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chapter 4

Curiosity, Killed the cat

2 years later, after getting out into high school a new place, a new life. A new start. Years past and I came to form 2, as a 13 year old. 'girls' seemed to be the happening thing around at those times. ME being cluless at that time, not knowing a single thing about what was so special about girls, as you know my past with a girl. My class mates would always talk about wanking n comparing their lengths. Sick as maybe but that seemed to be the big thing then, but I didn't bother with comparing.

About half way through the year came a time for biology class. Where our teacher said, well boys and girls, you will eventually have to learn this in your life, so lets get it over and done with. Teaching us about sex, and how the processes went through, we learnt about how 'babies' were made. Later on the subject when it got deeper, the teacher even taught us how to wear protection, both girls and boys. The teacher would often say, it's the best thing in the world, it's worth waiting for boys and girls.

As curious as every single girl and boy was, we went on with our lives normally, I eventually came across another girl which seemed to be so likeable, that I started to sweet talk her, not knowing that it was called flirting. The guys around me were like 'oh Spire, getting a lil hot here with Lucia hey?, even flirting with her.. Go on Spire!'. We got together, she was brunette, her eyes were large, brown, and just one look would melt any guys heart. Soon enough other boys started to hit on her. I felt very uncomfortable and discouraged as I could see her melting in their arms. Then one day, I decided to ask her bustard. 'Why do you even melt in these thugs arms.. All they do is whack my friends around they can't do any good can they?'
She replied to me in a soft gentle voice,'Spire... I don't want to be with them... It's just..' She started to burst in tears.. 'what's wrong dear? What happened?'I replied with much discomfort.'Spire.. You've known me for 3 years now... I'm like the closest to you. But these guys, thugs.. They threaten to hurt my lil sister if I did not obey to their commands... They even..', 'what?! what did they do?', 'They.. They .. Made me have, sex with them...', 'WHAT?!' I screamed,'WHY didn't you tell me?!..Does any one else know?', ' Just them... I didn't want to.. But I don't want my little sister getting hurt.Spire.. oh, Spire.. What can I do' she said whiles weeping in my arms', I said, 'calm down... I'll deal with them'. 'oh spire... Please don't do any thing stupid.. Don't kill them.. It's not right, don't hurt them.. Or my sister will get in to trouble.',then I ask you Lucia.. What am I to do.. I've got an idea, why don't we get together...'. She pulled back a little and her eyes widened. 'What do you mean... Get together', ' I mean, you become my girl friend'.She screamed'YOUR JUST LIKE THE OTHER GUYS ALL YOU WANT IS TO SLEEP WITH ME.' I retaliated'NO, I would never think of such a thing... I just want to protect you... I don't want you egtting hurt.. You mean a lot to me...'. 'Look up spire, look into my eyes and tell me that you really do care for me'. As I glanced into her eyes'O ... I care for you dearly.'. She fell back into my arms hugging me tightly and mummured'yes.. I will.', there was a short moment of silence, as we both admired the peace and quietness, hold each other tightly in a locked hug that seemed to be unbreakable.

The following day came. As I waited for her at the gate.. Some guys stood next to me, and was waiting for some one too. As she got off the bus the guys rushed to her and pushed me against the floor. She Cried out 'Spire!!, help!!', I got up.. Pulled my self together, even though blood was gushing out of my arms, I ran towards the guys and pulled them away. Starring into their eyes I screamed' WHAT THE CRAP DO YOU THINK YOU GUYS ARE DOING?!', they grinned and said, 'why don't you ask Ms. Cinderella here?'. I furiously replied,' there's no need for her to explain anything, she's my 'Cinderella' and you guys can go piss of from here, GET LOST.'
One of the guys tapped the other persons shoulder and said come on let's go, no point for us to waste our time on this little weasel.'
She jumped with joy into my arms, ' Thanks SPIRE! I love you!!!!' I smiled and said,'let's go! We're gonna be late for class.' At the end of the day, I saw her and her little sister off to their buses. Then out of no where the guys I saw earlier appeared with familiar faces I seen before. They were no other but those creeps who had been hurting my little angel in the past.I fought off 3 of them, but 2 of them managed to hold me arms, and whack me to my knees.' I screamed in pain. As thier'Boss' approached me saying'So your the brave hero huh?, ever heard of the saying heroes always die?' he took out some gloves and started to bombard me with random punches.. Later trashing me into a trash can and rolling me down the hill. Luckily I escaped with only a cut lip and bruises around my arms. As I walked home. I collapsed at my friend's house. HE quickly rushed out and pulled me in as I was unconscious. His mother quickly called for my parents. I woke up the next morning in the hospital. With my family worried and scared. They asked 'are you alright Spire?', ' Who did this?'.. I said'I'm alright.. Just some kids at school...' My mum ferociously went to my school immediately and complained', the moment Lucia heard of my injuries she rushed out of school with her little sister and went to the hospital I was in. As tears filled her eyes, she whispered 'sorry'. I smiled back' It's alright.. As long as your safe I will always Have the courage to live on.' ' She smiled and tried to hug me, but I stopped her and said jokingly' hey there now now girl, calm down. Don't forget I have bruises', she blushed and said' heh, sorry I forgot.' and held my hand instead. I saw her little sister standing there looking at me with her little puppy eyes. ' I said hey little girl, how are you doing today?', she replied frowning,' better than you, kor.'.
I laughed,' yea you are doing better than me' smiling back at her.
don't worry about me yea sweets?, you too little mei. I'll be back on my feet soon'

