seems I did somethign... which i cant rememebr hahahahha lame~ i think i ate some fruit=/ cant remember lol

right.... then i went to do my math OH MY I cant do anythign... gosh need to ask my Friend tmmrz for help... seriously need one sheet of paper with lots of exsamples so i can refeer when I'm doing brand new questions that should get me a pass*As well as praying to God should help, =) destress me... So I found out crys likes the planet shakers... FORCING ME to take her next time they come... wow i didnt know they were that famous DID YOU o.O. Righto~ I dunno what elese to post but~ keep it cool dudes~ and make sure that u keep alert and not liek me >falling asleep every darn second lol !

CHris ~ SighNing OfF~ wEEhOOO(=.=; hyper dude... wonder why he's so excited *rolls eyes)