a week later I got out of hospital and found out that my little angel ain't been going to school. I calle dher up and asked her why. and she replied.. 'I'm scared.. I'm scared of what they might do to me without you there.'
'It's alright now. I'm here for you now.. eveything will be ok.'
The next day she returned and I protected her through out the whole day. I even made a few more friends, decent and played for the rugby team, they were huge but they were very friendly.' Hey is that your bird there?', Paul said( one of the rugby players). I said 'yea yea she is why?'
He replied' she looking fine.. But worried'
I said' how so?.. Well we been having some trouble lately..'
boy friend girlfriend thing?'
'Nah.. More like bad boys trying hard...'
'aw man that sucks.. Well If I ever see these bad boys I'll whack them up personally.' Paul replied.
At the end of the day, I saw Lucia off as I normally do. With her little cute sister toddling behind. Once again the thugs came up to me. 'Oh you still haven't learnt from your last experience eh?' ,maybe we should teach you a thing of two'. As they laid their hands on me, I pushed them back...' Don't touch me you freaks... You dare I'll kill you all', I screamed as I backed off a little.
huh?! You think your so tough? Come on boys lets get him' as their boss pointed to wards me. I started to run around the school. As they chased me.. I reached a dead end.. As they approached me you could hear them snickering.' Dead end Spire.. No where to run no where to hide. Give up n let us do our thing.'
I tried my best to fight them off, held them off for half an hour until I started to weaken.. And then out of no where, a guy came behind them n threw them off me. I said thankfully' oh man your my hero, he said' no Your my hero.' as I looked I saw my old friend Fred, one of which I helped fight off bullies off him when he was younger and next to him was Paul. Paul said' so these are the freaks that have been touching ya girls huh?' he tossed the boss on the floor and said' IF you ever touch this guys or his girl or any body in that case, I will personally F**K you up until your own mother don't reaconize you!.'
Fred, was tall and built up as well as Paul, Fred said' hey you alright?, it's been a while since I last saw you, Paul told me that he met a guy called spire, and the only spire I knew was you. So I said o cool let's meet him, but I wasn't expecting to meet you this way..'

And so the years past and my relationship with Lucia got very intimate. Until up to a point where I had to go overseas as my Dad had to go look after business... That day Lucia cried non stop begging me not to leave. I told her that I would be back in a year, and I'd come back to look for her personally. We kept in touch and exchanged emails and contacts. So for the first 6 months we kept calling each other non stop and she would tell me how things were there. I'd often ask about fred, and she said he's been looking out for her, on my behalf. One the 7th month, I wouldn't contact her. Somehtign had happened, so I called Fred, his mother picked up... I asked Can I speak to Fred please?,' she started weeping on the phone..' Fred? He's dead.. He was stabbed on the back in school..' In much shock I said' I'm so sorry to hear that.. Oh no.. I said I send my consolence to you and your family'. Quickly I put own the phone and called Lucia's house phone. Her little sister picked up, as I said hello, she started sniffing. I said what's wrong? And she replied..' Kor... My sister.. She's not ok any more.. She's in hospital the doctor said she would only live 6 months more.. Then she would go to heaven..' I said 'aww.. What happened' but just as i said that her little sister put down the phone. The next day on the news they reported that Lucia was brutally Rapped and Fred was found dead laying next to her. I bursted out in tears.. As my dad turned around and aske dme isn't that, the girl who pulled you through the times when you wer ein hospital..' I said 'yes...', then he shook his head and said' well things happen..' I screamed back saying'IS that all you can say?!?!?!'' for the next month. I managed to get enough money to go back to UK just for 5 months.. Then I would have to return. I told my family that I had to do this, then wrote a letter to the school. They all agreed and let me head back to UK. I spent most of my time sin the hospital every day, talking to her... As her last days counted to an end.. I prayed hard hopping that she would recover... No improvements. As the 4th month came.. I was beginning to lose hope..She said to me weakly,' Spire.. At least when I leave this world, I would know that I loved the best person in the entire world.. And that no one will replace you in my heart.', I cried next to her bed.. Not ablign to say anything... Feeling so helpless and worthless. As she whispered in my ear.' Spire.. Don't cry.. Let me remember you smiling and happy.' I said' ok.. I'll try' putting on a weak smile...', hald way through the 5th month, she told me' Spire.. Don't be afraid to love again... Don't be afraid to have another.. I don't want some tone that is as Good as you to be wasted because of my death.., promise me please promise me..' I said' I'll try.. It's gonna be hard.. But I promise.' She smiled and kissed me,' I love you Spire.. Always will. Don't lose your will and trust in God after this... coz I'll be watching you from heaven, So don't go losing faith in him.'. I smiled and said' I won't . At least I know that when your in heaven there will be no more hurts or threats.. No more pains or sorrow, and our father above shall protect you and give you the best forever' She smiled, and said' Yes.. At least death is not the end.'

as the 5th month came to an end..Before she died, she said' Spire, remember our promise, and gave me one last kiss.' then she past away... I attened her funeral,Cryign and weeping. As they closed up her coffin, I was on my knees... They dug her up, and put her in a church yard. The priest said the usual thing.. And the family gave their testimonials... And I gave mine.. As a short one,' she was the most amazing girl that had ever been in my life. If I could turn back time It would be to protect her form those thugs.. But I can't so the most I can do is be glad they were caught and hope that they will be forgiven and repent form their mistakes.. I loved her.. I truly did. If I could leave you all with something positive I will, and that would be her last few words to me. At least in heaven there will be no more pain or hurts.'

a day before my departure, ' I went to see fred's grave and prayed, I also spoke to him saying thanks for trying your best, thanks for begin there, and thanks for begin one of my best friends in the world. I also visited lucia's grave once more. I will return every year to see you Lucia.. I will bring you some flowers. Then returned to Asia... But I still kept ion contact with her little sister trying to bring her back out of her digression... And so that was the end of my era with my most precious, loved one.. Lucia..

Chapter 3

as the facts say, girls are stronger when thier younger

here comes to he end of my era with Laura, one of the prettiest girls I have ever been on a date with;How did it happen?, I ask myself that same qeustion this very day. But from what I remember, it was because she started to constantly whack me, I told her to stop, but she wouldn't, eventually blowing up at each other, our first and last argument was on that day,the words she said are stuck in my head. Well you always make me hang out with YOUR friends, you never come and let me hang outaround my friends. I guess it was my fault at the end, but at that young and naive age, I repelled screaming back, well I'm not the one trying to bully the other. At that point, silence fell upon the both of us. we ignored each other for the next few days. When we started talkign to one another we treated each others liek normal friends again, and hanging out seperatly like we used to do.
Many of my friends, especailly those whome were girls would often ask me. Why don't I get back with her, I would become very stuborn, and say never again. unconscience of why people were askign me to get back with her, even her best friend asked me.
Despite of all the waring and discomfort between the both of us, I still decided to turn up at her party, where only me her and her best friend were around. she had a cute lil doggy, and we watched movbies and stuff, it was a very peaceful night. After that night I left with a total different impression of her. the day after that night, I kind of missed her a little, but I did not want to admit it up to a point where iw as able to convince myself she wasn't worth the time at all. and it happened that a week later, she approached me alone. I was curious, and the words that came out her mouth, came with much pleading. Her voice so tenderly asked," forgive me please Spire, she looked me into my eyes, her round eyes glitering as it did before on the day we came together. Please Spire, Be with me once more.", in shock I answered, " I'm really really sorry.. I can't, I just can't be with you again, sorry" in stubborness I walked off, and she walked off looking down and unhappy. that was the end, and my first stage of changing my attitude.

Chapter 2

puppy love

Luara, Luara. how beautiful was she. 2 months in, and we were already as close as a knot on a shoe lace. she'd always tag along with me to hang out with my friends, the ones that would play catch and very active games. She got to know alot of the female friends I had.. since at that age we usually hang out with our own gender, ah but now a days I don't know how kids hang out.
Some breaks I would hang out with her friends... To me her friends were pretty boring.. but had very interessting topics to talk about, yet even when I try to be friends with them I could sense some hatered coming from them. The dark side =o. well to elaborate it, every time I hung out with them they would cut me otu of thier topic, walk infront of me or simply just ignore me... but even after all that I decided to stick with Luara and tolerate it all. =) puppy love is so strong. Gives you energy to do the most amazing things when your young.
The most amazing thing about Luara was that she had the most amazing eyes... hazel big and round, if she looked at you, I could grantee oyu would melt(taking in the fact that you are a boy or a lezo =p) we'd talk about things that were crazy,like astro spirit stuff... not that i understood it, but she practiced it with my friends... I tried it before.. never really worked, just gave me a better idea of how beautiful the night skies and stars were ^^;.
about 4 months in her birthday was coming up... like 2 months later. with a warm smile I accepted.. but I asked her is any other friends coming. She said yea David megan, ect... steph(her best friend) so she asked me to help her invite some friends too, so I invited he rest.. and they said yea sure. Witht he party coming up I was thinking of what to get her. I was excited... SO excited I went up to her and told her who was comming, and she gave a cheerful look and hug =). So here, our love was strong as ever.. not one argument, so perfect...

the beggining of a love so true

Chapter 1

It wasn't until 12 I started seeing some sort of potentail in girls. before that I thought of girls as 100% pure brats, haha. But I'm guessing they thought the same way of us guys, and probally still do. Ah, how rude of me. My name is Spire Ine, I'd prefer to disclose my age, but if you follow through my stories you will get the idea of how OLD I really am.
Back in the days when I was 12, I changed to a brand new school for the last year of PRIMARY! gee I was excited back then... meeting new friends, but I was never the type to actually go along with the 'trend' those days. People usually talked about spice girls and all, but I would never really of understaood what it was about untill that era was OVER.
However I did notice, that girls seemed to become more attractive, even tho, every one knows they really arn't at that age =p. as I gto to know more friends in that school I started to notice that girls and boys were holding hands and like cuddling each other. Hence I learnt the first word of 'getting together', BOYFRIEND and GIRLFRIEND. As baffled as I was back thenone girl in particular always had caught my eye. Her name was Laura, she was a show girl wiht yellow.. nah just kidding. but her name was Laura, I couldn't really take my eyes off her during class, and even times when we had to go to church and pracitice for the qoir.
One day as me and my friends were in church he asked, so, Spi, who do you fancy. whispering back I answered, Laura, but don't tell any one yea?. he said, ok. then the next minuite told my other friends which eventually spreaded to Laura, who looked back, and whispered to her friends, who then passed the message back to us saying yea, I like him to. My heart beated faster. In my head I was like what's going on? why's my heart beating so fast. My Girlfriends' said why don't you ask her out.(at that time not understanding that go out means ask her to be my girlfriend) I said, I can't my mum and dad won't let me go out alone. Then they told me going out with her doesnt mean you have to literally go out with her. Confusing me even more. so I eventually after 2 weeks understood what they meant by going out.
So on a summers afternoon I pulled some courage into myself and told her I liked her, she responed me too. With a little shivery voice I asked would you go out with me? she said yea. wow at that time I was so shocked and happy with a huge smile I held her hand. There was were my first love bloomed...

new post =o

Well, I havn't posted in a while now... for the past few days I been getting these crazy thoughts about my ex... I have no idea why, I even think about it... I mean at the end of the day she has ignored my text messages... about 80% of my Im's and my email... still I even do an auto prayer for her and really mean it fromt he bottom of my heart... but still... I have no Idea why.

Besides that, I went out wiht Ashley (my friend) latly to pyramid... ooo~~~ para fanatics lol xD we were so noobish the pros couldnt stop smurking at us xD. I think I'm getting better =p tho my arm did ache the next day.. I bet u ashley's did too xP no offence ash ahahhahahahha *clears throat* mwahhaa we decided next outing to go para again... before he leaves to aussie... prehaps have a nice time in the cyber cafe as well for the last few times... after that, I have no mroe friends to hang out with. No one I'm close to... Steven's gonna leave too lol isn't it great xD I have no one lolz... well I do, but no fun hanging out wiht people if thier gonna speak a language you dont understand amoung themselves...

Assighments are pouring in WOHOO *not* lolz but I mean I feel liek doing them.. probally somethign to keep me occupied or somehting I think oracle and director should be fun *grins* but then system design....*dies*. oo and events community service... dinner and dance....... PUBLIC SPEAKING COMPETITION @@ *sees stars* geeez alot of work... then theres a training we have o do for our assieghment... *wipes sweat off head*... thats a heck lot of work to do... but still I want to have a outing wiht my ex before her bday... shame she never replies.. I really need to know coz I want to get her a book.. and like, it costs lol. then my pet sis Jeng! her bday will be liek a week after my ex's. I need to ask sitoze if he's free to go for that one... as for my ex... dont even know if she wants to come xD any howz.. that day is all Jeng's from me to her as a brother =) least i could do... arranging a party... any hwoz.. thats about it folks... Adios and Take care...
God bless,
Chris